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Never a failure, only a lesson

"Never a failure, only a lesson," is Rihanna's newest tattoo.

"It's OK to make mistakes," she told Ellen DeGeneres, "just don't make them twice."

Up here, Rihanna!

She says we have to take chances and be willing to make mistakes .. but learn from them and don't repeat them!

Mark my words, this artist will be around for decades to come.

She has the juice - immense talent, smarts, *strong work ethic,* risk-taker, down to earth and the former tomboy is unaffectedly gorgeous.

Our brains are "elastic!"

Which means we can literally, physically, change our minds.

When we move our emotions from anger to compassion or love, scientists are finding our brains not only light up in MRI scans, but actually create a change in physiology. Sort of like growing a healthy brain - it's possible at any age.

In short, we can actually find happiness through experiencing feelings like love and compassion; they can actually replace negative and self-defeating emotions. This opens us up to new ways of perceiving and dealing with the same problems we've always dealt with in our lives that lead to more positive outcomes.

It's not a way to dismiss or deny the issues, it just gives us more tools to work with.

The article even includes a way to help you move from stuck in negativity to positive processing.

Here's the story, reported on oprah.com.

Distractions

Opening my home page today, I was stricken by all the silly distractions surrounding bits of real news and helpful information.

There were meaningless quizzes, games, come-ons meant only to entice you to click on an advertiser's page, superficial questions about celebrities - asked in a way that conveyed the sense that these people actually matter in our lives, massive commercial messages, self-promotion, links to websites that blare unwanted music or bizarre sounds upon opening, and so much more nonsense that has nothing to do with a real life - that suck up time without any payoff.

Honest to goodness - I do not care if "Brangelina" are together or apart or square dancing.

It made me think of the T S Eliot poem "Wasteland," where he writes of pouring sand down a rat hole - a useless activity that has no real outcome, but still feels like we're doing "something."

Then there are the folks who take their time to respond to stories - leaveing "comments" that are frequently an extremely poor reflection on the American educational system and proof positive that common sense is not so common.

I usually ignore wastes-of-time on websites, but designers are getting more clever in pulling my attention to matters that really do not matter.

Even the modern website's "hard news" section is never without some sort of celebrity gossip or misleading headline geared to entice us to click to a page promising us information, but which again is filled with fluff and pure unapologetic junk.

I couldn't help but think of the book , "Entertaining Ourselves to Death." In essence, it says that while we're busy finding more and more ways to entertain ourselves, the folks in charge of our political futures, money and survival information surgically remove us from having - or for that matter even wanting - control over those things that are crucial to being a well informed electorate - consumer.

There's a vast difference between information and knowledge; the former being useless or useful, the latter being actually true and empowering.

Useless data without perspective only lays out "facts" which are not really facts at all. Just because someone says something does not make it a fact or true. It's only a "he said/she said" report without ever letting us know what the truth is. That is typical political reporting. Dems say x, Reps say y, without any real clue as to the veracity of either statement.

I'm not sure it will help in the long run, but I changed my home page.

Neverending smile...

For some reason I have been involuntarily grinning for two full days now - I have *no* idea why.

Maybe something wonderful is about to take place in my life and my face is psychically forecasting whatever it is.

Odd.

Tiring - mouth muscles asking wtf.

And embarrassing in light of the trying times we're all facing.

Champions

This is a statue of Seabiscuit - probably the truest champion of them all. From start to finish, this "little horse that could" showed us what it means to win - in life and on the track.

What makes a champion is not really about how well someone plays a game - but most importantly, how they finish.

The stamina, the drive, the focus, the dedication, determination and heart it takes to play their best through to the end defines the champion.

To be in the running, we need daily preparation, paying attention to the basics and workouts in order to play well enough to qualify for that final competition. The champion knows all that work is required, relishes it, and loves the challenge of sticking with it to the very end, where ever that is.

The rest fall to the wayside.

This is true in our personal lives and work.

You've seen partners who are champions - they're there for each other, nurturing their relationship to the end. You've seen championship teams - they're there for each other, nurturing each other and the team as a whole to the end.

You've seen champions who choose the high road when everyone else caves to convention.

The one thing that deprives a champion of accomplishment or accolade is not being in the company of other champions. Peyton Manning could not shine as the champion he is unless he surrounds himself with other champion players there to support one another in their quest to be the best.

I've become very aware in order to excel as a true champion, to do all we can do and be all we can be, we need to work with and be with others who not only think, but act like champions as well. Who have a championship mentality.

I find champions are great communicators, since it takes everyone in the game to pitch in and we all need to know what each other is doing.

Champions are also planners - for the big picture as well as details; they can handle unforeseen problems because they've created alternatives. Plan B. Plan C. As many as it takes. Surprises and obstacles don't put them off their game, they maintain their focus and integrity through to the end.

I pride myself on writing scripts that have very strong endings - where most fail.

Champions are reliable. You never have to wonder whether they'll show up or if they'll show up half-hearted. They say what they do, they do what they say so everyone knows they can rely on one another on a championship team.

Champions look out for one another; they have each others' backs. On days when one is more frail, champion teammates step in and step up until the hurting member is off the disabled list and back in full force.

Champions are compassionate. They help other champions fulfill their promise.

Champions are courageous. Facing huge hurdles daily, they experience obstacles as a challenge to be outfoxed rather than a debilitating blow.

Champions are immensely resilient; they must withstand the slings and arrows of deceitful detractors. There are people who are so frustrated, who are unwilling to do the work it takes to be champions themselves, who dislike themselves so much that instead of working to discover their own worth, they spend all their time trying to sabotage and destroy people who are genuinely champions. Sadly, I've known a lot of people like this - some have changed over the years, others have only grown more bitter.

Champions win the game of life. They make us better people - better at what we do and better stewards of our own lives and of those around us.

Champions know that doing his or her level best day in and day out is its own reward.

Champions know when to adjust, modify or change their game in order continue to excel. Athletes must change up their game - constantly learning how to play smarter, because their bodies change literally daily as they age. They know when it's time to leave the field a champion player and triumph as a coach.

Champions don't cheat. They don't need to - they know that the moment they cheat, they are no longer champions.

If there's a need to move on to another team, the champion handles the "divorce" with compassion, integrity and respect.

Real champions are champions in every facet of their lives; they know fame is fleeting, fortune fickle.

I love working with, being with, people who have a championship mentality.

The trick is finding them.

There are a lot of wannabe's, some of whom appear to be champions at first blush, but who only disappoint in the end. There are a lot of people who want to be with or around champions who turn out only to be sycophants or users because they don't want to do the work it takes to be a champion themselves, even when they have a blueprint of how to do it standing right in front of them.

The way to identify the true champion?

How they maintain the integrity of their work day in and day out; how they follow through; how they finish.

Affection is not species specific

Pictures of any creatures being affectionate make me smile. And strangely enough, eat less.

Just as I declared yesterday a day of kindness...

This story says it all.

The staff at the University of Washington's National Primate Research Center allowed a monkey to starve to death last year.

A sickening and inhumane story, I would think, even for those who believe in using animals for scientific testing.

Make this a day to be kind

.. to yourself and others.

If I start my day with this mission, chances are my choices of thought and action will reflect it.

I think I'll post this on my bathroom mirror so I can make every day one to make kinder choices.

Tired of being ripped off by big banks?

Put your money in a credit union or smaller local community bank.

I have not done personal banking in a big bank for nearly 20 years; I use a member-owned credit union.

My money is protected and actually safer than a big bank because my credit union will never ask for your taxpayer money to bail it out. More, I make more interest, do not pay for my checks or checking account .. and the list goes on.

I use a VISA debit card from my credit union; I will be getting a regular VISA credit card through my credit union as soon as I pay off my big bank credit cards so I will do all my banking business through it.

My credit union has all the financial services of a big bank, and because it's membership owned, there is more motivation to provide us members (every account owner is a member) with terrific customer service.

We must be doing well because we have several branches to better serve members who live in neighborhoods away from the headquarter branch.

Online banking, bill pay, ATM service - everything I need to keep my money safe and flowing is available there.

Small community banks can also be more consumer oriented because they're run by your neighbors.

BTW, credit unions have had to fight the big banks for decades to provide all the services they now furnish. For years, big banks have prevented credit unions from dispensing major financial services through lobbying congress. It's only been in the recent past that credit unions finally got "permission" to give every financial service we all need.

I've only spoken about this before with friends and co-workers who have had difficulties with their big bank; but last week Ariana Huffington of the Huffington Post has begun a crusade to get everyone with money in big banks to put it in smaller community banks and credit unions.

Part of the reason is that the big banks' credit cards can, for no reason other than they want to, charge up to 28% interest on their credit cards. These are the same banks that took many many billions of our tax dollars to get themselves bailed out from careless financial practices - being charged 1% interest by the government.

So they're getting money for 1% interest, and charging us 28% for credit card interest.

I found transferring my money from a big bank to a credit union easy; because we can request the beginning check number, there's no reason to start at "0001" to look as if you're new to your chosen non-big bank institution.

I am so happy I made this switch all those years ago.

By the way, when I joined, you had to qualify to be a credit union member by being an employee at certain places; most of those requirements have been rescinded - lots of credit unions do not require a specific employment to join.

I am self-employed and have never had an issue with my credit union.

It's January 1! Go big or go home

I received just the jolt of inspiration I needed to pursue all I want to do and accomplish in 2010 last Sunday.

It hit me watching the Indianapolis Colts lose a winnable game and the chance at a perfect record because their coach pulled quarterback Peyton Manning and other starters at half time when they led the Jets, replacing them with 2nd stringers.

Manning has not slowed down at all - the coach just wanted to give him a couple more hours' rest before the last regular game of the season next week. After all, they're already in the playoffs, aren't they?

And he wanted to protect them from the possibility of injury in the rough and tumble game. Play it safe.

Problem is, we can all be injured simply walking across the street or slipping in the shower. Tripping on the stairs; most injuries occur in the home. The number of athletes injured off the court, field or diamond are legion.

Manning said he wanted to go the distance to see if he could win that perfect - winning every game in the regular season - record. Manning said his team did, too.

I'm not talking about taking ridiculous chances or being foolhardy - which simply wasn't the case. After all, they were playing the Jets. It was a winnable game within ordinary playing boundaries for the starters.

Champions are champions. They courageously prepare and play when ever they can; they push forward despite what might appear to be insurmountable obstacles. Champions are not rewarded by pulling them out of the game; champions are rewarded by putting them in a position that tests every fiber of their being to see how far they can take themselves.

That's what makes a champion - they don't have the limits the rest of us do, they make that extra effort; they take that extra chance; they leave the average performer in the dust because that's what they've trained their minds, their talents and skills to do.

Mind you, I'm aware that Peyton Manning is not the best athlete in football. But he and his teammates are champions. They have a championship mentality and drive. They prepare themselves to use their strengths for their greatest good and limit the exposure of their weaknesses.

Pulling a healthy champion from a championship performance or winning game is not usually personally experienced as something done in their best interest or the best interest of the team.

In fact, it can play on the minds of some - intellectually understanding why the coach made the decision and being an obedient, respectful player for him/her, but viscerally confused and unhappy that a winnable game - and record - was lost.

It's one thing to lose when we've put our very best work forward, another to lose because the coach decided it was OK to throw the game.

Now we'll never know if the Colts - Manning and his starter teammates - could have put an undefeated regular season notch in their long list of record-breaking achievements.

In my life, I want to know.

I want to know if I can do it.

I don't want to be pulled from the game for fear I might get hurt because I am fit. I've prepared and trained, I'm in terrific shape and have been playing a winning game fearlessly and effortlessly, accommodating my strengths and weaknesses, doing my homework for each team's unique challenges. Most especially I don't want to be pulled if I'm playing the Jets.

I want to go big or go home.

I want to stay in the game and give it my all - 110% - to challenge myself, the other team and final score be damned, to see if I can pull it off. See if I can push myself to overcome those insurmountable obstacles to do everything I wish in the best way possible before the game ends.
I'm not pulling myself on the sidelines to "play it safe" or let a challenging opportunity pass, knowing I'm prepared, ready, willing and able to do my best to the very end!

Lesson well learned, Colts coach, just in time for the new year - and the rest of my life.

Happy New Year, Dearest Reader!

May 2010 be your championship year!

True champions are not bags of douche

When I coached actors, writers and directors - I advised them: what good does it do to strive to be a champion at anything (I'm all about having a championship mentality) if in your private life you are a bag of douche (trans: douchebag)?

Get your act together.

Abusing drugs, alcohol, sex or being the slave of any addiction will ultimately undo all the good you've achieved or want to accomplish in your work and with your life.

Lacking integrity - lying, cheating, using performance-enhancing drugs, stealing, taking advantage of vulnerable people around you or with whom you work (or worse, who work for you), whatever, will ultimately undo all the good you've achieved or want to accomplish - even if that does not sound "fair".

The bottom line is that if you are an addict, if you lack integrity, if you hurt or destroy others to either "protect" yourself or in a misguided attempt to get ahead, you are broadcasting to the world what a genuine loser you are - regardless of your scorecard on the golf course, stats, popularity, wealth or box office numbers.

It's not just a matter of disappointing fans and people who may believe your hype - it's a matter of you knowing in your heart what a bag of douche you are. At some point you will sabotage yourself - your relationships and your career - because deep inside you "know" you don't deserve all the accolades and money coming your way.

You "know" you are not really worthy.

Well, listen up, because here's the truth: you DO deserve all the accolades, adoration and (possibly) money coming to you from brilliant performances and fairly attained achievements.

But until you clean up your inside act and live life in a way that makes you feel good about who you are as not only as an artist or student or professional or on the job, but as a person, a parent, a partner, a businessperson, a friend, whatever - you will be the cause of your own undoing sooner or later.

And believe me, once the yarn starts to unravel, all those you have wronged in the past who were too frightened or obsequious to speak up will pitch in to pull it apart.

As I put it, if you don't take care of the inside now, the more you appear to succeed, the worse the downfall when self sabotage sets in.

Interestingly, those who chose to continue abusing alcohol, drugs, etc., moved on - insisting that their "private life" has nothing to do with their art or craft.

Actually, it does - but in more subtle ways. Like addictions cut us off from our feelings, and the artist is all about exposing emotions. Lots of great actors and musicians, for example, have gotten clean and sober to enhance their work and their lives.

And may she rest in peace, stories of Brittany Murphy's drug abuse and body issues hurt her personally and professionally - ultimately killing her. She was never able to find ways to truly love herself - much as she was loved by her fans, family and friends.

The process has to start early, because without that early start, awareness can be harder to come by. Like becoming so egotistical you can't understand the injurious or destructive effect on those with whom you work or live. Ego maniacal behavior only makes for a desperate, delusional dragoon.

Bernie Madoff, for example, long considered a financial "star," is so out of touch with his humanity he feels literally NO compassion for those whose lives he ruined (some even committed suicide) by stealing their money, or even a shred of regret for what he's done. None.

Madoff's biographer Andrew Kirtzman said that was his greatest from his research.

Imagine all the engineers of US "health care" industries that make their billions from finding ways to deny the claims of their sick clients - people who have paid them over the years to "protect" them - causing more physical, emotional and financial pain.

The very people they were hired, and well paid, to "protect." Going on to actually cause the deaths of so many paying "clients" for which they will remain forever unaccountable. Except, one day, to themselves and a Higher Power if they believe in one.

Yet Madoff, like those under the heat lamp of scrutiny for their inhumane actions, want us to empathize with them, don't they? Have pity on them for perhaps losing a job - something millions of Americans are suffering this moment. Losing their lifestyle. Their money.

Worst of all - the greedy businesspeople in certain multinational corporations who have lost all contact with their humanity. Whose insatiable greed coupled with an undeserved sense of entitlement make them believe they should be paid many millions of dollars just for breathing.

In the end, it won't matter if they've been seen as generous contributors to great and worthy causes, or how much their progeny achieve after them, when who they are turns out to be a bag of douche. Alas, that reputation will still be their legacy, no matter the other accomplishments. Just ask Joseph Kennedy if you happen to encounter him in hell.

Seriously, what good does it do to be the worlds greatest ... most famous ... whatever, when as a person you are a bag of douche?



This is one type of douche bag------>





It is not to be confused with a bag of douche or douchebag:









Don't misunderstand.

I'm not saying that audiences will shun bags of douche, because in some cases it makes them more like freaks in a fishbowl to glare at, and people will pay for that.

Exposed bags of douche can actually make us feel better about our own sorry lives.

I am saying that if you want to live in a way that makes you feel good about yourself and proud of your achievements and hang around people who understand, love and care for the real you - do right by yourself. Start the process early if you want to bring attention to yourself because the pressure only grows as you succeed and there will be many attempting to dethrone you.

If you know you've been a bag of douche - to yourself and others? Now's the best time to turn that around.

Find ways to make you feel worthy - of love, money, adoration, whatever you seek or whatever good comes your way. Because when you are genuinely in touch with your own worth - you experience the worth of others and seek to continue to enhance not only your own sense of well being, but theirs.

I'm fortunate.

I know people in the public eye (I hesitate to use the word "celebrity" because I think of celebrities as those who have done nothing worthwhile to actually deserve attention; the folks I know are hard working, down to earth, accomplished individuals) who are not bags of douche, who have integrity, who live positive lives, who are devoted parents, friends, siblings, artists and humanitarians whose souls shine for those who know them privately as well as their adoring public because they, at some point, cared enough to learn how to take care of themselves - their minds, their bodies and their souls.

And the world is a much better, richer, well entertained place because of them.

Compassion

My new BFF Colleen Patrick-Goudreau runs a vegetarian/vegan dynasty she calls Compassionate Cooks.

It made me think of the essence of compassion.

How some people have lots of it, others have none.

Or if they do have it, it's only for certain people or types of people. You have to qualify to receive a shred of compassion from those folks.

To me compassion does not mean simply letting others do what they want, no matter their destructive effect on themselves or other others. Allowing a little dog to go untrained is not a compassionate, kind or humane thing to do to the wee creature, for example.

It also does not mean "feeling sorry" or sympathetic for someone - because to do so means that we place ourselves above the object of our sympathy.

A truly compassionate person is by no means "whimpy." It takes more strength to be honest with someone in a kind and compassionate way than to either say nothing or thump them using a false sense of "honesty" as a weapon.

The art of compassion, I have discovered, begins inside.

That is, being compassionate with ourselves. Without that awareness we don't know how to be truly and completely compassionate with others.

If we devote ourselves to being good to others but don't insist that they be kind and compassionate to us - or that we be compassionate with ourselves, we're missing out on half the joy of living a compassionate life.

If we tolerate treatment that is not compassionate - it's time to move on, creating a vacuum that will be filled by people who are compassionate, kind and thoughtful. And who knows, perhaps the non-compassionate people from whom we separate themselves may actually decide to become compassionate and return with their new awareness.

We only set the compassion bar as high for others as we do for ourselves.

So what is compassion?

It's an emotion evoked by the awareness of suffering others endure. And emotion strong enough to tell ourselves we want to take action - no matter how minor - to lessen or stop that suffering. We want to help those suffering, perhaps even protect them to some degree without taking away their ability to take care of themselves.

I was shocked at how much compassion I believed I felt for others - I've often been described as compassionate - until I realized how little compassion I've had for myself.

When I understood that we can only be truly as compassionate for others as we are for ourselves, my emotional doors, windows and floodgates opened, creating an internal dynamic that I can only describe as thrilling and inspiring.

Like an "aha" moment on steroids.

If you don't understand what I'm writing about, you may want to check your compassion meter.

Someone actually told me he didn't understand why I have devoted so much compassion - so much of my energy and life time to caring for animals - my many pets, volunteering for two years at the Seattle Animal Shelter, caring for rescued horses and (for several years) running a website called petcalmer.com, devoted to helping people care for their pets.

The reason he didn't understand my emotional dedication? Why he called it a "waste of time?"

I'll never forget his response: "They can't give anything back."

I was stunned.

The animals in my life have given me back far, far more than I have given them in life's lessons, unconditional love and devotion, companionship, cold night foot warmers, insights, unique perceptions, fairness, the importance of being a leader in the lives of creatures whose reasoning powers don't exceed that of a human toddler, and compassion. They've also shown compassion for one another and for me.

And unlike so many people in my life, they've never lied to me, misrepresented themselves, betrayed me, tried to take advantage of me, bullied me, insulted or belittled me or insisted I share their interpretation of theology.

But the fact is, if we have a sense of compassion, we're not looking for a return on our "investment." I'd still take care of animals even if they didn't give me all those benefits. Heck, they have yet to take out the garbage or wash a dish and I don't care.

An act of compassion is its own reward.

I couldn't help but think, "This guy's missing a compassion gene," even though he considers himself quite compassionate.

I bet a lot of people who leave horrific, cruel "feedback" on news stories consider themselves compassionate, too. Without. A. Clue.

Good parents expand their compassion quotient farther than they ever thought possible -

But again, having compassion for ourselves is crucial to that expansion.

Be good to yourself. Be kind to yourself. Give yourself credit for all the good stuff you do and have done. For yourself and everyone else.

As long as you're not hurting yourself or others? Give yourself a break.

If you are hurting yourself or others (the very definition of an addict, btw) - grow up. Get help. Learn about compassion - how to have it for others and yourself.

I wish all of us a much more compassionate year.

Ever feel brand new?

Like you stepped outside of who you used to be - and are entirely comfortable in your new skin?

That's the way I feel with so many changes taking place. Most have been instigated by me because I want to raise my life game considerably; other changes resulted from my reaction to unexpected events because this determines how I respond to just about everything in the future.

I think all the work I've done relating to who I am, how I want to deal with the world - and how I want the world to deal with me - has come together, and I could not be happier.

My new "awareness - intention - action!" lifestyle makes a noticeable difference; it influences my perceptions (what's *really* important as opposed to what might feel important in the moment) as well as motivating me to do what I know is necessary and get long awaited tasks done I've postponed all too long.

Employing the "broken window policy" keeps me energized. It's the policy that says when you see something that needs fixing, fix it now, don't wait for the one break to become more broken, which is followed by more broken windows showing up, and before long those windows are so broken they need to be be boarded up and the entire area looks unsightly.

I still have some catching up to do - but attending to what needs to be fixed steadily, day after day, ends up with a very happy, healed outcome. Basically, it means taking care of the business of life and not letting less important tasks or activities distract me from what's really important - life, heart, home, relationships (human and pet), and making my films.

Doing some strategizing of how to get things done and planning what I'll need to have and do in order to implement those strategies is crucial as well. If this sounds rigid, it's not. In fact, it's a way to keep myself open to everything that comes my way so I can make solid decisions based on what I want, rather than feeling torn in several different directions.

It's sort of the Aikido of reasoning and decision making.

Aikido is a martial art that translates loosely as "the Way of unifying life energy" - it takes very little energy to deal with any attempts an opponent may make to attack because Aikido movement simply helps direct their own negative energy to be used against them.

It's going to be such a sensational year, 2010.

Bring it on, life!

Republican politicians pray for God to kill health care bill

I found this "prayercast" video and transcript of the Republican US Senators and Representatives' "prayer" on the Rachel Maddow Show.

In it, full-tilt right wing Republicans vehemently demand that God do horrible things to congressfolk who wanted to vote in favor of the measure to make sure it was killed - including claiming their opponents support a number of terrible things - terrible things that are not included in the bill. Which means they lied. They inserted a lie in a prayer.

I was stricken with these notions:

Not once did any of them pray for the best and highest good of health care for people in our nation.

Not once did any of them pray for guidance to help them assist their constituents with their health care challenges in the greatest, most positive way (Some might actually call this the most Christian way, since better, affordable health care is something Jesus might advocate- wait, according to the new testament, he actually did!).

Not once did any of them pray for the greatest welfare of our nation's people, regardless of party, regardless of wealth or station.

Not once did they pray for a scintilla of compassion for people most in need of health care assistance. It was all about them, their party, their mission, their money, their agenda - to hell with their constituents or their constituents' urgent life-and-death struggles.

No, they only prayed for what they wanted for themselves, and for God to be their henchman, to deal with their opponents in the harshest, most chilling, damning way.

For the spiritual among us, we understand their prayer was actually answered.

God said, "No."

The Senate version of the bill passed.

Christmas eve.

Amen.

The year is ending ...

and I don't know about you, but on so many levels I'm happy to see its backside!

For me it's been a year of massive learning, growth, clarifying direction, solidifying substantial plans for the future and becoming a Friar!

A couple disappointments along the way were pretty intense, but coming out the other side - good things happened from the gear shifting that resulted.

Reflecting, researching and resolving have put the approach of January 1, 2010, in good working order because of something I've learned to put between "awareness" and "action" in my life: intention.

Every night before I fall asleep, into the netherworld of dreams, I declare my intentions for the next day. When I awaken, I do the same, generally remembering exactly what I declared my intentions to be the eight hours before, when I left the planet for inner worlds unknown.

Keeping my heart and mind open, I strive to maintain an awareness of what's transpiring around and inside me - what's really going on, not what I wish were happening! This helps me see what I must do to make the difference in my life that I desire. I then declare my intention to do or get what I wish or need - resolving to take the action necessary to help it materialize.

If it seems complicated, it's not. And it takes only a couple seconds morning and night, but it keeps my subconscious on the right track as I move through my day - and dreams, I think.

So there you are - my way of greeting the new year.

I'm looking forward to it; feeling as if I'm hitting the floor running. No need for a "fresh" start January 1, my mojo is already running in fifth gear.

May you have the most wonderful, fulfilling and rewarding new year ever.

May all your dreams come to fruition; may every wish come true and may you embrace every day with the welcoming wonder of a child eager to behold every new experience and feeling that will greet her!

A sense of purpose

I wrote on my Facebook wall that despite my best efforts to simply relax over the holidays, I'm working full steam on the scripts I'm writing and developing. There are four of them, each a different genre.

Research, story structure, character development, color palette, music - all the tasks of a writer/director for every project.

While I'm totally present in the company of people I'm around, as well as tending nearly 24/7 to my aged Pomeranian - 15 year old Mistletoe - as soon as I'm on my own? It's an instant fall into creative work mode.

One friend noted that my work might actually be relaxing for me (as much as it ignites my passion, it actually is very relaxing).

Another friend told me it must be wonderful to feel such a sense of purpose - and that rang the loudest bell.

Experiencing the sensation of fulfilling my purpose is probably the most rewarding aspect of anyone's work. And I can only say once again how grateful I am to be able to do what I love and lead a purpose-driven life.

I've actually pursued my filmmaking purpose for many years; my writing purpose much longer - but those purposes were accompanied by other necessary tasks and work I also loved that were at least related to my passion in order to pay the bills.

As I've said many times before, we who do this work (paid or not) do it because we have to. Because that is our purpose, even if there is the rare wish that we could simply have a steady job with steady hours and steady pay after yet another rejection of one sort or another.

Few of us ever receive much, if any, support (especially from family) while we're in the midst of the grist of studiously advancing our craft.

Sacrificing is part of the job description - the most important thing to learn is exactly what we're willing to give up in our pursuit, because there will always be the need to sacrifice something valuable as we lay it all on the line for our quest.

And nothing less than putting it all out there for the world to kick around will do.

But now for me there is a sense of completion, since I'm able to (like all other self-employed folks) work on what I love to do most nearly 24/7.

Even when we can kick back and relax if we wanted to.

There's that sense of purpose that drives us; a desire to get better and better, for me it's also a desire to put a lot of people to work, and I have to admit - even on the very worst day, it's way more fun than any other job I've ever had.

It's something I wish for everyone who is pursuing their art, their craft, their dream.

Flims slate set

I'm really happy that our feature films slate (list) for 2010 is set.

I'm already working on the four scripts (one of which also needs an accompanying book and song) - writing and developing to write/direct.

Something I'm clear about however, is that as passionate as I am about my work, love comes first. And I guess along with that comes responsibility for the TLC of my homestead, friends and all my loving relationships.

I think this is the reason I am looking forward to seeing UP IN THE AIR with George Clooney - I think this is the lesson his character learns. Though his job sucks on the scale of humanity (firing people to cut the bottom line) and mine depends on the good will of everyone with whom I work. The last thing I want to do is fire someone.

For some reason today I thought of the late Bernie Mac.

At an Emmy Awards pre-show, along with other nominated actors, the interviewer asked all the handsome men their favorite "pick up" line. What they said to women to get them interested in going out with them.

The answers were many and vast. Talk about her eyes, notice her hair, ask about her favorite ... whatever, and so on.

When the question was posed to Bernie, who was well known for having a strong and long marriage, he responded, "My favorite pick up line when I was dating? Seriously?"

The interviewer quietly waited as Bernie looked at her thoughtfully and said, "Hello."

He added he did not believe in trying to deceive or impress anyone to win their affection. He preferred simple honesty.

I miss that guy.

Release, resolutions and resolve

I love this time of year.

Befitting the season, it's when those things that must - leaves, hard times, things that create misery - fall away, allowing a quiet snowfall of life to cover us, giving way to a touch of demi-dormancy so we can reflect on what worked and what did not over the past twelve months.

Sort of like emotional and mental assessment and house cleaning, which in turn opens up all sorts of room to prepare for what we know is ahead; tuning up a welcoming attitude for everything in store that's unexpected. Limiting expectations is the best way I know to keep maintain that attitude of gratitude for everything life hands us.

I have big goals, but keep the expectation low of knowing exactly how something should happen - or how it will look in the end. I set and keep goals - it's fun for me - but sometimes the way an accomplished goal appears is not exactly what I had in mind when I started.

Greeting unplanned events and experiences with open arms - especially those that initially feel so painful - is probably the most challenging.

Especially when, so often, the occurrences that feel the worst can actually turn out to be the best, most positive turn of events - or set up a situation that creates a much better outcome than anything we could have perceived in our unrecognized ignorance at the time we got zapped!

I think awareness and action are the best tools to deal with life.

When I've just let life happen without taking any responsibility for initiating what I want or what I want/need to do, I've run into some unexpected and rocky walls because I wasn't paying attention.

Not paying attention to how poorly someone treats us can result in being unnecessarily hurt; not paying attention to those we cherish or relationships we treasure can cause us to lose them - and never see it coming because our focus was somewhere else.

I try to keep an ear and eye out for both sides so I can take action either way.

Walking on eggs around someone, never knowing what will set him or her off - is no way to live. People - even disagreeable people - are free to be who they are, but for me? Without anger or rancor after trying to deal with the situation, I need to extract myself from the situation in order to protect myself from what I perceive to be an unsafe environment. Fortunately, these are almost non-existent in my life these days.

On the flip side, to maintain valued friendships and relationships, they need to be stoked and stroked with affection and attention with relish and often - something I find incredibly fun. I believe the more love there is, the more love there is!

So it's time to take stock of everything going on in and around me - so I can see where I need to bring my game up, and where I need to streamline or alter what I'm doing to make it all work. Make my life feel like I spend more energy moving forward rather than treading water or being swept away by circumstances I could have influenced - actually changed - if I had been paying attention and taking action.

Every day life issues like work, health and my new vegetarian lifestyle are part of this equation.

I guess my goal in life is more than just to learn everything - it's also to be the best me, the best person I can be. Which to me means being true to myself and my values, being as kind as possible to others (honesty without brutality is kinder than patronizing someone), as well as taking the best care of myself, those I love and those for whom I am responsible.

So I guess my resolution this year, simply put, would be: to pay attention and take action on what I can.

There's something called a "broken window policy" and it helps keep us on track to where we want to go. It's used in neighborhoods where problems have previously festered. After an area is cleaned and fixed up? Every single broken window is tended to - mended and fixed - immediately upon its discovery, preventing more of them from popping up along with the onslaught of attending problems.

I'll put signs around the house - PAY ATTENTION! ACTION! - to remind me of my resolution. They'll also help me make sure to immediately mend every emotional or experiential broken window that appears along the way.

A whole new chapter

I think the tipping point was my friend Ragnar deciding to take the leap, thanks to the influence of Paul and Linda McCartney.

I knew my time had come.

I couldn't deal with the realization that too many animals suffer far too much to feed us when we have so many other healthy alternatives.

Realizing just how inhumane corporate slaughter is finally did it for me.

As of January 1, I am eating veggie.

I have been considering it for a very long time. Problem is, I - basically - do not cook. I don't eat "fast food," either. It's easy for me to grab prepared foods - and there are more vegetarian dishes that are actually tasty now.

I pay more attention in the frozen healthy foods freezers at grocery stores now - and have been choosing more and more veggie selections as I find what tastes best.

I actually love vegetables and find steaming them is fast and easy. I'll still eat dairy products, so massive amounts of broccoli with cottage cheese and/or tofu actually sounds good to me these days.

My start to consciously making this decision was choosing to eating eggs from cage-free hens fed organic meal. More expensive, yes, but I've cut back my servings from two to one - which is plenty for me.

Even though fresh vegetables and fruit are expensive, I've actually started to save money as I learn how to waste less food - how to shop properly by preparing menus.

My attitude toward cooking is changing - it does consume time, but I am finding I can prepare stuff, toss it in the pan to steam while I do other things, then bingo - it's ready. The frozen meals are also a snap.

The fewer ingredients, the faster the process, the less money I spend, the happier I am.

Some vegetarians I've known have had a certain pungent smell in their homes that I'd just as soon avoid; come to think of it, they probably feel the same way about my house. I'm avoiding the seasonings that apparently permeate walls.

Interestingly, one of the world's foremost vegetarian icon/cooks shares my name.

Colleen Patrick Goudreau is not only an expert in vegetarianism, but holds cooking and other classes IRL and online, running a virtual dynasty to educate the world in a way to help its people make informed choices about what they eat.

We have expressed a mutual admiration for each other, but I've been a little queasy about staying in touch because I haven't gone completely veggie - which is my problem because she has never been judgemental about the what anyone chooses to eat.

I believe I was uncomfortable because I knew I could treat myself, animals and the world a little better by going veggie. So making the firm decision feels like I'm taking better care of myself, animals and by extension, the world.

It's going to be a challenge - changing longtime habits is always a tough go. But I've been working at it for a couple years. First, becoming more aware of what I'm eating instead of eating stuff just because I always do. Or have. Or it falls into the category of "comfort food."

I have generally seen eating as something that I must do rather than a spiritual experience - and when I consider all the evidence, it seems like the way we treat our bodies is in fact a spiritual relationship. I've always thought of my spirituality taking place in my head, soul and heart - a key component was MIA.

No more.

Anyone who knows me knows that my favorite thing to do is learn - and I know I have much to learn in this new way of eating.

I think the first thing I'll do formally is figure out the tastes I like; actually write what I love and don't love; seasonings I like and don't, and grow from there.

Simple and easy does it for me.

Baby steps.

I guess even with great veggie knowledge and educators, we students need to be ready to listen and willing to learn in order to make the difference in our own lives as well as others.

I figure this is a much easier time to go veggie - thanks to so many like Colleen, Linda McCartney, Amy's frozen foods and more who have developed good veggie choices for us uninitiated folk still finding our way.

Having said all this, I'm sure to let my friends know that this is my decision, which is significantly affecting several aspects of my life, but I don't expect anyone else to do what I do. I will only share the experience of my journey.

ACTORS BEWARD: "Breaking Dawn" is NOT being cast yet!

Online scammers (these guys are the worst of the worst) are trying to collect money from actors interested in being in the new "Twilight" saga, but producers say they aren't casting yet!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/34278561/ns/entertainment-access_hollywood/


If you have fallen for their lies and actually sent money, contact your state's Attorney General office. Easy to find online under your state's website.

Are we "policy sheep?"

Last month while visiting my parents in Palm Springs, I used the public library computer to buy airplane tickets and reserve a hotel room for a business trip I had to take immediately.

Having done this procedure hundreds of times before, it never occurred to me that the website I used would have a calendar error.

I clicked what has always been the current month's calender next to the request, I clicked on what I assumed to be the current month.

Imagine my surprise when I discovered a day later the calender next to the booking date was NEXT month's. So I immediately changed the airplane dates, for which I was penalized $150.

For the hotel, however, I was told I would be charged the full price (nearly $1,000) for the days I would not be staying a full month later. That when you click the "I agree to pay" box, you agree that you're booked hook, line and sinker, whether you're there or not, no matter the cost.

They ARE free, however, to re-book the room if it's empty.

I don't mention the hotel in this matter because it's not their policy - it's the online booking agent's - continental.com.

Every person to whom I spoke said only, "It's company policy." "It's our policy." "It's the policy."

I asked to speak to a supervisor and was put on permanent hold.

I called back and was never put through to anyone at management level. I believe I was talking to people in India. It was clear the "customer service" people I addressed had no idea what to do when I asked to speak to their supervisor.

Here's what I told them (paraphrasing, but I said it in a way that I told them I hoped they recorded):

"Just having a 'policy' does not mean that it is just, fair, or legal.

"Paying for services or products that are not received - that in fact you have no intention of delivering, constitutes FRAUD. Fraud is a crime. A policy supporting fraud is - without a doubt - illegal."

Even if there is a box that says - out loud or surreptitiously - you must pay whether or not you receive the services/product - is not enforceable because it is still promoting ... say it with me ... fraud. Which is, again ... say it with me ... illegal.

Clicking or agreeing to a fraudulent practice is still partaking in an unenforceable "policy" because by its very nature the policy is part of a fraudulent practice.

Now, the only reason these greedy policies have been able to get away with this is because we haven't protested or challenged this "policy."

Most of us feel that there's nothing we can do because they are this huge corporate monolith (or a bunch of sad little yes-people stuck in cubicles taking calls from people getting ripped off who are told only to say "It's our policy." "It's the policy." And nothing else.

Here's another point: while it's supposedly continental.com's "policy," the fact is that they did not charge me a full price for the airplane flight I did not take - they charged me for the change of dates.

I would have paid the fee for changing my hotel dates as a cost of doing business (even though I still believed that the initial website's calendar error), but they refused to change the dates - I would be charged full price for the hotel rooms on the dates I mistakenly reserved even though I was changing the dates and was staying at the same hotel on the new dates.

Alone? I haven't got a shot at getting my money back unless I were rich enough to take on these corporations surrounded by lawyers who simply point at the policy we are forced to click if we want to buy a ticket or hotel room and leave it at that.

Just because we are forced to click an agreement does not mean that it is an enforceable agreement if the agreement by its very nature is wrong, unfair or illegal.

But, Dearest Reader, I did something right.

I paid the bill with my VISA card.

VISA has its own policy: if you think you've been ripped off by someone you've paid with VISA? You report the suspected individual/company, and if they agree you have a good cause, VISA will take your case, representing you in an effort to 1) not pay the bill or 2) get your money back.

In this case they will also be challenging this policy, because even if the initial error on the website was responsible, the consumer is still held liable for payment by the corporation. In other words, even if the consumer were not in any way responsible for the booking error, they are still charged.

VISA can check out just how many of us have been charged for services never rendered - was that calendar error common or a fluke? Are we forced to agree to a policy that is in fact intended to collect "free money?"

While the error would not have been made if I had called in the reservation (which also costs more money these days), the fact is, for VISA, I have a paper trail a mile long thanks to my computer interactions.

Now, if you have been victimized by a policy that is clearly unfair or illegal, and you use VISA (I don't know if other credit cards have this customer-friendly policy), report them. Refuse to be abused and you know when you're being abused - when you're paying for something you never receive.

In my case, I explained my issue in detail to the VISA representative and she assured me, if all my evidence supports what I just said (which it does) that VISA will indeed put in a good faith effort to get my money back and investigate the policy.

I figure just fighting my individual case won't help the thousands - maybe millions - of others victimized by this practice. The policy has to be changed.

I'm also sending copies of my information and evidence to my US Senators Patty Murray and Maria Cantwell, requesting they investigate this "policy" and perhaps sponsor legislation that does not permit this abuse in the future.

I *hate* the thought of creating one more law for businesses to deal with, but every law like this is brought about by the abuse of consumers. These businesses assume consumers will sheepishly fold when they are told something is a policy, no matter how wrong, unfair, or in fact, illegal.

Contacting your US Representatives and Senators is something you can do even if you don't have all your papers - if it's been awhile since you had an experience like this or didn't keep your papers. They take plenty of anecdotal evidence - personal stories from people who have been victimized by a "policy."

To contact your US Representative, find out who they are and how to contact them here.

To contact your US Senator, find out who they are and how to contact them here.

VISA contact info is on your card.

The VISA rep told me that there are a number of hotels, airlines and other travel companies that have this policy - and my case will provide an insight into the policy's veracity.

Seriously, the word policy only means "a course of action." It is not a law.

Heck, even laws that are unfair or unconstitutional can be changed.

Um, that's FRIAR CP now

It is with the deepest humility and the greatest pride that I tell you I have been accepted into the New York City's 105 year-old Friars Club.

After screening my film THE WHOLE TRUTH at the maiden Friars Club International Comedy Film Festival in October, a Friar who loved our film checked out my background and decided I was on of "them."

Before becoming a full time filmmaker, I was a journalist for TV, radio and newspapers - including positions as news director, columnist, commentator, reporter, photographer and editor.

I've also acted in the theater, worked as an acting coach, sung professionally, have done stand up comedy (years ago - I'd share some of my material, but since his assassination, Lincoln jokes just don't sell ...), MC'd many shows and even did a turn as a celebrity auctioneer here and there.

I produced, wrote and directed some 19 short films using all formats (film/video) while I was an acting coach.

Oh yeah, and I yodel.

I have actively supported what Friars have stood for over the years - the freedom to laugh at ourselves and others, particularly those who would try to manipulate or control us. Come to think of it, I was elected class clown when I graduated from high school. This was NOT considered a good thing at the time.

Potential members have to be nominated by two Friars, who must write a short essay about the perspective member's qualifications, character and why s/he would make a good Friar. We nominees then submit an essay as well as personal and professional information plus personal and business references to be vetted by the organization. If approved, we are interviewed individually by a Friar in person at the Friars Club in NYC.

Walking through the Club (a six story building with its own restaurant, gym, meeting rooms of all sizes and some rooms with full bars) is an emotional journey for anyone associated with show business.

Each room is rife with a history that feels personal because so many members are well known - many the most famous performers of the past century including George M. Cohan, Irving Berlin, and just about any movie star you could name. "Behind the scenes" stars that make it all happen are also members - including producers, agents, publicists, athletes, entertainment attorneys, directors, writers and composers.

A familiar large photo of Lucille Ball oversees the Lucille Ball Room; there's also the Ed Sullivan Room, the George Burns Room, the Frank Sinatra Dining Room and many more.

Although I spent several hours in the building with my primary sponsor, I didn't want to take the time away from our conversation to take the hundreds of photos I saw in my head.



















I did catch a couple snapshots - one of this hallway near the entryway. I'll shoot the whole place next time I'm there and of course post them here for you to peruse.

My interview was conducted in the Billy Crystal Room by one of the more distinguished members (not sure he'd agree - but it's true); a producer of Curb Your Enthusiasm and successful producer/executive producer for stage, TV and films.

He's watching my feature film THE WHOLE TRUTH and reading one of my books, THE 100% SOLUTION, for background. I'm currently rewriting my problem-solving book with a new title for re-release.

Among the dozens of things we chatted about, we agreed that no matter where we are in the industry's food chain, what makes a Friar is the devotion, discipline, work ethic and passion for our art, craft, work and personal achievements, as well as a generous heart - the desire and willingness to help others.

The Friars motto is Latin for "above all, brotherhood." Which of course is gender inclusive since they voted to admit women several decades ago. In fact, the Club is all-inclusive.

Members come to the smoke-free Club to have a place to relax, work out, hold a meeting, have a drink, dinner, lunch, teach a class. No cash is ever on hand at the club. Whatever is purchased is put on the member's number and the member pays that bill periodically. Friars are friendly and welcoming, knowing that only Friars and their guests are allowed in.

Many long-timers have memorable stories about "back in the day."

The staff is equally as friendly; I met folks who have worked there more than 30 years. I hope someone writes a book about the Friars Club - the place has seen it all.

While there are many senior members - among the most respected in the business, a number of distinguished younger members are also involved.

After our discussion, my interviewer met with the membership committee, sharing his opinion about my nomination and the experience of our conversation.

The membership committee voted to forward my nomination to the full board of directors; the board then voted to make me a member and here I am. - looking forward to traveling to NYC more often, having fun with other members, making the most of my opportunities, offering whatever I can.

It's strange, but for one of the few times in my life, I felt completely at home at the Friars Club them moment I entered. If you're familiar with my background, you know I moved 17 times by the time I was 17 (military brat, me), so it's been difficult over the years to feel genuinely at home anywhere. But at the first film festival reception in October (just two months ago!), I felt I - uncharacteristically - belonged.

When my sponsor approached me a couple days later about wanting to nominate me, I nearly burst into tears.

Needless to say, I was pretty verklempt when I received my official welcoming letters yesterday.

We're checking the membership roster (there are 1,500 Friars) and so far *believe* I am the only Friar living in the Pacific Northwest.

How to be kind to animals - and yourself

If you're not a vegetarian (vegetarians already know this) but want to do something to be certain animals that are part of your diet are treated kindly?

Eat eggs from non-caged chickens who are fed organic meals.

The vast majority of eggs sold to us are laid by hens who are not ever allowed to move. They are pinned in cramped cages where they can only lay eggs. I won't tell you the extremes some corporate farmers go to in order to assure these poor birds cannot even walk, but just know that they are trapped, and fed whatever helps them lay more eggs more often in their short, miserable lives.

More, they are fed food containing animal parts instead of the purest, healthiest feed.

Humane farmers have created farms that allow their laying hens to safely roam freely; most free-range farmers also feed their birds organic food. Healthy birds fed healthy food = healthy eggs.

Look for the labels on egg cartons: cage-free, free-range or words that specifically and legally denote that the chickens are not constantly confined in cages AND that they are fed organic feed.


















The "down" side is that cage-free, organically fed chicken eggs are more expensive, but I decided the extra cost is worth it to me.

I eat one egg for breakfast on a slice of dry whole grain toast with fruit or half cup of juice three mornings a week -guilt-free - knowing the farmers I support care enough about their animals to treat and feed them well; in turn their chickens produce rich-in-protein great tasting eggs.

I used to have two eggs with buttered toast and a tall glass of juice. My "new" breakfast portions are plenty filling and tastier.

Thanks, cage-free, organic food feeding farmers!

Thanks to My Pet Chicken for the photos!

Thanksgiving

After a whirlwind travel time: LA/Palm Springs/NYC, it's a relief to have a little quality down time to refresh, rekindle, renew, revitalize, restore and reflect.

As well as perform zen-friendly tasks like cleaning the house, dogs, clothes and a storm-swamped walkway.

Especially at Thanksgiving.

I maintain an ongoing list of things for which I am grateful; I add to it almost daily just before I go to sleep.


This year has been filled with a plethora of ups and downs for me - a stretch at both ends.

Looking back, I've typically recorded far more positive experiences, people, events, surprises and miracles for which I am thankful than the few negative impedimenta that landed in my lap here and there.

The up side is that I find ways to learn from whatever appears to be negative - in fact, some things that initially appeared to be negative either turned out to be positive or led to something that was better than the original situation. I'll explain in more detail later.

Something I'm incredibly grateful for at this moment is the appreciation so many distributors have for our film THE WHOLE TRUTH. I'd love to say more, but the word of the day is "negotiations," so I need to ix-nay on any omments-cay until the deals are done and they've put the movie out for you to see! When everything is done and settled, I'll share our story.

One thing new filmmakers should know: distributors will give money for a production they know they can distribute upon completion. Because the vast majority can't afford to spend too much money on pre-production funds, they don't - well, can't, really - have a huge say in changing the content of the project.

They do need to be assured, however, that the script in which they're investing is the script that will be shot, and that they're working with someone who can bring the film in on time, well done and within the budget allotted.

There's also the new type of product placement - wherein product representatives don't want the old "in your face" use of their products onscreen, but prefer to have them used in nuanced ways, the way we would normally use their common item. They pay money for the use of those products by characters in films.

Believe me when I say I am incredibly thrilled to know this, and we're going to make the most of finding production partners for future projects.

I include on my gratitude list things that can be ignored or taken for granted - like breathing freely, living in a clean air area, I have the healthy use of my arms, legs and fingers (important for a writer); eyesight is good, hearing excellent (I'm teased about having the super sensitive ability to hear like a dog); overall health is terrific, teeth cavity-free, rosy cheeks and I often enjoy a good hair day.

Trust me, a good hair day goes at the top of my list on days it happens - vanity, thy name is a cute coiffure.

I live in a warm home with a cozy fireplace, have three pups and a kitty to make life fun, wonderful friends, supportive family, unique skills and abilities, work ethic (I love my work and to do plenty of it), a sense of fairness, appreciation and humor that have served me well even in tough times and a good DVD player.

In short, when it comes to the important stuff, I'm incredibly fortunate.

Like love, however, gratitude is meaningless - it really does not exist - unless it's expressed in some way that brings it to life.

So I'd like to take this moment to thank you, Dear Reader, for taking the time to read my blogs. Nearly 300,000 readers from more than 100 nations tune in every month, and I am grateful for each and every person who stops by.

With my deepest appreciation,

cp

American Film Market

What a phenomenal experience and education.

The American Film Market is a gathering in Santa Monica, California, where hundreds of independent filmmakers from all over the world meet with hundreds of film distributors, brokers and producer's representatives from all over the world looking for films to represent.

EDITED TO ADD: I realized I ought to clarify this ... foreign distributors from outside the US/Canada are looking for films here from America and nations outside their own. It's strictly a business thing, filmmakers normally aren't involved. Normally.

I'm on a whirlwind schedule now so won't write a major blog on this now, but we met with many, many people about distributing THE WHOLE TRUTH, co-producing future films we are developing and laying the groundwork for long term relationships with some good people who work with films domestically (US), Canada and internationally.

With the appearance of new media - everything from wireless download phones and online services to Video on Demand to DVD to Blu-Ray to iTunes to Netflix to satellite disbursement to big screen releases to basic cable stations and networks to premium cable networks and so many more outlets, the options of a feature film's circulation are vast - everyone is seeking ways to gain exposure for any films they accept to put out to the world.

Massive restructuring and mergers continue for many as distributors work to finesse their effectiveness, but those who embrace the changes at breakneck speed continue to be successful as they learn more about new viewing habits of consumers.

I pointed out to several distributors along the way that while PARANORMAL was the #1 film at the domestic US box office two weeks ago with a $22 million weekend gross, that represents only a few more than 2 million filmgoers - among a national population of 300 million people.

That's approximately .66 of 1% of the nation. Similarly, a box office gross of $100 million = an audience of 10 million, or just more than 2% of registered US residents.

Fewer people are going to films in theaters. Ticket prices are too high for what is being offered; consumers are not seeing what they want to pay for in theaters. Even young film goers send in a sacrifical viewer - who texts his or her friends waiting outside the theater whether a film is good enough to pay for. If it gets a thumbs down from the reviewer? Everyone goes for pizza instead.

The basics must still be in place to get the best deals for worldwide distribution to be released in a myriad of formats: good cast, well performed, good story and characters and good production quality. Lots of other deals can be had with iffy films, but, with rare exceptions, the deals are not as good.

Quality distributors are also looking for long term relationships with filmmakers who want to not just make good movies, but to increase the quality of their work with every ensuing feature.

In addition to working hard to get the best distribution deal for THE WHOLE TRUTH now, we are developing three features to be made in the future - each a very different genre.

Stay tuned!

These Horses are SAFE

Helping care for horses at the SAFE horse rescue ranch north of Seattle is an activity for which I volunteer. Life is complex and frustrating these days, so spending time with Amber, Rhythm, Lexi, Bucky, Lola, Aiden and the other residents (most in search of a new home) is just what I need.

Cleaning out stalls and paddocks and clearing fields of poop; grooming, socializing (or whatever you call hanging out, chatting and petting them), and doing other chores to make their lives easier is rewarding for me and all the other folks who share our time with horses who have been saved from abuse, slaughter, neglect and starvation.

Jaime Taft is our leader - her family's acreage is where recovering horses call home.
















The steeds come to SAFE at all ages, in all sizes, from all breeds and with all sorts of psychological and physical challenges. Cruel and inhumane treatment is countered with a healthy, clean, spacious environment and loving attention from dozens of people who have a genuine affection for these animals.

















Not all come from difficult backgrounds - some have been surrendered by owners who can no longer properly care for them. Most are preferred breeds, like thoroughbreds and quarter horses.




Many of us volunteers love to be around horses; personally I think it's good for the soul to be around these magnificent creatures. Many volunteers would love to own their own horse, and in fact several of those who have the land to support them end up adopting a horse they've found to be special.



















If you're interested in joining in the fun - rain or shine - of caring for them, newbies must attend an orientation, where you'll learn how to properly care for horses in general and the residents in particular. It doesn't matter how much or how little background you have with horses, but be prepared for an enlightening education if you don't have much knowledge.




These animals need care, not sympathy, and they are BIG, so it's important to learn how to deal with them in a practical and kind way; to be their leader so they are socialized properly to live happily with their new families.






People who wish to adopt are carefully screened and educated if that is required; all SAFE donations go directly to care for the horses, their grounds and housing.

































This is a good day's work .. a massive pile of horse maneur - great for gardens!


































The time we volunteer depends on our schedules. Some of us are there just a couple hours a month, some a couple hours a week. We're all needed to pitch in, no matter how much or how little we can contribute.
"Sometimes you just gotta scratch an itch. It's way more fun to roll in the mud and field gunk after I've been groomed. Lookee all those humans staring at me with their mouths open, holding brushes and combs and stuff."
















The all important tack house.
















































Every horse ranch needs a cute dog.

All photos by Colleen Patrick, 2009.

John Cleese: historical, hysterical, profound and memorable

Greeted by a standing O from a full house, Cleese sauntered on stage at Seattle's intimate Moore Theater last night - revealing a gap in his upper row of teeth. His right canine fell out just that morning and there was no time to get it replaced.

"That's what happens when you get old," he noted. "Body parts simply drop off."

He is 70 - doesn't look it, doesn't physically behave "old." Here's a picture of him, pre-tooth dropout.

He admitted that money is the only reason he is doing these few one man lectures. Not for alimony payments, but to live on. His recent acrimonious divorce from his latest - 20 year - marriage cost him $20 million in the "settlement."

He showed photos of his ex taking cash out of an ATM machine in London, proclaiming this is all she has to do the rest of her life. Whereas he is "reduced to entertaining waterlogged lumberjacks and people addicted to Seasonal Affective Disorder at a remote location on an outpost of the Pacific Rim.

"Actually, if she had brought anything, anything, into the marriage ... even a two-way conversation ... she would have gotten even more money."

Cleese had a lot to say about the caustic relationship he had with his highly dysfunctional mother ("She saw life as a constant booby trap."), noting that anyone who has ever gone on to greatness in any field has had a tormented connection with his or her mother.

"They call it maternal deprivation," he explained. It occurs when the child fails to receive the unconditional love normally attributed to a mother's care for her child.

"People who experience it spend their entire life trying to be as good as they can at whatever they do." It's a sort of unrequited yearning to be appreciated or loved just for who they are - and who they are comes to be defined by what they do.

She and his father agreed not to have children, but 13 years into their marriage, John appeared. After which he was consistently and constantly told he was a "mistake."

Freeing himself from her debilitating emotional grasp was finally completed when she died. Just a few years ago. At 101.

But he thanks her for the darkest part of his sense of humor (or humour as he would say).

What is comedy, really? "Comedy is giving people information in the right order."

What makes someone doing something ridiculous really funny? "Show someone watching them."

Miscommunication always gets a good laugh.

The importance of comedy: "When people laugh, they relax and are open to a new thought."

Cleese says the emphasis on marketing creative work has killed the spontaneity of filmmakers and television programs. "Marketing (SPIT!) people are always talking about demos - trying to drive material to meet them rather than creating something that attracts people from any number of demographics."

Hollywood, the movie-making industry, "Is broken beyond repair. I don't write movie scripts any more because the people there have no idea ... that they have no idea. But they have absolutely. No. Idea. What they're doing. The place is a f***ing madhouse."

When "The Pythons" (John Cleese, Graham Chapman, Eric Idle, Terry Jones, Terry Gilliam)created Monty Python, they had no notion of ratings or demographics. They only wanted to make each other laugh, and took their comedy most seriously.

"We'd never fight personally amongst ourselves," he related, "but we'd pitch screaming fits arguing about the writing. This is funnier than that. That is funnier than this." One of the longest, most bitter bickering sessions they ever had was whether sheep were funnier than goats for a sketch.

Come to think of it, as he mentioned dozens of other performers or writers with whom he has worked over the years, Cleese had a fond and respectful word for each.

"Understand," he emphasized, "that everything, everything, starts with the writing. The foundation - it's all about the writing."

With affection and a touch of nostalgia, he discusses Fawlty Towers, the series he co-wrote and performed with ex-wife Connie Booth.

Cleese described producing the show as back-breaking. "For every one minute on screen we spent 40 minutes editing," he explained. Where most sitcoms had 65 pages of copy, they had more than 120. While other sitcom programs had about 200 editing cuts, Fawlty had 400.

He described filmmaking as being the most difficult of all writing forms, especially writing comedy. He said they massively tested A FISH CALLED WANDA for audiences - including small bits of business - to make sure the film itself as well as specific scenes within it worked.

As with "MONTY PYTHON AND THE HOLY GRAIL," producers wanted to kill scenes in WANDA - rather rude or tasteless scenes - that over the years turned out to be the biggest crowd pleasers.

"People need to be able to develop a style, and that can't happen under rigid scrutiny without the freedom to experiment."

Throughout his "lecture," he used slides and video.

He also used truth, and no one was spared, even deceased former coworkers. "Graham Chapman was one of the laziest sons of bitches to walk the earth. But he was also the best laugh compass I've ever met. If Graham laughed? We knew the audience would, too." Chapman originally intended to be a doctor - he was attending medical school when he started his serious work early on with Cleese. Cleese was on his way to becoming a lawyer before becoming a legend of stage, screen and everything in between.

BTW, Cleese comes by his "lecturing" skills honestly - before attending Cambridge, he taught classes in English, Geography and History to 10-year olds at a boys' school for two years.

Mourning his three unhappy marriages - most particularly his most recent, I asked him, "As such an ardent student of psychology ... you've even written books on the subject ... how is it you didn't seem to be able to use what you learned, what you know, in your marriages?"

He allowed it was a very good and "very fair" question, and spoke from his heart.

"This will be a straight answer. But what I've realized is that we can have patterns of behavior that are nearly impossible to alter when it comes to entering certain relationships, especially if there has been a highly dysfunctional relationship with one's mother.

"Extensive therapy helped me considerably, but not in my relationships with others as much as with myself. In the therapy relationship, there is something called transference, wherein you develop a deeply trusting relationship with the therapist that you either had or should have had with your mother. There I developed a feeling of trust I had not experienced before. I personally benefited greatly from therapy."

And I would suggest that the world has benefited greatly from having John Cleese among us; count me among the most grateful.

An intimate evening with the inimitable John Cleese

And I assume memorable.

Cleese is talking about his work and his life - then taking questions from the audience, and I'm so looking forward to it.

He's speaking at Seattle's Moore Theater, a venue small enough to allow some faux-real intimacy between him and us audience members. I have a great seat close up; I plan to take notes since he's talking about his work.

I believe he's a genius in the realm of the psychology of comedy.

You'd think as much as he knows about psychology (he's even written books on the subject) Cleese would have successful marriages, but ... no.

Word has it he's going to talk about his marriages - in fact his litany of appearances are titled, "A Final Wave at the World or The Alimony Tour, Year One." Apparently he's paying alimony with the money he makes from these speaking engagements.

Which means his performance should be hysterical - after all, pain+time=humor.

Speaking of pain, like so many men over 50, he's also discussing his current and recurring medical problems, and, like all beauty contestants - is addressing the issue of world peace.

Sean, Elisabeth and Eric are booming!

THE WHOLE TRUTH stars Sean Patrick Flanery, Elisabeth Röhm and Eric Roberts are appearing on big and little screens now!

Sean Patrick stars in BOONDOCK SAINTS II - the story of two Irish American brothers whose destiny is to eradicate evil doers from their community that law enforcement seems incapable of stopping.

He Tweets (@seanflanery if you want to sign up)that theaters in Pennsylvania, New York, Hartford, Rhode Island, Boston and L.A. have just opened the blockbuster.

THIS JUST IN: Opening weekend (Oct 30-Nov 1 2009) found BSII:ASD with boffo box office - nearly $7,000 per screen on the 78 venues it's showing! The #1 film, THIS IS IT, got $6,119/screen on 3,481 venues. Even with those few screens opening, Boondock slid into the #16 box office spot!

Congratulations, SPF and BS'ers!

In case you don't know, all the references he makes to "Donut?" Sean Patrick's a very healthy eater, but he named an abused pitbull he rescued several years ago... Donut. Or as I like to call her, "The D to the nut.."

While he's moving toward an international hit with BSII: All Saints Day, Elisabeth debuts on the ... um ... television screen (can't say "small screen" any longer - most are pretty large) in HEROES tomorrow - Monday, Nov. 2, on NBC TV - for several appearances as a recurring character.

More, Elisabeth just released her novel, Nerissa, on amazon.com; it's a Kindle book.

Eric Roberts not only stars in the STARZ series CRASH, he's in the upcoming feature THE EXPENDABLES along with Bruce Willis, Sylvester Stallone and a dozen other big action names.

I can hardly wait to announce that you'll be seeing their work in THE WHOLE TRUTH on all those big and HD screens as well!

It's been a very steep learning curve, this business of distributing an independent commercial film, but it's very exciting now that we've found some distributors who love the film and are working hard to get it out for you to see!

Great, hard working talent always finds new and exciting projects to please their fans.

Living life courageously

Does not mean living life carelessly.

--cp

Anonymous defamatory US bloggers no longer immune from legal repercussions

Legal Zoom.com reports that US bloggers who believe they can assail anyone any way they wish by claiming anonymity may start running into a legal buzz saw now after new court rulings hold bloggers accountable for their defamatory comments.

Read the story here.

Basically, the courts ruled that bloggers can no longer post harmful, hurtful, derogatory statements about others anonymously without recrimination. Further, the courts have the power to discover the blogger's identity and hold him or her responsible for posting injurious comments on the www.

Previously, courts gave wide leeway to anonymous bloggers under the First Amendment.

In new decisions, they are tempering freedom of speech and expression First Amendment rights with the reality of the extensive reach and international power of the Internet - the potential damage that can be done to reputations, careers and lives - far beyond the boundaries of the US.

Just because you can physically yell "fire" in a crowded room where there is no fire, putting everyone at risk, doesn't mean it's legal under the First Amendment - because it's not.

One reason you'll see more of these cases because more people who are libeled or slandered are fighting back - including those who might be considered public personalities (or "celebrities;" ordinarily there are practically no recriminations for saying anything about them); one of the cases involved a model, for example.

One thing I love to do - a lot

Be a good friend.

Just being there to lighten the load is the best.

Allowing someone to be there for you is a genuine gift to the people you invite in.

Much love.

Counting down to Nov 2 HEROES!

Elisabeth Röhm joins the cast for several episodes Monday, Nov. 2!

Here's her story line: she plays a kicking serious butt CIA agent, Lauren Gilmore, who at one time was very close with HRG (major Hero for the uninitiated).

They worked together and at one point had the opportunity to get even closer - but both chose to be ethical, since he was married at the time.

Deal is, to prevent any further stress for her (read: sexual tension, unrequited love, which as you know can create a distraction from major booty kicking), he erases her memory of their (Platonic but wanting more) relationship.

UPDATE: As it turns out, the story flips to HER erasing her own memory about their unrequited love - she "goes Haitian" on her own.

Flash forward to Nov 2, 2009.

Lauren shows up again - but even with her "memory" erased, she senses that she knows HRG on a very deep level. As Elisabeth put it, "like a soulmate."

So he's tormented. Only recently single, he knows what they've meant to one another, what they've felt - what he has continued to feel, but should he tell her? Should he allow himself to become close again?

She's confused, but knows there must be an unexplainable connection. A connection that feels strong, undeniable and "right."

As she told TV Guide (the picture is from its online interview with her), Elisabeth believes the idea of a soulmate resonates with her. That there are people with whom we are simply "meant to be." They may not be our spouses, or even in a sexual relationship at all - but there is a palpable, very real yet unexplainable heart, or soul, connection.

So we're left to wonder: will she figure it out? Will he tell her? Will she want to get closer? Will he allow their relationship to re-ignite now that they are both single? Will he tell her she erased her memory of their budding romance?

OK, because I happen to have directed her in THE WHOLE TRUTH I got some backstage ... well, I can't exactly call it "dirt," so I'll call it ... insight.

First and foremost, she has been incredibly "Impressed with the quality of work that everyone here strives to achieve." She says every one in every position at Heroes cares deeply about this program. Producers, directors, writers, actors, crew, no one takes their work on Heroes casually.

I pointed out that Heroes program runners don't have any say over changing program nights or times or delays in airing episodes, all of which have really upset fans. That's the network's doing. Folks associated with the show can only lodge their displeasure, but they are at the mercy of the same folks who have put Jay Leno on every week night at 10pm.

As for the work itself, Elisabeth says that the Heroes actors are the *best!* She says that to a person, every cast member has been professional, great to hang out with and are not afraid to do whatever it takes to make a scene work best.

Also that Heroes staff, cast and crew care very deeply about their fans.

Of course they're disappointed in the failing ratings - but they don't blame fans. They know their fans have had to endure some problems with the show and are doing everything they can to turn that around.

They hope bringing Elisabeth Röhm in for their first ever exploration of a romantic relationship in the mix of all those superpowers will strengthen their center, their core. I know I will be tuned in to my NBC channel Monday, Nov. 2, 8pm Eastern/Pacific 7pm Central.

And I can't help but think the greatest super power of all is love.

My favorite new TV show

Of all the new comedies and dramas, for me this fall's breakout hit is THE GOOD WIFE.

The number one reason to watch: Julianna Margulies.

Heading a spectacular cast of mega-talented actors - she not only carries the show but has the opportunity to display a tremendous range as she flows throughout the multi-faceted day of her character, Alicia Florrick.

Alicia reminds us of how many roles we play in our real lives - responsible parent, child, in-law, spouse/significant other, housekeeper, worker, colleague/co-worker, detective, citizen, supervisor, supervisee, pet owner, friend, would-be victim or victor - and the list goes on.



















Playing the wife of a jailed, sex scandalized politician (played by the actor-who-can-do-no-wrong Chris Noth, billed only as a special guest star), Alicia is a determined woman who, after surviving the excruciating humiliation created by her husband's cruel, selfish and thoughtless behavior, refuses to be deceived, or tolerate insincerity or dishonesty ever again.

Ever. Again.

So she calls everything like she sees it, even if it creates discomfort for those to whom she directs her honest comments, evaluations, observations and reality checks.

Because she sees the world not as everyone else *wants* to see it, or thinks we *should* see it, but as it really is, she comes up with clever, practical and logical evidence that solves the cases she is hired to unravel in court.

Courts are notorious for finding solutions that are legal - forget morality.

THE GOOD WIFE comes up with ways to, at least so far, serve both masters - legality and morality.

THE GOOD WIFE writers have dumped fabricated script twists and turns - Alicia's disarming honesty provides plenty of relevant, surprising and very real twists and turns along the way.

Interestingly, the side story of her errant husband is also something she is cracking through her new eyes. Intolerance of dishonesty means that she has to look at her own misguided thoughts, self-deception and conclusions. Could her cheating husband actually be ... innocent? Framed?

Having said that, and forgive me for not pointing out the significant contribution of each terrific cast member, including Christine Baranski, Josh Charles, Archie Panjabi and Matt Czuchry - not to mention the tremendous contribution made by terrific guest stars like Martha Plimpton (better than I've ever seen her, btw), the show itself - the concept and the writing - are the real winners here.

One of the first things I thought as I have watched each episode not just as a viewer but a writer-director is that an authentic, smart, mature woman who's been there, done that, is represented here, perhaps for the first time on television, the way an actual smart, mature (at any age) woman thinks, behaves and speaks.

She is a genuine, flawed, human heroine without being an over-the-top superhero. Wait. Come to think of it, I believe Alicia's hypersensitive BS meter is her superpower.

The show is still finding its "legs," but starting out of the gate with strong, distinctly drawn characters, each of whom has his or her own goals, aspirations and Achilles heels.

This ensemble of superb actors has, IMO, been thrashing about on projects unworthy of their talents and skills for awhile; I'm so happy they've all found each other. This one is hit out of the park for all of them, and with the growth that each episode brings to the show's creative team, it's only going to get better.

In addition to watching live, I also dvr THE GOOD WIFE so I can watch it again when nothing else I want to watch is on. I also do this with 30 Rock.

Honest-to-goodness, authentic, believable, intense, passionate characters and stories worth our time. And worth watching more than once a week.

Credit show creators - writer/producers - Michelle and Robert King for that.

Well done.

And well done CBS, for not joining the ranks of desperate network programmers chasing their tails to score a fad megahit with schtick or cheap reality shows. You've developed a fine, modern drama with characters we want to see every week in stories we find believable and worthwhile, dealing with issues we care about.

Congratulations.

Now. Don't screw it up by flipping broadcast times or days or showing reruns way before the season is finished - or all the other things that have killed great shows long before they deserved to be cancelled.

CV's, resumes, and bio's, oh my!

You're probably someone who keeps careful records of what you've done - so you can show people in your CV or resume or bio all those details.

That's what people are supposed to do.

In fact some overdo credentials by making stuff up on their records.

Not me.

I barely keep records of anything I've done, and that is not a good thing.

If it weren't for the actual published books and articles and produced films, I'd have no evidence I do what I do. And I can't find half of them. I've done several online essays and articles, but only my blog is what I have to point to as proof because I can't recall the folks for whom I wrote - there were so many.

Speeches I've made - even keynote, media appearances, classes I've taught - um, I just didn't keep track. I'm very much an in-the-moment person, tend not to look back. I'm not one to "rest on her laurels." That is, bask in something I've done that was well received.

Even awards - I receive them and am very grateful, then stash them .. somewhere. At one point several years ago I had awards and certificates all over the house, and someone told me that I was much more than my awards and that they could put people off - intimidate them.

I certainly didn't want to be known for my awards so I put them all away - in several boxes that I've stashed .. somewhere.

My producer says it would be a good idea for an assistant and I to go through the past many years tracking down specifics so I can list them for those who need to see them.

I always thought that as long as *I* knew about these things, that would be enough; but no, apparently there needs to be a record of specifics so they can be posted for the world in places online that verifies we are who we are, we do what we do and everything we've done.

Does that go back to 5th grade? That was when I wrote and starred in my first play, "Fishnet." No it did not refer to the stockings, it referred to catching fish, but was a spoof of the old show Dragnet.

Or 6th grade, when I earned a leadership award. But that was instead given to a boy because school officials said, "Girls don't need a leadership award to get ahead in the world." So the boy basked in his award. I was, however, given a consolation prize of some sort they made up because of their gaff.

Hmmmm.

Maybe that's why I didn't keep track of these things.

I moved 17 times by the age of 17 (military brat), so collected recognitions for one thing or another along the way. I recall I won a journalism award .. somewhere. As I recall I was co-editor of the school newspaper in 7th grade. I received a debating award .. somewhere else; and selected "best thespian" in high school.

I'd never mention them anywhere else but here because I'm just now remembering them; it seems too minor to list on a resume. Or the awards I received when I was in the US Air Force. I know there were pictures taken.

Perhaps because I've done so many things - and more than one thing at a time (at one point I hosted a radio talk show, worked as a freelance reporter for a TV station and fill in radio reporter for another station than that for which I hosted the program) - I've been a little sheepish about looking like either a dilettante or desperate overachiever.

Basically, I've done what I wanted. Almost never for money, even when I needed it, sometimes desperately.

It's not a way of life most would prefer, but it's been really enlightening, fulfilling, rewarding and quite a bit of fun for me. I just haven't kept careful track of all I've done; it's locked in my heart and mind.

But let this be a lesson - keep track, don't exaggerate - of all you do, because one day someone may tap you on the shoulder and tell you it all has to be listed so people will have proof you are who you are and that you've done what you've done.

As I say, my life's ambition is to learn everything. And I still have so much to discover.

I guess I better start at least listing stops along the way, and any special notice my work has achieved.

Another heart broken needlessly

A friend of mine just had to put her young dog down.

A wonderful bulldog with a great heart and loving nature, he was plagued with so many physical maladies I think even his veterinarian could not list them all in one breath.

The pup was sold to my friend at a considerable cost by a "qualified" breeder in another state. When my friend told the breeder the puppy was excruciatingly sick, had bone problems and more, the "qualified" breeder didn't return her calls.

Nor the desperate emails.

The pup continued to cost my friend considerable money in vet bills she really didn't have.

It takes only a few hours to bond with a sweet puppy, doesn't it. The veterinarian felt badly for my friend; the bills were so massive a discount was given.

Friends and the vet told my friend to get an attorney. At the very least the breeder should pay for the thousands of dollars worth of bills encountered for the pup, and return the purchase price.

Even with a lawyer, the breeder was difficult to deal with until another breeder - well known among breeders with an excellent national standing - agreed to look at the dog to see if my friend was in fact the cause of the pup's problems.

She examined the dog and declared he should have never been sold. Filled with so many genetic conditions, the breeder should give my friend her money back and help with the medical bills - there would be many more to come.

Which led up to yesterday.

When the pup of just a couple years, so beloved and well cared for over the short and yet forever time he was with my friend, was at last freed from his pain and miserable medical treatments meant to extend his life - a life intended to be happy, carefree and overflowing with affection.

The dog is now free from the agony he endured for every one of those many months; free to run and jump and do cartwheels or whatever dogs do in doggie heaven.

But my friend? She's left with a heart broken beyond repair because a (fill in the blank - merciless?) breeder sold her a dog he should not have considered giving away.

Excellent breeders would never allow such a blighted pup out of their care - they'd be sure he had as good a life as he could have for as long as possible; they would be responsible for the pup's care since they brought him into the world and something went wrong in their breeding practice.

Excellent breeders would also take a dog back if it were the case that genetic conditions created such medical misery for a dog. Or any animal sold by a reputable breeder.

My friend will someday miss her pet less. I still miss pets I've had who died in my arms many years ago.

But I'm left to wonder how many thousands of times this same crushing scenario continues because of uncaring, unethical breeders. PETA would say all breeders are the same, in it for money, believing none genuinely care about the animal whose numbers they continue to increase in our world.

I would not go that far, but I do know this is a scene replayed all too often with tears that do not cease, with arms that go empty missing the enthusiastic reception and cuddles that came no matter how short a time you've been away.

There's the absence of that special soul with whom doing nothing is perhaps even more noticeable than doing something, whether it's a walk, a trip to the dog park or a weekend to hang out with your out-of-town family, where the kids play with your affectionate pup - the pup they adore.

Kids who won't understand why he can't ever visit them again.





Rest in peace and play your heart out in heaven, little guy.

One step closer

Finished the rewrite of THE LONELY GOATHERD ("All Harry ever wanted was a wife and kids ... he got half his wish.") last night; two days of fun finessing and it goes to the producer.

With all the potential distribution/theater screening activity surrounding THE WHOLE TRUTH, it's important to be ready to roll with feature #2, and I'm also looking forward to writing our next feature script.

Exactly which project that will be should be determined next week; we're looking at the possibility among eight whose scripts I've written our outlined.

I like to be one script ahead. Have one film in the can, one script/project ready to go - complete with finished shot sheets - for pre-production, and one script written that is good enough to read by folks who work with us so they'll understand what's coming up.

The earlier crew and actors who are pre-cast can read it the better, I believe. It gets everyone thinking about the project - and the ideas we develop over a period of time can be very fruitful; it also helps us make decisions that waste less money while still providing the quality performances and production values that mark a Heart Break Production.

Who REALLY loves you?

Want to know who REALLY loves you?

Force your spouse/significant other and your dog into the trunk of your car.

Drive around a couple hours on treacherous roads - potholes, tree limbs, speed bumps, rocks.

Return, park your car and open the trunk.

Which one is still happy to see you?

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NOTE: For anyone who doesn't understand that this is a joke: this is a joke.

A joke I probably should not laugh at, but could not help myself.

Do not ever force anyone into the trunk of a car - animal or human.

Hanging out with Friars will do this to you. ;-)

Writing is such sweet misery...

I'm in the throes of rewriting my new film script THE LONELY GOATHERD ("All Harry ever wanted was a wife and kids. He got half his wish...") - which inspired my recent blog on the hair-pulling, breathe-in-a-paper-bag, sleepless, eat-everything-in-sight to "carb up" to prepare for my writing marathon.

And how different - lost and crazed - I look when I actually write than how I appear in the photos of me they attach to the work, in which I appear so calm and collected.

Having butted heads with the important changes I see and how I need to make them in the script thanks to insightful - and affordable - notes from LA script analyst Michael Cheda, who was referred by the dearly missed, late screenwriter and author (Save the Cat!) Blake Snyder.

While still a whole lotta fun, the story has a little more truth injected into its structure and characters; in an edgy comedy script like this it's easy to get goofy, and therefore unbelievable. That doesn't serve the characters or the work as a whole.

Like all writers, I LOVE to do minor but important tasks that take me away from my computer - alphabetizing my sock drawer, painting the dogs' toenails (choosing the right color can take hours), checking my horoscope to see what Christmas gifts I should get friends - or if I should.

I mean, if my horoscope says I'm in for a stormy time with pals ... well, there ya go. Money saved.

Or, if-

Right.

Right.

Back to work.

Rick's working overtime at THE OFFICE!

THE WHOLE TRUTH's own Rick Overton ("Uri") plays the dad of Pam Beesly (Jenna Fischer) this coming Thursday night on The Office.



















It's the episode millions will be watching because Pam and Jim Halpert (John Krasinski) are getting married!

We're so excited for Rick - that's us as the TWT premiere.

What a fine show to be in; hopefully the editing room does not leave too much of him lying on the floor - his first appearance as Pam's dad ended up without lines. Blasphemy! ;-)

While Rick is always working - he's been in half dozen big films this past year alone, I hope he gets the chance to become a program regular on The Office, or at least more of a recurring character than he is now, so audiences can get to know the great talent that he is!

Meanwhile, TV history would indicate that as soon as a pining, yearning, jonesing couple finally gets together, their programs die.

Mark my words - this will not happen on The Office.

The reason?

The other shows focused too much on the couple and their unrequited love and sexual tension. Like the goal was to do it, rather than be it - be a couple. Like couples who focus so much on getting married they do not focus on how to be married.

Pam and Jim's relationship is based on being a functional couple, their work, their sense of humor, the interaction they have with all the characters in The Office - not just one another. And their own interaction and dialogue is not so extremely sexually based; they talk and kid about everything and everyone.

Will and Grace made the mistake of making it a one joke show; all about sex. Funny for awhile, then like all functional relationships, we talk about something else.

More, Jim and Pam are good people, good representatives of their genders. They don't lie, cheat, drink, drug, deceive or denigrate others; they have fun; they respect one another and their priorities are in the right place.

They have no schemes of grandiosity, no ego maniacal melees - they leave that up to their boss Michael Scott (Steve Carell), and learn valuable lessons from his poorly pounded path.

I don't know about you, but I'll have popcorn at the ready to enjoy - and record - this week's episode.

Oh - good luck, Pam and Jim! Don't forget to put your dad in lots of scenes, Pam! ;-)

The only mistake the network could make with these two? Give them their own show.

Would. Not. Work.

Image vs Reality

Every time I see the picture of a writer, any writer - book author, screenwriter, playwright, yadda yadda - he or she always looks very cool. Calm. Collected. Smart. Sharp dresser. With a "knowing" sort of look.

Like their life is easy. At least compared to the rest of us.

They all have this "life is a piece of cake" expression. Like Pulitzer Prize-winning novelist Richard Russo's photo here.

You know what I mean.

As much as we're aware those are professional shots, carefully choreographed and styled, we still tend to believe the image.

I think that's half the reason just about everyone I meet tells me they want to be a writer. Because they look like they have the best ever understanding of how to be successful. Or at least look successful. And completely stress-free.

Did you know an author's photograph is directly tied to the marketing success of a book?

I write about this because regardless of whether the photograph is the picture of the actual writer, to a snapshot, they're all lies.

Lies, do you hear me?

Because writers wouldn't be writers in the first place if we had life by the tail. Something happened to us somewhere along the way that makes us want to tell you our story - in a way we trust someone will pay attention to. Someone will listen to us - read us, watch us, whatever.

It struck me that while people can help me look assembled, relaxed and casually on top of the world - like this old picture of me that's on my book Mind Over Media, it is in no way even close to how I look when I'm writing.

When we write we all suffer at some point(s), stressing out about whether we have found just the right word, if our stories (non-fiction or fiction) are strong, impacting and well constructed enough; characters clear and sharp enough; arguing and laughing with our muses and spiritual sources in the universe if we have them.

And we tend to personally and physically dis-assemble while we undergo the process of purging words into the world.

Creating something out of nothing.

You know where I got the idea for the meltdown scene look for Elisabeth Röhm's character in THE WHOLE TRUTH? The photo currently featured on our poster for the film? Looking in the mirror as I wrote the script.

Despite looking fashionably poised in this 1938 photo, I bet Martha Mitchell went just a little crazy when she wrote Gone With the Wind.

Some writers are so sensitive they can't stand the sweet misery that is writing. It gets too painful for them, and my heart goes out to them.

Some resort to chemical and other pain-killers to cope, but I stopped doing any of that decades ago because it takes off my edge and I love my edge.

So why do it?

It's just something we can't NOT do.

We simply have to do it because ... well, because it's something we're evidently created to do.

Created to create, that's why we're here.

Frequently I ask myself, "How did I get myself into this situation?" What am I doing here in this scene with all these characters? Why can't I be happy with a more secure, easier way to make a living?

There are those writers who simply put in their four hours, going to their offices, putting out the verbiage they are capable of producing that day.

I'm too passionate and physical to just sit there calmly; I need to grapple with all that I expect from myself. I talk to my characters; I listen to them, my muses and other voices in my head that hopefully result in something that makes it worth your while to watch, read or hear.

I maintain, however, no matter how cool those post-publication/production pictures look, we - most of us, anyway - go through a hair-pulling, crazy-making, breathe-in-a-paper bag experience procedure sculpting words on the page, and do not in any way resemble the photographs of us published on our books.

Happy Birthday to me!

While I have a full day of celebrating planned on The Big Day - Sunday: a 90-minute massage, attending the play 39 Steps matinee(British-hilarious), topped off with a sumptuous dinner.

Until then I'll just bask in the quotes about THE WHOLE TRUTH written by Paul Ginsberg, who attended the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival screening.

He's a long-time FBI consultant/professional expert witness. After 1,700 trials, this is what he has to say about our film:

"This is hysterical, and the funniest part is ..... a lot of it is true ! ! !"

"The Whole Truth is definitely a scream. Over the years I've seen lots of it in real courtrooms."

"I think 'Send in the Clowns' was written after watching some of my 1,700 trials. The Whole Truth is a tribute to the judges, clerks and court reporters. They will love it.'

"After 35 years of trials, I have seen much of this movie in real life. This is great, and should be required viewing for all lawyers. Funny."

"Order in the court ? No way. This is much more fun."

"The verdict is in - her hands." That is, Angela's hands - portrayed by Elisabeth Röhm in the film.

After reviews like Paul's, we may well be back in the Big Apple for more screenings soon!

There's magic in the air

What a rewarding experience the screening of THE WHOLE TRUTH was at the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival.

While the crowd could have been larger, the audience genuinely loved this film. Many laughs were had - including mine and I've seen it a bazillion times.

Q and A afterward was fantastic - one person is an "expert witness" in hundreds of trials and says there's more truth than fiction in the film and he thought it was a great, funny film; he wants to show it to all his colleagues.

Charlie Prince, who heads up the fest, was profuse in his praise of our film and how proud they were to screen it; he was surprised that it was my first feature because of its quality and the great performances of the actors.

One woman commented that she was "shocked" by Elisabeth Röhm's outstanding and hilarious performance. That Elisabeth was so "out there," when she had been only used to seeing Elisabeth in heavy dramatic roles.

Charlie said members of the fest's advisory board, including Nathan Lane, viewed the film and gave it highest marks, which is how it was selected.

I said of all the festivals, this is one I was perhaps most proud because it represents more than 100 years of advocating for comedy - meaning our First Amendment rights. To Friars, comedy is no laughing matter!

At the reception for feature filmmakers, we filmmakers noted that the Friars' festival is perhaps the most pure and pristine on the planet; perhaps since its their first. There are no politics involved, all films were judged for their quality, period, and all submitted were screened.

My partner Gary Allen Tucci was told outright that we were not accepted at one festival because of the way our materials were submitted. The festival runner said film festivals are "political," that if you know how to play the game you're in, If not? To quote Heidi Klum: you're out.

He added that in many cases, if the materials do not include something special and separate that makes them stand out, they may not even screen the film because so many are submitted.

Lesson learned! We'll have pop-ups and stars and who knows what else to include with a super film in THE LONELY GOATHERD (Heart Break Productionz next feature!). For other festivals, that is. We won't need 'em for the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival - just a good film, well made, which we know will be screened by pro's.

Edited to add: I've failed to mention the international nature of the festival! Films from any and every country could submit their shorts and features - and all the films I've seen from other nations (English and non-English speaking) are funny in any language, even those heavy on the subtitles.

Knowing how many nations submitted their is so incredibly humbling, since only a few features were selected for the festival.

I told Charlie he might consider calling it the Friars Club International Comedy Film Festival, but he said he thought the title might be a little long. Not for me, but I'm not a film festival marketer, either.

BTW, Charlie said they learned their lesson re: the luncheons. Next time, there will be networking luncheons for filmmakers! They were trying to offset some of the costs of the festival by having luncheons for big spenders, and realize now they will find other ways to do that.

My experience at this festival has been (still another day of it left, but the pressure is off now!) memorable. Our film has been treated with such respect and admiration; their appreciation of the work and us filmmakers has been palpable. I've also made some new BFF's whose work I admire as well.

Thanks to a producer I met recently, I was able to hook up with an influential attorney here who reps films in distribution and other deals, meet folks whose opinion of the film is influential and hand off copies of the film's screeners to distributors interested in getting our film to a theater near you.

Which, hopefully, will happen sooner than later.

For The Goat, we should have a pre-production distribution deal in place so we don't ever have to go through this again. Pre-production distribution deals (a distributor signs up to take your film, still having the right to refuse to distribute it if it doesn't meet its quality and financial obligations) are common, and with budgets less than $10 million distributors don't interfere with the filmmakers' process. They are free to comment at any point, but the final decisions still rest with the filmmakers.

At the high end deals with studios, the studio has a say from the getgo about everything. Which is why I remain "Indie."

And oh, so happy to have had the opportunity to participate in the maiden voyage of the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival!

Congratulations Charlie Prince and Susannah Gora on presenting such a successful event.

Friars Club Comedy Film Festival ticket info!

Due to popular demand!

THE WHOLE TRUTH schedule for the festival, where you can also buy tickets.

Location of the venues; THE WHOLE TRUTH screens at the Paley Center for Media.

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Saturday a.m:

I forgot to tell you that at the Coen Brothers' festival premiere Thursday night for THE SERIOUS MAN, there was a major red carpet for everyone involved with the film fest to pass through before entering the theater, lined with glaring lights and many paparazzi, all eagerly waiting to get shots of celebrities.

Well, John Fugelsang and I arrived quite early for the film, me believing it started an hour before it actually did, so we start walking toward the theater when one of the photographers recognizes John and calls out to him. John happily shook his hand and as they chatted, the other photographers were abuzz: Who is that guy? What's going on?

I smiled and handed them placards for THE WHOLE TRUTH, telling them he's one of the stars of the film - which is in the festival.

Suddenly they all started taking photos of John - who was looking mah-velous - and one TV crew even interviewed him with silly pop culture questions - at which John is the master. So whatever program interviewed him was sure to air it, he was so articulate and clever (Q: "Who has the biggest boobs in show business today?" John: "William Morris.")

Casting agent Russell Boast is meeting me before the 3pm screening today - some of our crew members (UPM Alexis Arnold, 2nd AD Jessica Hong, film changer Webb) - I'm really looking forward to seeing them again. A distributor will also be on hand as my guest; afterward I'm meeting briefly with a highly recommended distribution attorney who will have seen our film, and who knows what the evening will bring?

Tomorrow evening the awards dinner and closing ceremonies will be held; I hope to catch a couple festival films earlier. I've been so busy getting the word out about our screening I haven't had a chance to enjoy any other films but the Coen Brothers' THE SERIOUS MAN.

I've taken photos, but have to get a downloading connection for my computer before I can show them!

Friday:

was spent delivering a screening DVD to a distributor's office and checking out many NYC landmarks, carrying my film's placards, which I handed out at every opportunity.

Broadway, 30 Rock, Rockefeller Center, Times Square are but a few I visited. I had to take photos where Tina Fey works and walks (admitted fan), I also bought a 30 Rock cap, which looks mighty fine resting on my noggin if I do say so.

I walked miles around the city today as well as took taxi's a couple times. They are quite affordable here.

John Fugelsang and his wife papered East and West Greenwich Village with placards today.

Turns out the luncheon we expected to attend today was only for big spenders at the festival - not filmmakers. One of the organizers apologized profusely for the misunderstanding - this is the second time it's happened.

I think it's a reflection of inexperience - this being their first festival. We filmmakers are surprised, since the key spirit of any festival is supposed to be about appreciating films and filmmakers, not just the folks who pay huge bucks to the sponsoring organization.

Another similar for-big-spenders luncheon is being held tomorrow, discussing screenwriting. Which means that at the end of the festival, filmmakers will have had no special luncheon or dinner, just separate receptions for shorts and feature makers.

It's always good to have gatherings for the filmmakers so we can network, get to know each other and learn from one another.

Meanwhile, today was the first of the full slate of films to be screened - I'll see how they fared!

I checked out the screening venue for tomorrow; it is beautiful and state-of-the-art. Very cool.

The weather was gorgeous today, cooling just enough to make walking comfortable, just humid enough not to frizz hair that frizzes involuntarily in a very humid atmosphere.
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Thursday:

THE SERIOUS MAN, the new Coen Brothers' film, was extremely well received in its Ziegfield Theater screening. I've linked its TIME magazine review, which echoes the sentiments of the folks with whom I saw it.

It's not a rolling in the aisles laugh-a-minute film, but it is a reflection on the comedy of life - showing that we have two choices: real life or death that comes in several varieties. Do something that is true to yourself and you're alive, do nothing and stagnation will smother you slowly but surely, do something that flies in the face of who you are, no matter the motivation? It will kill you.

John Fugelsang and I passed on the reception with the Coens in favor of friendship - taking the opportunity for quality time. As we walked around the Central Park area, we ran into a number of people he knows here who are well connected in the industry - each of whom got a placard for our film! John plays two roles in it - one of which makes him totally unrecognizable.

Post-screening John had an appointment with Air America - he had to make another radio appearance. He's a guest on the Stephanie Miller Show this morning.

Meanwhile, I had a delightful late breakfast with filmmaker and actor ("ER" "Juno") Steven C. Parker, his mom and dad. Steven is the real deal - I'll see his short film BIBLE CLIFF NOTES this weekend. Watch for more of his work in the future!

N-Y-C!

Briefly:

Landed at LaGuardia airport last night about 10pm and wow - the place was empty.

Shockingly so. The taxi driver said it's been this way for a while and it's a concern since September is usually a bustling time in the Big Apple.

ONLY take cars marked TAXI, btw, from the airport. The other, unmarked cars, who call themselves taxis (the hotel clerk called them notorious "black car taxis") charge exceedingly inflated rates. The polite drivers approach you inside the airport, ask if you need a taxi, when you say yes, they grab your bag and lead you to their cars - taking advantage of newbies who don't know about these things. When they arrive at your destination, they hit you with an enormous charge.

I found you can refuse to pay that amount, btw, because there is no meter. The driver may not be happy, but there's nothing they can do about it.

Or ... so I heard...

My hotel room at the Wellington is just right - perfect location near all the venues, not to little and not too large, full of history - and not cheap but not inflated rates, either.

It's warm and humid - my hair doesn't fare well in high humidity. I've walked everywhere, so Little Orphan Annie and I have something in common, now, and it's not the red dress.

I checked in for all my credentials and badges at the Friars Club and my goodness. Talk about history. More than a century of show business and comedy history; almost all men of course. But the photos and the name-dropping rooms (Billy Crystal Bar) leave me in wonder of all the souls and talent who have wandered the halls and rooms.

The Friars were pleased to discover, after our film was selected, that our own Elisabeth Röhm is a member!

Other filmmakers showed up to register, and we all have that, "Been there, done that" look of anyone who's done a comedy (it's such a subjective thing-we've all taken our hits along with the praise!).

I'm also dropping screeners of THE WHOLE TRUTH off to distributors who have requested them, with the placard we're handing out to New Yorkers and tourists. I find myself talking about the film with individuals more than passing out the placards. The folks who stop are genuinely interested in a screwball comedy that isn't the "vapid" (their words, not mine!) version we get from Hollywood these days, but a modernized throwback to the days of Carole Lombard, Lucille Ball and Rosiland Russell.

Being New Yorkers, they all remember Elisabeth from the five years she was on Law and Order.

Interestingly, everyone I've met is quite familiar with the Friars Club, but no one has heard of its maiden Friars Club Comedy Film Festival that starts tonight, so this should help get the word out - at least a little.

ALL TICKETS MUST BE PURCHASED ONLINE NOW FROM THE WEBSITE.

Speaking of tonight, I'm looking forward to seeing the Coen Brothers' new film and meeting them in person - there's a private reception for them starting at 6pm, followed by the screening of A SERIOUS MAN, then another more open reception for them and the film afterward.

Tomorrow there's a special luncheon for comedy filmmakers; Saturday afternoon a luncheon for screenwriters and Saturday night a party for feature film makers (as opposed to the shorts folks who have their own party tomorrow night). Ah, the perks of being a writer-director-producer. I get to go to all the lunches, dinners and receptions. I love networking!

Sunday night there's a closing party and awards ceremony, which should be interesting since they've not let us know of the type of awards that will be presented. So we don't know if we're up for any of them, or if they're pre-judged, or if we just get a gold star for being selected in this historic maiden festival.

New Poster!

Here's the new poster for THE WHOLE TRUTH - it includes the laurels for both the Seattle International Film Festival as well as the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival - at which we'll be featured this coming Saturday at 3pm in the Paley Center for Media in NYC.

Click on it to get the full blast!

I'll be handing out placards with information to folks in New York City about the film and its screening on one side and the poster photo on the other - joined by John Fugelsang and possibly 2nd assistant director Jessica Hong!

We'll have 2,000 to pass out in several strategic places to advertise the screening and the film itself. With any luck, we'll be meeting with some key distributors as well.

I got my flight information today from the Friars - leaving tomorrow - Wednesday; returning from all the festivities and screening Monday.

It's going to be so much fun - hanging out with Fugelsang for two full days! Plus the luncheons and receptions and other appreciative activities they've planned for the filmmakers. The Friars Club is doing it right - but that's the reason they're establishing this film festival - they believe great comedies have been overlooked and dissed far too long by major awards selections.

Rabid raccoons

Sure, they look friendly and sweet despite their robber mask.

But raccoons are wild animals. And they become vicious when they gain a sense of entitlement or are ravenously hungry - or if they are infected with rabies, and raccoons are known carriers of the disease.

When people feed them, they gain that sense of entitlement.

Worse, they lose their fear of people. So they start to believe that people, as a genus, should feed them. Then when we don't feed them, they become angry and, having lost their fear of people, they attack us.

They also attack, kill and devour small animals - domesticated cats and little dogs along with squirrels and other wildlife.

The even worse part of feeding these wild animals rather than have them work for their food - they multiply in much greater numbers than they would otherwise. Soon that cute little raccoon the kids used to see when they walked to their school bus stop suddenly turns into a family of six, the elders developing a girth so massive they can only lumber along.

Along with the size, however, comes strength. Having to hoist themselves up in trees and other climbing behaviors to amble through our neighborhoods creates a lot of raccoon muscle we'd rather they did not have because it only makes them more dangerous around us, our children and pets.

If you are scratched or bitten by a raccoon, you must undergo an extraordinarily painful series of rabies shots - injected in the abdomen daily for its course of several days.

Ask the Seattle family whose dog was attacked along with one of its adult owners.

Vancouver, BC, is also suffering from raccoon attacks - including finding a rabid raccoon in one of its popular public parks.

A raccoon attacked a Tacoma, Washington dog inside the house by entering through the pup's doggie door.

There's no need to run screaming if you see a raccoon, and I don't want to be part of an anti-raccoon sentiment.

It boils down to this. We're dealing with a wild animal. One that is losing habitat and then multiplying quickly because of easy access to food.

This wild animal can actually be domesticated - and has been by several people, but we have to wonder why someone would want to train an animal still capable of living a natural wild life to be a pet. For the most part, cats and dogs have been so domesticated they're incapable of living on their own. And when they do - feral dogs and cats have very short life spans and are dangerous to people and other domesticated animals (including horses).

Raccoons still have the ability to make it on their own - as long as we don't feed them and make them believe they can be reliant on people for food (and therefore survival).

They are omnivores, so they eat just about anything. They love habitats that are dark and cave-like. Attics are frequently homes to intruding raccoons.

My personal experience educated me about letting wild animals - like raccoons - be wild in a very painful way.

I was caring for a farm in exchange for room and board while the family who owned the farm were gone for nearly four months while I wrote my book MIND OVER MEDIA.

There were cows and chickens and lots of vegetable and fruit plants and trees that needed care along with the normal chores of keeping fences repaired, taking care of the family cat as well as my own, Kitzel

I raised 25 chicks literally from being hatched to egg-laying age, which isn't all that long. One of them "Big Red" became a pet. Chickens make really wonderful pets. They love to be petted and can be very social. Red would follow Kitzel and I around as I did the morning chores.

A little latch closed the chicken coop when they were back in the coop for the evening. Fenced in, they got to roam around during the day as they wished outside, then I would close the door at night.

One night I was awakened with a cacophony of chickens screaming, so I ran to see what was going on.

A raccoon had, with its little fingers we anthropomorphize are so cute because they resemble our own, pulled the latch open and, within minutes, killed 13 of the young chickens. Including Big Red. I saw it running away carrying some of its prey.

I was devastated. I cleaned up the coop and made a much stronger latch to protect the chickens.

I called the local police to see if someone could trap the raccoon, who I was certain would return.

The voice at the other end found it difficult to speak, he was laughing so hard. This was farm country. You don't trap predators, you shoot them.

Believe it or not, a neighbor lent me his .22 rifle to take care of Mr. Raccoon. I hoped I could just fire a couple of warning shots and he'd get the message. Well, night after night I'd wait for MR to return. Nothing.

So I moved inside the chicken coop, leaving the door unlatched, waiting to shoot at him when I saw his face. Still nothing.

Then one afternoon, as I was writing, I heard familiar chicken consternation, grabbed the rifle and dashed out the door.

There he was. Dauntlessly marching toward the coop, where the chickens had run inside.

I yelled at the raccoon. Because he had lost all fear of people - someone down the road had been feeding raccoons huge bags of dog food - he continued to walk toward the coop.

I picked up rocks and threw them at him, even smacking him with one or two, but they had no effect. He kept ambling toward his prey.

I did NOT want to kill an animal. I love animals. I have cared for so many of them.

I fired the rifle at him, barely missing him (I'm a very good shot) - to no avail.

I realized what I had to do.

I shot the raccoon.

He was finally stopped.

My knees shook so badly I thought I was going to fall over; it took me awhile to catch my breath.
But I knew I did the right thing to protect the surviving chickens. And the cats, come to think of it.

Anyway.

Point made.

Don't feed raccoons. Don't leave pet food out for varmints. If you're inside a city, chances are you're legally supposed to report them so they can be captured by animal control or a borrowed cage. In some places, animal control is so underfunded you can't wait to have them come out to trap them, you have to use your own wiles to either trap or protect your home and family - pets, kids and other humans - from the intruders in whatever way you can.

New turns in life

This past week I seemed to have turned a couple corners that are going to influence the next several chapters in my life's book, and they are more exciting than I could have hoped.

An international distributor called; his company enthusiastically loves THE WHOLE TRUTH. He was effusive in his praise of Elisabeth Röhm's performance ("She was hy-sterical!").

He's now checking with his company's owners to put an offer together. We may or may not accept the proposal his company presents us, but I tell you, his unbridled excitement about our film was incredibly touching and inspiring.

He said his company just closed a deal picking up another comedy - one with a who's who of American comedy cast - about which he was very pleased.

He loves the contrast between that totally commercial comedy and ours, which is a whole lotta fun, but admittedly different from anything out there.

L-R Elisabeth Röhm, Pisay Pao, Sean Patrick Flanery

Here's what Uwe Lützen, a former marketer of English language films in Europe, had to say after seeing the film:

"It's an uncommon comedy. I had a lot of fun. I was thrilled to see a U.S comedy so extreme (well you’re the country that invented political correctness, right ;-), really edgy… and I can see why people can love or hate it. it’s just not what you can expect nowadays from a common comedy – or a festival film… it’s bolder and riskier."

I'm off to New York City and the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival next Wednesday, where there will be numerous special activities (dinners, entertainment programs, parties) in the Big Apple throughout the four days for those of us who have films in the fest, all of which I'm looking forward to, and will be making reports about each right here. If it won't be too awkward, I'm taking my camera (it's big) to record these snippets of history.

L-R: Elisabeth Röhm, Danielle Barnum.

Thankfully, I have help making it all happen the way it "should," that is, in a way for which I've done all my homework and am properly prepared. I'm familiarizing myself with the other filmmakers and films as well as getting help (big time!) for my wardrobe and make-up. That's the cool part of being an indie writer/director. We don't have to be haute couture and everyone expects us to be poor.

Meanwhile, I've met someone whose filmmaking insights, work ethic, professionalism, knowledge, thoughtfulness and artistic acumen are a perfect match for mine. Wow. Taking it one step at a time, this could be the beginning of a superb, ground-breaking, exciting, phenomenal and perhaps even more importantly, totally fun creative relationship.

Before I leave, in addition to taking care of my writing and producing tasks, I'm attending the Wynonna (Judd) concert, visiting the Western Washington State Fair, taking care of rescued horses, working with vocal coach Nedra Gaskill (rehearsing for the Christmas recital) and taking care of any other surprises that come my way.

It's all about balance, isn't it?

Wanna be happier? More fulfilled?

Ever heard of TED?

It's a brilliant website rife with presentations by people, some well-known, some experts in their field, others scientists, inventors and thinkers who share ideas worth spreading. "Riveting talks by remarkable people, free to the world."

The talks are supposed to last 18 minutes; most run a couple minutes longer, and I've found almost all worth watching, or listening to, while I'm multi-tasking. Sometimes I have to stop and single task, watching the speaker for his or her entire presentation.

In his positive psychology talk, Dr. Martin Seligman illuminates the study of psychology moving from studying mental illnesses - a disease paradigm - to the change studying ways to help "normal" people enjoy life more, mostly through creating positive emotions.

Turns out feeling happiness is not reliant on seeking pleasure, as most would imagine. A hit of pleasure is temporary, momentary. Continue to seek more pleasure-inducing experiences and you still won't be truly happy; you won't feel great without needing any other input to make you feel pleasure. The "feed me" pleasure valve doesn't turn off once you think that actually would make you happy.

If you know people who are constantly desperate for money or believe constant hits of joyful experiences will bring happiness, studies say nope, won't happen, now matter how firmly and sternly they attempt to feed their souls with them. In some cases, they may look like they're having a pleasant-to-good life, it still does not last.

The pursuit of pleasure - anything that is experienced as a consumer of pleasure - will not bring about the sensation of ongoing satisfaction with life.

An emptiness may still echo within.

What psychological studies have found is that what really brings about an enduring, enhanced satisfied feeling of a life well lived, happiness, is finding meaning in our lives. Pursuing a quest or task that helps others - dedicating at least part of your life to the welfare or betterment of others, a cause that feels larger than you.

It doesn't have to mean sacrificing your entire life to help others, but to find what makes you happy when you share, give, or build. The sense of selflessness makes a real difference in the quality of our daily lives, and we can set up our days to include this behavior in some way.

It means thinking of others and their welfare, their well-being, their comfort or happiness, brings us as much if not more enduring happiness than we are creating for others.

Dr. Seligman's talk is full of a more viewer-friendly academic information and knowledge to help you decide where you want to be on the Life Feels Good-0-Meter, with suggestions to support that quest, but these are just a few of its highlights that I thought you might enjoy reading.

I shared Dr. Seligman's thoughts with a couple friends who went with me to a baseball game last night and they found it interesting enough that I thought you might find it interesting and insightful.

What's working in your life? What's not?

With all that's going on regarding not just our upcoming appearance at the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival for THE WHOLE TRUTH, but our next film THE LONELY GOATHERD ("All Harry Lochman ever wanted was a wife and kids. He got half his wish."), future projects, personal and professional transitions and of course something called "a life," I had to take inventory to be sure I won't be overwhelmed by it all.

After speaking about this with my best friend, I decided you may like to know my process in case it might help you.

The first thing I do is write down everything that's working in my life. I don't mean things that I want to work, or that are almost or nearly working or that will be working soon, but only those things that are clicking like a well oiled metronome.

I don't just mean the "big" items, but things we can take for granted, like healthy pets, a car - paid for - that works perfectly, a car that doesn't show up on any list of cars most (or even least) likely to be stolen, the Internet, breathing easily, Mad Men, my cell phone, high energy, hands that are pain-free and write effortlessly, my favorite masseuse Crystal, and so on.

Fortunately, that list is long, and I'm extremely grateful for that.

The next thing I do is write what is NOT working in my life - from my perspective.

Like my new eating/exercise plan, which needs much more attention; deciding specifically which script I should write for our third project and get cracking on it; finishing the housework properly so I'm free to write without the pressure of feeling I MUST take care of it before I can concentrate fully, and there are also a couple more personal/professional items.

After reviewing both columns carefully, thoughtfully and extensively - adding or subtracting as the case may be, I focus on the "not working" side and ascertain how I can put each of those things into the "working" column.

I take responsibility for what is not working; I can't blame other people for what is not working in my life. It's my life, not anyone else's. What doesn't work for me may work just fine for someone else.

What part of this not working business is mine? I ask myself what is it I have to do in order to resolve the issue, putting everything back on track so it can remain that way?

Should I apply a little more elbow grease? Dedicate more time and/or energy to something or someone? Jennifer Aniston says the death of any relationship is caused by laziness - and subsequent neglect of the other person. Do I need to make a phone call? Complete a task I've been postponing?

Or do I have to accept that something simply isn't working - that it's an action or issue over which I have absolutely no power and need to let go?

Even realizing there's nothing I can do (that I haven't already done) is taking action, and I think that's the most important part of this process. Knowing that I've taken as much action as I can to help things work as well as they can; knowing I've not neglected it or let anything fall to the wayside because I've not paid proper attention.

Buddhist tradition says as long as we act with clear intention, thoughtfully, we're good to go.

That is how I like to live; with clear intention and thoughtfully. Doing what I say, saying what I'll do.

It's pretty simple to me, but I'm always amazed at how many people don't seem to understand the concept - or even want to.

Here's hoping everything in your life falls into the "working!" category!

TWT Friars Club Comedy Film Festival schedule

L-R: Kristina Lilley, Pisay Pao, Sean Patrick Flanery, Elisabeth Röhm.

We just received notice that THE WHOLE TRUTH will play Saturday, September 26, 3 p.m. at the Paley Center for Media (25 W 52nd St.) for the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival.
It's a short festival, only four days (Thursday, Sept. 24-Sunday Sept. 27), with films playing in just three venues, so we appear to be in carefully selected company.

The full schedule of films playing have not yet been posted, but the opening night film is the premiere of A SERIOUS MAN, the Coen Brothers' new comedy.

I'll be there all four days, attending as many screenings as possible, networking and hanging out with John Fugelsang ("Prosecutor Jordan Smith" in TWT; he's also a TV and radio personality, actor, stand up comic and writer), other filmmakers, actors, performers, distributors, celebrities who show up and comedy writers. The Friars Club Comedy Film Festival advisory board is a who's who of comedy and TV personalities - they should be dropping by!

This is a photo of John and one of his New York City fans.

The Friars Club has been America's comedy central for more than 100 years - most people know it from their famous "roast" dinners of celebrities.

They are establishing this film festival because they believe too many great comedies are overlooked when it comes to major awards selection. Very kewl for us.

Most importantly, the Friars prevent mirth control, protecting our right of laughter.

The freedom to laugh at ourselves, the privileged and those in power is the canary in the coal mine of democracy - a freedom Friars Club members take very seriously.

They want us to feel free to sing those canary songs and create works that make us fall over giggling, guffawing, howling, roaring, chuckling, cracking up, chortling, rolling in the aisles, snickering and snorting liquid through our nose!

Niles Crane has the last laugh

Remember when we all thought Frasier Crane's brother Niles' worry after every potential germ in his midst seemed so so ridiculous?






















How we laughed every time the character, brought to life by the brilliant actor David Hyde Pierce, took out his hanky and wiped a chair before before sitting on it?

How he used the same hanky to protect his skin from anything that may have come in contact with another human being?

How fastidious he was about refusing to touch objects that were in the public domain? Anything he assumed was sullied by another person's touch or animal fur?

Ha. Ha.

Watching reruns of Frasier, I realize today Niles' actions would not be considered all *that* crazy in light of all we're doing to be germ-free and non-contagious. I'm sure he and Daphne went on to live long and healthy lives with however many children they had because of his hygiene.

With the advent of Swine and other types of dire flu warnings, gel germ killer containers are everywhere: grocery, clothing and department stores, rest rooms and more, since the best way to prevent catching any of them is washing or de-germing our hands. Or both.

We're not seen as "round the twist" if we use rubber or latex gloves to protect ourselves from bacteria, viruses, fungi or protozoa that can cause our vulnerable bodily vessels to become diseased, especially to read books from the library - which can be havens for germs! From the looks I receive as my gloves and I peruse the bookshelves, I realize, as always, I'm a little ahead of the hygienic cultural curve; but trust me, wearing gloves at the library will catch on soon.

Some people even wear face masks to guard against airborne illnesses. Remember when Michael Jackson- Aha, there's a lesson in there, isn't it? We can't go to one extreme to put up walls barring infectious invasions while ignoring cardiovascular health, even under the care of a doc-
Never mind.

Even the once comically fastidious Mr. Monk (Tony Shalhoub) begins to look normal, his program seen as a docu-drama these days rather than a comedy.

Get your flu shot.

I can't because I'm allergic.

But I bathe in Purell at every turn, especially when someone glances in my direction. Never can tell if they're exhaling when they face me. I use the type that's kind to your skin; the other stuff is too drying.

Be well.

A blast from the past

Writing recently about my touching gift from John Michael Hayes (screenwriter of Alfred Hitchcock's Rear Window, To Catch A Thief, The Man Who Knew Too Much, The Trouble With Harry, many more), I remembered two articles I wrote about Alfred Hitchcock's system of creating films a couple years ago when I was a screenwriting columnist for ScreenTalk international screenwriting magazine (headquartered in Denmark).

They're based on a lecture he gave in 1939; we can't find the original published articles, so here are the columns in pdf format as they were originally submitted to the editor without photos and terrific layout for which editor Eric Lilleør is so famous.

ScreenTalk went on to become movieScope international filmmaking magazine, for which I was the camera acting columnist until I became a full time filmmaker last year. If you'd like to read other columns I wrote for ScreenTalk, go to my "writer" page to read them as they appeared in the magazine.

At any rate, the columns analyze how Hitchcock assembled his films successfully early on with his wife and lifelong collaborator Alma. Later he would abandon these steps to create much less than successful projects; I'm not sure why but biographers indicate he abused alcohol and developed other personality problems that would interfere with his art.

Here they are:

The Enduring Insights of Alfred Hitchcock Part I

The Enduring Insights of Alfred Hitchcock Part II

The Friars Club loves THE WHOLE TRUTH!!

The Friars Club in New York City has been the pinnacle of comedy some 100 years; they believe that great comedy films have been overlooked far too long for major awards consideration, so they're out to change that.

With the world premiere of the Friars Club Comedy Film Festival.

I was called this morning and we are officially in it! You have no idea what a feather in our cap this is for THE WHOLE TRUTH - these folks *know* comedy!

They positively loved the film - the version they saw was the first cut (the Seattle International Film Festival version) so they'll love the current, second cut even more! They listed a number of details they particularly liked and appreciated about the film, which meant a lot to me.

It was especially terrific that they called to tell me - so often festivals just email filmmakers.

The film opening the festival premieres the new Coen Brothers comedy, A SERIOUS MAN.

More information as it becomes available, but the festival takes place Thursday, September 24-Sunday September 27, which gives us little time to prepare, get our new posters made up including the FCCFF laurels to take with us, and figure out what to wear.

Oh-and right after I hung up with the Friars Club reps, a distributor called me! He was happy to hear about our selection for the Friars Club Festival - and I told him about our next film THE LONELY GOATHERD, whose tag line he found very promising: "All Harry Lochman ever wanted was a wife and kids. He got half his wish."

September 8, 2009, has turned out to be memorable!

Canadian Television - CBC - does it again

For being a nation with the reputation for being so nice - and politically a little passive - its national television network, the CBC (Canadian Broadcasting Corporation) has the courage to dramatically tackle hard-hitting, significant and urgent subjects US networks would never go near.

While premium US cable channels do take on some challenging issues, they still pale in comparison to what Canada bravely exposes its viewers.

Just a few examples are The Boys from St. Vincent - a tough, controversial drama about pedophilia in the Catholic church. That was in 1992. Of course there was a tumultuous response from many in the church, but the accuracy and lack of melodrama in the miniseries won out and audiences were confronted with a grievous part of our history.

Not just by the offending priests, but others who stood by and watched the treacherous abuse of young boys, those who covered up the nauseating treatment of innocent boys in the care of a Catholic orphanage without no accountability or punishment for their crimes.

I've always maintained that we can't heal a wound until we uncover it to diagnose it properly in order to figure out how to cure it. It's the proper role of journalism to shine the light of day on these issues, but in many cases that role is assumed by filmmakers more and more.

Perhaps that should be more and Moore. ;-)

Another example: The Last Chapter. This 2002 CBC mini-series involved biker gangs connected to organized crime, with some pretty horrific details of how the drug and other criminal activities have been linked to those biker gangs presented in this series.

It showed how these thugs are connected with upscale, "upstanding" citizens; how the organized criminal higher-ups have no qualms about threatening or harming families of politicians and law enforcement officers trying to shut them down.

It's a harsh reality around the world - only last weekend a Mexican politician who opposes the drug cartel was killed - with his wife and children - all shot to death.

Iron Road. This 2009 Canada-China co-production tells the story of Chinese immigrants - willing and unwilling - who built the railroad tracks across the nation. How these workers were treated, mistreated, killed and exploited in the name of building a railroad, modernization and economic progress.

In some cases incredible abuse of the workers was caused from racial ignorance, in other cases because of greed (Chinese workers were explosives experts and short fuses were used for the dynamite because longer fuses were more expensive, constantly putting the men blasting through mountains and terrain in jeopardy), and Chinese workers were considered "less than" their white bosses.

Most recently, CBC-TV tackled an issue about which American television would for sure find their hands tied: GUNS. How gun trafficking works, how violence grows because of the increasingly easy availability of non-sporting guns in North America, the economics of gun running, how innocent people are constantly hurt or killed as collateral damage, and, again, the ties of powerful people not necessarily seen as being connected with those activities playing a role in keeping the guns moving.

Most interestingly, this miniseries sees the issue of the inflow of non-sporting guns as a growing significant issue in a nation where gun violence is only about 12% of that per 100,000 people compared to American gun violence statistics.

I think dramatically The Boys of St. Vincent is the extraordinary standout for writing and filmmaking, but each of these programs has more guts in their presentation because they strive to get it right. As shocking as much of the information and scenes have been, there is always the sense that there are good people working to make the world a little better, a little safer, for the rest of us not directly involved in these nightmares - and that they remain in danger as long as they are fighting people who have no respect for humankind, whose goal is only to make money off the blood and destroyed lives of others.

Interestingly, the one thing that has been a real glimmer of hope is that the kids of the gangsters and criminals who have made their millions and billions from the pain of others - directly and indirectly - tend not to want to follow in the fouled footsteps of their parents, even though their parents have drawn them into their businesses to some degree.

We are left with the impression the kids want to get away from these scummy situations and live their own lives with integrity and clear consciences.

There's a lot to be said for the generation gap in these situations.

And there's a lot to be said for the courage of CBC-TV, taking the heat for controversial programming that enlightens, informs and tells important stories we need to hear.

Meeting like-speaking folks ...

Well, sort of.

I went to a meet-up of French speakers (about 20) at a Seattle coffee shop today, and had a really wonderful time.

It's been *years* since I spoke French, when I spent five weeks apartment sitting for a Seattle couple who lived in the 11th arrondissement (section) of Paris, where few people speak English and everything is done the French way. Initially it was a culture shock - but I quickly acclimated.

The trip was one of the highlights of my life; I actually miss several of the places I visited even in that short period of time, and it was definitely special experiencing it alone. Next time I go? It's going to be a romantic adventure!

The couple wanted someone from their home town to take care of their domicile while they were visiting their parents in Seattle during the annual national French vacation (I repeat - 5 weeks).

Every morning I would fill my backpack with food and water and strike out in a new direction in the City. I'd walk for miles (I lost 10 pounds, even eating the divinely rich French food), take bus trips, take train rides and special tours to areas around France to round out my experience.

There are few historical landmarks, art museums, public exhibitions devoted to writers, artists and famed French folks, tourist destinations like the Moulin Rouge and palaces I did not see, as well as performances at La Comedie Francaise (Molier's theater) and other cultural sensations.

I was fortunate to find restaurants that were not tourist havens - where the food was delicious and very reasonably priced. Tourist spots are exorbitantly expensive (a friend from Seattle visited, we stopped at a cafe in the tourist section - my hot dog and soda cost $16, and that was several years ago!).

Anyway, the day I arrived at the apartment, I said something to the taxi driver in (my version of) French. He turned to me and asked, "What part of America are you from?" In perfect English of course.

When I left five weeks later, there were no such incidents. Only polite (yes, polite!) responses and smiles. (OK, maybe smiles is a stretch, but you get the idea.)

Back to today's meet-up.

Some 20 people showed up, slowly filling up an area of the coffee shop from the single table that started with just two of us chatting.

I felt a little flummoxed in the beginning since it had been so long since I spoke French I was a little tongue-tied. I tend to understand far more than I can easily speak (I listen to French music, watch French film and TV5 - the French cable network), which is why I joined this drop-in group.

The fluency rate was extensive, from folks who could barely parlez to those whose primary or secondary language is French. All were welcoming and the fluent among us were extremely patient with the rest of us who battled to remember tenses, grammaire and des bons mots.

Likewise, the vocations and interests of those attending was vast.

Since the part of the coffee shop we met at was outside today, it was harder to hear people speaking, but I settled in with a lovely little group, becoming more comfortable and fluent as the two hours pushed on - though I have a way to go to get back into the groove!

Which means that I'll be practicing intensely for our next session in two weeks!

OK, it may be a little early for you ... but!

I've started working on songs with my singing coach Nedra Gaskill that I'll perform for a local Christmas concert!

The tunes I've selected that I'll be singing for sure:

"Christmas (Baby, Please Come Home)" - a rock classic. I'll have four back-up singers; I'm choreographing their/our routine. I'll be singing this number in a belt-your-guts-out "chest" pop/rock voice.

And "Climb Ev'ry Mountain" - an inspirational piece from The Sound of Music for which I'll be using my dramatic soprano voice.

I figure they'll appreciate the extreme vocal range emitted from this unassuming voice, covering more than three octaves.

If there's the opportunity for me to sing three selections, I'll sing either Celine Dion's upbeat pop "Christmas Eve" or the very bluesy "Please Come Home for Christmas," which has been covered by numerous soloists and bands.

Every part of my life always seems to run smoothly when I work with Nedra.

Maybe it's because I love singing so much - it makes me feel as close to a connection with angels as I can get - or because she's such a good coach that it feels so wonderful to have someone support and believe in me to the extent she does for doing something that is pure joy to me.

As much work, energy and discipline as vocalists must invest in perfecting their craft ("perfecting" any craft is impossible, btw), it is a wonderful sensation to just get out there and "play the instrument."

No matter how sad, serious or serene the song, it's always fun for me to blow the pipes for an appreciative audience.

Even when the audience consists of my pups and kitty, assistants, or frankly anyone who hangs out with me.

I love visiting sick friends in the hospital because they are such attentive audiences. I've actually whipped my harmonica out, too, for a little accompaniment.

And! Have I ever told you I also learned to play the saw?

*Amazing* how quickly they recover! Why, even the thought of me visiting with the harmonica and/or saw and/or - whatever portable instrument I bring - seems to help them literally spring out of their sickbeds.

Must be a spiritual thing...

;-)

Acting for the Camera workshop

The only time for at least another 3 years because of my schedule, I'm conducting an Acting for the Camera workshop October 24 and 25 (Saturday 9am-5pm and Sunday 10am-4pm), in Seattle.

LA Casting Director Russell Boast will drop in, via Skype, to talk about what they're seeking in auditions there.

If you want to work on a short scene (very short) with me, you can arrange to get it to me ahead of time; I'll select some we can perform live for the camera. You and your scene can be a visual aide for the workshop.

If enough directors show up, I'll also give tips on how to direct actors for the camera - both improv and scripted scenes - with newbie and established "stars."

Bring a lunch - we'll be working straight through with few breaks to make the most of our time.

Assisting me is Karie Gonia, whom I coached and who just finished working on the lead role in the indie feature PERFECT 10. Cast and crew report her performance is a knock-out!

Registration is mandatory - if you're interested, email me at cpcontacts@comcast.net for details.

This seminar is not for the humor-challenged. While we'll work very hard, learning is easier, better remembered and more empowering when fun is a factor!

Transitions

I'm undergoing some positive transitions, personally and professionally, and the journey feels really good. As if I'm taking a step up in life.

Transitions.

When they're a blind-siding surprise or imposed - do not feel good. Recovery from unexpected, hurtful changes can take a long time and be painful.

Change doesn't scare or bother me - it excites me.

I don't mean change for the sake of change, but change that I believe will enhance my life, lifestyle, relationships, environment, work, whatever.

Some of it entails tasks I've wanted to undertake for awhile - streamlining, getting rid of what I don't need, want or use any longer; others include adjusting my schedule; taking steps to upgrade my level of writing, directing, producing, singing, whatever,

I like preparing for new projects - I have several that are in the development stage; another ready-for-preproduction to shoot and a couple whose subjects I'm researching.

I guess I enjoy planning, researching and preparing for the future while enjoying doing what I do in the present. I've found that when I don't prepare and work for a future I want, life has a way of doing it for me and I'd much rather take the next step, prepped and as ready as I can be for what the world has to offer than be at its mercy. Anticipating its arrival is way more fun than dreading or fearing what "might" happen.

It's like the Girl Scout ditty - make new friends, but keep the old; one is sliver, the other gold. Keeping what works, but spiffing up, and adding what makes a positive difference.

One of the transitions I'm particularly happy with is losing weight, which is turning out to be reasonably easy the longer I'm away from the drugs I've been taking for beating cancer for nearly eight years. My joints have stopped aching, I have even more energy than ever and for some reason my sense of taste has changed. What tasted good before - like comfort foods - are nearly repulsive to me now; I favor natural foods and the major ingredients in my meals now are vegetables and fruits. That combined with being much more physically active is a winning combination!

Putting the house in complete order also feels terrific. Getting rid of unnecessary stuff feels like my home is losing weight as well. Drawers, cabinets, nooks and cranny's are all getting streamlined. I know where things are; I can find what I need, want or use, instead of having to deal with clutter.

I'm not expecting to create a completely pristine environment. My place will always reflect an active life - not just because of my work. I live with three dogs and a cat, have hobbies that take up room and folks tend to like coming here for meetings.

It may be the same place I've lived for 18 years, a little reworked and trimmed down, but it feels brand new and empowered - just like this next stage of my life.

An historical Hollywood feud lives on

A few years back, I wrote extensively about Alfred Hitchcock for my Screeenwriter's Cafe column in ScreenTalk (an international screenwriting magazine - forepublication to movieScope magazine): how he created his films at the script level - building them piece by piece, that he did not write the dialogue, and so on.

I also wrote a column about the historical and sorrowful feud he had with courageous Oscar-nominated screenwriter John Michael Hayes, pictured here, who wrote such Hitchcock classics as Rear Window, To Catch A Thief, The Man Who Knew Too Much and The Trouble With Harry, as well as and many more memorable films.

Click here to read the column.


The impact of this feud on Hollywood writers lives on.

Mr. Hayes, who died late last year, told me it was the best and most insightful article on their industry- shakeup flap he had read, and sent me an autographed marketing placard of Rear Window from his personal collection to show his appreciation.

I framed and hung it on my living room wall. It is the only "award" type artifact I have on display in my home.

It's one of my most prized possessions.

unsubscribing...

How is it I let my email inbox start to overflow with offers, savings, alerts, updates and a bazillion other notices I do not have time to read, do not care about, or have come to think, unrealistically, that I'll get around to reading them "later?"

It's been a slow but steady growth - to the point where I finally realized this morning I am so swamped with so many that none of them means anything except having massive emails to delete, which takes too much time.

So I unsubscribed to nearly all of them. Whack, whack, whack.

It took an hour, but I figure in the long run it will save me ten times that number over the months - having to delete hundreds of unread messages. Not to mention the ungratifying journeys I've taken when I succumb to open them, peruse what's available/for sale, etc., only to decide I do not really need or want what I've just spent too much time evaluating.

I'm an inveterate online shopper - when I need something I usually go where I know I'll get the best item at the greatest value with fair-to-free shipping costs and I'm good to go.

I had also subscribed to online publications and newsletters I no longer read now - for any number of reasons, mostly because the content is not as substantial as I wish.

I also had emails from a plethora of meetup groups to which I subscribed, looking for the right fit, that I'll never attend now because I did find the right groups that suit me.

Hmm. Come to think of it, I'm also de-cluttering my home, streamlining everything I own and cleaning what needs to be spiffed up. I must be making way for something new coming into my life - I just don't realize what it could be. I'm simply preparing for whatever it is, so when it arrives I'm ready.

Sort of like preproduction for the next stage of life...

After purging my emails of all these newsletters, updates, sales notifications, free shipping offers and more meaningless blather, I'm now free to focus on what really matters: having a good hair day.

;-)

OK, that and responding to real emails from correspondents I look forward to answering!

Sean Patrick Flanery on Hallmark Sept. 12

Thanks to entertainment blogger Mireille Miskulin, you can read all about THE WHOLE TRUTH's Sean Patrick Flanery's upcoming original MFT (made for TV) film, CITIZEN JANE, which debuts on the Hallmark Channel Saturday, Sept. 12.

The story is based on a real woman - Jane Alexander, a champion in the victim's rights movement.

Ally Sheedy portrays Jane, as she puts her life on the line to catch a killer - an ordinary citizen doing an extraordinary thing to obtain justice on behalf of a victim mercilessly murdered.

Sean has several other projects ready to pop as well - as soon as I hear, you will!

LOVE: Personal Health Care Policy Boost

I'm audio "reading" LOVE AND SURVIVAL, a book by Dr. Dean Ornish - a medical doctor specializing in preventive medicine who has performed extensive research on the effect of love and affection on our health.

Basically, he says if you have all the precursors of certain conditions, the difference between an earlier demise and longer healthier survival is how much love and affection you have in your life.



















Not just receiving love and affection, but giving it.

He says if you have high cholesterol, high blood pressure, etc., but you have affection in your life - chances of you excreting healing endorphins and therefore having a better chance at living longer and feeling good while you do it are greatly increased.
























The scientific research he quotes involves primarily human relationships, particularly emphasizing the support of partners, friends, family and community.
I also believe the same is true of living with pets we love deeply and - without becoming completely anthropomorphic - who appear to love us. I believe my animals love, even adore, me. But that's an emotion I attribute to them based upon their behavior, I don't know that for a fact.

Medical studies show the interaction - verbal and petting - between humans and dogs has noticeable effects on the cardiovascular system (mostly lowering blood pressure). Interestingly, it is the tactile action that makes the greatest difference. While the verbal impact was noticed statistically, it is not nearly as great as the effect of petting - of touch. Perhaps this is because our skin is the largest organ in the body.



















I think this can extrapolate to other affectionate animals as well - and even those who are not considered affectionate but who elicit the emotion of love and affection from us, toward whom we feel loving, caring and compassion. Imagining love coming from them still produces endorphins.

I've even seen this effect on those who cherish a stuffed toy, imagining it has a soul.

Of course there's the valuable side effect of walking a dog or other ambulatory pet - moderate exercise is always recommended for all creatures. There might even be some social benefit if you do it with other dog owners or people alone or with other pets who want to accompany you.

"Therapy animals" are actually medically approved - trained and certified - who are brought to visit children and adults who are ill, lonely, mentally challenged or confined.



With permission, my now deceased wee pup Oscar - himself challenged with many health issues during his life (the picture is of Oscar wrapped in a towel, recovering after suffering a grand mal seizure) - and I visited a friend's mom at her assisted living quarters; she was in the later stages of dementia so she was not responding to or recognizing people she had known previously.

She lit up when she saw my little guy and responded near gleefully as she spoke with him, of him, and petted him.

Another patient I sat next to in the waiting room slowly lifted a stiff arm to pet him awkwardly. I was told she had not moved her arm for a very long time. They didn't know she could.

















The point of Dr. Ornish's book is that the more touch - affectionate touch, caressing, hugging, cuddling, embracing, massage - we enjoy in our lives, the more positively it affects not only our minds but our emotions and stimulating those loving emotions helps heal bodies. The mind-emotion-body connection.

He also notes spirituality, including prayer, can ignite loving feelings toward ourselves and others, but the vast majority of empirical touch/emotion healing evidence he presents relates to the power of tactile contact, what we can physically feel.

I know some believe it's strange to be so close to pets, that it's more important to give and receive from humans. But I believe it's also important to share a special physical and emotional bond with pets, and not just because they share the planet with us, but because they are salient beings capable of feeling. Although - LOL - an actor I coached once told me, "In my next life I want to come back as one of your pets."

We humans decided to purposely domesticate them. We removed them from their natural habitats, in which they learned to live and thrive naturally. We took them away from the communities of other animals who socialized and trained them to live in the wild.

Because of that, I believe we have a special responsibility to care for them - training, socializing, providing them with safe and clean environments as well as affection and care they no longer understand how to obtain for themselves on their own - away from packs, herds, clutters, troops, flocks, strings, rags or flanges that previously did all that for and with them.

Not to the exclusion of humans, but I believe as much as we need affection - so do they. Even fish, believe it or not. Here's a young deer massaging her cat pal:




And here's an even more touching video of animals treating one another affectionately.


Thanks to funnyanimals.com for the monkey hugging his pup photo.

LEWIN GROUP: owned by US health insurance industry

Here's a Washington Post article outlining who owns the Lewin Group.

The reason this information is important? Republicans against any health care reform constantly refer to its bogus "research,"calling it "nonpartisan."

It is completely, absolutely and positively partisan, owned by the second largest health care corporation in the US: United Health.

There's a lot of information about the Lewin Group, its misleading "research" and consulting work on the WWW. Just type Lewin Group in your search engine and hit ENTER.

Here's an article based on the Columbia Journalism Review's questioning why mainstream media continue to feature quotes from Republicans using Lewin Group "research" and claiming it's nonpartisanship - without comment - when references to Lewin Group "information" is considered by those wanting health care reform as tantamount to a hoax.

Check out the Washington Post article to see how the Lewin Group has been caught and held accountable for some of their misleading statements.

The actual "Death Panels"

..are "health care" insurance provider individuals and boards who deny medical procedures for their clients that could save their lives.

Americans spend more per capita on health care than citizens from any other nation in the world.

Do you know that the top cause of bankruptcy in the USA is medical catastrophe debt?

And that is by people who *have* health care "insurance."

Insurance from health care providers who pay more than $1 million/A DAY to advertise and lobby against health care reform. That's from the money paid to them by their clients for health care programs, according to U.S. Senator Bernie Sanders, I-Vermont. That means he's independent - not a Dem or Rep.

Republicans - to a person - in congress have said they will not vote for any health care bill, even provisions they helped create. So it's up to President Obama and the Democrats to formulate a bill that is viable and works - and is understandable.

It's still shocking to me that the US is the only nation that doesn't take care of the health of its citizens; capitalist and socialist nations have universal health care - their economic structures have not collapsed or even hiccuped because of it.

France and Germany report they are a kiss away from being out of economic recession because their economies are bouncing back so substantially. Both have universal health care.

A phenominal invention that can change the world

It's a small, safe, deep-storage battery that can hold enough power - provided by solar energy - to electrify your house or business independently developed by Ceramatec, the division of CoorsTek responsible for research and development in Utah.

A self-contained power source for homes a businesses.

This will eliminate reliance on power grids and other means of mass electrical power upon which Western nations are so reliant today.

While it will eradicate some industries, it will create more "green" jobs and freedom from having millions of homes left without power in cases of any disasters, dysfunctions, malfunctions and even attacks.

Read about it here!

Jimmy Carter's reason for leaving the Baptist church

Losing my religion for equality

(A statement by Jimmy Carter made July 15, 2009 regarding his decision to leave his 60-year membership with the Southern Baptist Convention.)

I have been a practicing Christian all my life and a deacon and Bible teacher for many years. My faith is a source of strength and comfort to me, as religious beliefs are to hundreds of millions of people around the world.

So my decision to sever my ties with the Southern Baptist Convention, after six decades, was painful and difficult. It was, however, an unavoidable decision when the convention’s leaders, quoting a few carefully selected Bible verses and claiming that Eve was created second to Adam and was responsible for original sin, ordained that women must be “subservient” to their husbands and prohibited from serving as deacons, pastors or chaplains in the military service.

This view that women are somehow inferior to men is not restricted to one religion or belief. Women are prevented from playing a full and equal role in many faiths. Nor, tragically, does its influence stop at the walls of the church, mosque, synagogue or temple. This discrimination, unjustifiably attributed to a Higher Authority, has provided a reason or excuse for the deprivation of women’s equal rights across the world for centuries.

At its most repugnant, the belief that women must be subjugated to the wishes of men excuses slavery, violence, forced prostitution, genital mutilation and national laws that omit rape as a crime. But it also costs many millions of girls and women control over their own bodies and lives, and continues to deny them fair access to education, health, employment and influence within their own communities.

The impact of these religious beliefs touches every aspect of our lives. They help explain why in many countries boys are educated before girls; why girls are told when and whom they must marry; and why many face enormous and unacceptable risks in pregnancy and childbirth because their basic health needs are not met.

In some Islamic nations, women are restricted in their movements, punished for permitting the exposure of an arm or ankle, deprived of education, prohibited from driving a car or competing with men for a job. If a woman is raped, she is often most severely punished as the guilty party in the crime.

The same discriminatory thinking lies behind the continuing gender gap in pay and why there are still so few women in office in the West. The root of this prejudice lies deep in our histories, but its impact is felt every day.

It is not women and girls alone who suffer. It damages all of us. The evidence shows that investing in women and girls delivers major benefits for society. An educated woman has healthier children. She is more likely to send them to school. She earns more and invests what she earns in her family.

It is simply self-defeating for any community to discriminate against half its population. We need to challenge these self-serving and outdated attitudes and practices – as we are seeing in Iran where women are at the forefront of the battle for democracy and freedom.

I understand, however, why many political leaders can be reluctant about stepping into this minefield. Religion, and tradition, are powerful and sensitive areas to challenge. But my fellow Elders and I, who come from many faiths and backgrounds, no longer need to worry about winning votes or avoiding controversy – and we are deeply committed to challenging injustice wherever we see it.

The Elders are an independent group of eminent global leaders, brought together by former South African president Nelson Mandela, who offer their influence and experience to support peace building, help address major causes of human suffering and promote the shared interests of humanity. We have decided to draw particular attention to the responsibility of religious and traditional leaders in ensuring equality and human rights and have recently published a statement that declares: “The justification of discrimination against women and girls on grounds of religion or tradition, as if it were prescribed by a Higher Authority, is unacceptable.”

We are calling on all leaders to challenge and change the harmful teachings and practices, no matter how ingrained, which justify discrimination against women. We ask, in particular, that leaders of all religions have the courage to acknowledge and emphasize the positive messages of dignity and equality that all the world’s major faiths share.

The carefully selected verses found in the Holy Scriptures to justify the superiority of men owe more to time and place – and the determination of male leaders to hold onto their influence – than eternal truths. Similar biblical excerpts could be found to support the approval of slavery and the timid acquiescence to oppressive rulers.

I am also familiar with vivid descriptions in the same Scriptures in which women are revered as pre-eminent leaders. During the years of the early Christian church women served as deacons, priests, bishops, apostles, teachers and prophets. It wasn’t until the fourth century that dominant Christian leaders, all men, twisted and distorted Holy Scriptures to perpetuate their ascendant positions within the religious hierarchy.

The truth is that male religious leaders have had – and still have – an option to interpret holy teachings either to exalt or subjugate women. They have, for their own selfish ends, overwhelmingly chosen the latter. Their continuing choice provides the foundation or justification for much of the pervasive persecution and abuse of women throughout the world.

This is in clear violation not just of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights but also the teachings of Jesus Christ, the Apostle Paul, Moses and the prophets, Muhammad, and founders of other great religions – all of whom have called for proper and equitable treatment of all the children of God. It is time we had the courage to challenge these views.

Jimmy Carter was President of the United States from 1977 to 1981.

more on collaborating

If you followed my other blogs on preproduction prep for directing a film and how I like to collaborate with all my creative colleagues, I thought I'd mention a couple more folks who are normally brought into the work at post production - I like to bring them in even before pre-production:

The composer and the editor.

The composer comes in even before the editor, because music plays such an integral and important part of my films. In the case of WALLS, which was a silent film, composer/musician Evan Schiller's music was a crucial character.

I see the composer's work as part of the script development.

After I've found the perfect composer - one who loves the script and is willing and eager to strech far beyone where he or she has been before, creating a whole new sound - I like to come up with instruments that represent each main character, scene and sequence as well as a "template" sound.

That is, an inspiration for the music that will go with the film.

For THE WHOLE TRUTH, I chose act II of DIE FLEDERMAUS operetta by Johann Strauss. If you've seen the film, you know you haven't heard Strauss' music; it's only used as an inspiration. The harmonies, the feeling of theme familiarity, the touch of European and classical music and some selection of instruments representing various characters.

In DIE FLEDERMAUS ("The Bat"), men and women work hard to deceive one another - which is what THE WHOLE TRUTH is about, only the characters also deceive themselves in the process (even Sean Patrick Flanery's character - who is the most grounded and stable, he's the moral compass in the movie).

By pulling the composer in so early, at the "script level," the musical artist has time to create a score completely original and specific for this particular film.

When pre-production begins with crew and cast (about 6 weeks before cameras turn), I'm listening to samples for characters and scenes that give me more ideas about when I can just turn the scene over to the music - no need for dialogue when expressions, sounds and music can say it so much better.

We go over each scene's score: should the melody be taken out and just leave the harmonies and rhythms? Should the instrument for that character be replaced? More bass? More tenor? Should there just be silence? Should the music comment" on what is transpiring on screen? Music should be a character in the film - but how to integrate that character? Should there be a Mickey Mouse here - or there ("Mickey Mouse" is the term for a little musical sound effect that is usually "on the nose" of a character's action - it takes place as the character moves, as in a cartoon).

These and many more questions are mine to answer - in collaboration with the composer. He comes in with strong ideas and samples for me to hear on which we can negotiate, as do I. I only asked him to completely rewrite one small scene of music because I felt it didn't match.

In one of my short films, the composer came back with what he thought was a completed score and, seriously, I only saved three notes from the entire composition. He was furious, but when he reviewed with me what would actually work and why - and performed the historical music homework I requested initially? He created a sound he had no idea he could make - it was truly brilliant.

I love pushing great talent to accomplish what they never realized they could. I have terrific relationships with composers because I respect them and recognize their talent as well as their skills.

And I'm a music *nut.*

As Phoebe Snow sings, "There ain't no music .. I can't use.." (from her album, LOOKS LIKE SHOW, "Drink Up the Melody, Bite the Dust Blues).

Normally, composers are brought in at the last minute, after the film is completely edited, and told to put the music together in as short a time as possible. When a composer who is allowed to compose does this, too often they fall back on what they already have done and what they already know, so there's not really much they can claim is new for the film.

Most studio movies don't even use composers to compose any more. They pull music samples from several other similar films and create a hodgepodge of what they think will make you feel comfortable and make you think that what you're hearing feels familiar. Well, in too many ways, it actually is.

I like to feature fresh, new, original work for you to hear.

I'll never forget a MFT movie (made for TV) I saw that was really good - except the music felt like it was a vat of sticky syrup poured over the whole thing - eeeeew. The director said she did not work with the composer, it was just turned over to him and handed back to her, completed. She was pretty upset, but according to the way that particular studio works, that's the way it's done.

Our TWT composer Ragnar Rosinkranz had never worked with the types of music you'll hear in the film. But you'd never know it from his score.

Literally the first question asked after screenings has been, "Who did the music!? Wow!" One person, intimately acquainted with a certain type of music we use in one part of the the film, wondered where on earth we found someone who could create and perform that type of music so well! Go Ragnar!

Likewise, bringing the editor in at the script level helps because he or she can make shot recommendations that will put a scene into the next level of excellence. Like, "an ECU (extreme close up) of her lips would really sell this scene." These suggestions are also made after reading the script and my shot sheet - where the editor can see I did not call for any ECU's in that particular scene.

Suggestions for other types of coverage can also be made. Coverage is all the angles from which a scene is shot. You normally don't think about coverage - but the next time you see a film scene at home, count the various angles from which that scene was shot. Every time what you see changes, that's another angle.

This preparation makes the final work move much more quickly and with a higher quality than could possibly happen otherwise. When I asked Ragnar to do that scene with other music - I think I gave him a note of, "It needs to be lighter."

Unbelievably, he had it ready the next day and it was *perfect!* Our sound mixer was astonished at the speed and quality of the replacement. But that's what happens when we collaborate over a period of time - and the composer is in total synch with the project and the director.

Remember, the music has to blend in with at least 16 other tracks of sounds, dialogue and other sound effects, each standing out as they need to in the process.

Having said all this, I have to add that the injection of wall-to-wall pop and AC songs in films and dramatic TV programs has become too intrusive to me. That trend started in a big way with the WB TV phenom Dawson's Creek, more films before that and has since become the cornerstone of several television dramas, with varying results.

One of the reasons is that it's another way for studios to make money - shows such as NCIS also sell CD's of music they've featured on the program.

Don't get me wrong, I like it - I love the attention it brings to great musicians as the music world is hurting financially. I just think it's overdone when it's used, now.

Good heavens....

I assume as a reader of this blog, you know for certain that 1) President Barack Obama was born in Hawaii. 2) That Hawaii is a state within the United States of America.

I assume that because the folks who follow this blog from up to 104 nations are well, smart. And want to know the truth, no matter where the chips fall.

I trust that you read. And do your homework, research facts - or know trustworthy people who do - instead of hitting a panic button about issues that some purposely attempt to obfuscate, outright lie about or with which they want to frighten vulnerable people.

I reluctantly show you this verified document, because the people who claim that 1) it doesn't exist, or 2) it's been tampered with have less and less credibility and make themselves and their cause look positively daft.

The more they frantically yell and scream about it, the more they dig themselves into a deeper well, the more they fabricate bizarre stories about it, the more they help the "other side." The faster they will self destruct.

Because this is one of those issues over which there are not really two sides. The President's birth certificate and actual birth in the United States of America are genuinely facts, vetted by government and independent researchers.

But there are those who viscerally hate President Obama so much, who would do anything to get rid of him, that they have created a factitious, pseudo story that has, strangely, been given coverage by mainstream media, leaving some - who do not know how to, or want to, track down the truth - to wonder.

So, reluctantly, I present to you, President Barack Obama's birth certificate and a couple websites that researched its veracity.
























You can find the independent Annenberg FactCheckED.org Obama birth certificate research, investigation and fact check is here.

Go to the website that posts the official birth certificate of President Barak Obama here.

The only reason I can come up with that people would create a fabricated story like this out of whole cloth is to distract us from the real issues - like health care, economy, education, crime, and well- just about anything but this subject (that does not actually exist).

Bizarre.

But by all means - there are many other websites and ways of researching this issue - help yourself to finding the absolute, positive truth for yourself.

Meanwhile, even though she's known as a liberal, the only reporting I've seen that is actually, completely fair and balanced on this and other issues is Rachel Maddow - who appears on Meet the Press today to present the facts about the health care town hall meetings disruptions dug up by her team of investigative reporters.

She has facts that should have been exposed by mainstream media on the health care issue long ago - hopefully they will catch up now.

More, she does not have any illusions about how very poorly the democrats and Obama have represented his recommended health care policy changes and says so.


Just be sure whomever you rely on for information doesn't present things in a way that they want to manipulate you to think, but who presents the facts and where you can find out where and how to verify their reports. News programs should have website links and more ways of digging more deeply into stories they present.

So popular - here are more neighbor pics!

Two days of wall-to-wall poetry!

Actually, it's a three day poetry extravaganza sponsored by world famous Wave Books, but I can only go tomorrow and Saturday; Sunday I'm taking care of rescued horses.

There will be films about poets and poetry, readings by poets, art exhibitions related to poetry, poetry book discounts, book signings and a book arts presentation (including rare books) at Seattle's Henry Art Gallery on the University of Washington campus.

There are still some tickets available - I got mine at Open Books in Wallingford (Seattle neighborhood), a fantastic store devoted completely to poetry. I love this store - it has a terrific inventory, including rare and first editions - and has that perfect poetry "vibe."

That means it's accessible to everyone, no airs or snooty folks to be found - just people who love words and language and poetry and the folks who create them; people who work there are all about helping you with whatever you need or need to know. If you visit, tell John I say howdy.

I got a couple of a a milne poetry books for my niece there. I'm going to record me reading them aloud - giving her the books to follow my spoken words until she can read them on her own - she's only 16 months old.

Milne's the guy who wrote Winnie the Pooh; he also wrote many books of whimsical poetry for youngsters. In a way, he's the British Dr. Seuss, only he lived decades before America's Doc.

Renowned novelist Ray Bradbury says all writers should read poetry every night before going to sleep. I agree.

Should be a very fun, illuminating, thoughtful and inspirational two days.

Impacting messages/images=no time to think

OK, the idea here is not to sound pedantic, shrill or alarmist.

But it is to help gain awareness of how what we watch and hear affects us so you can make choices about everything and anything you wish to expose yourself.

Basically, there are two types of media messages: impacting and linear.

Impacting messages are easy to recognize - they look and sound like they beat you over the head constantly and consistently, blast your eyes and ears senseless, take your breath away, leave you semi- to completely paralyzed, spur an adrenalin rush and leave you basically numb, but excited, believing you've actually seen something that means something because physiologically you're stirred, shaken and what's left of an sensory explosion.

Lots of films, video games and television programs with special effects and violent images attacking you ceaselessly, certain music, any sensation that pounds you nearly unconscious (thus the feeling of "escape"), it's all impacting.

What this means is simply anything that has this effect does not permit you to think - even for a moment - about what is done, said, flashed into your eyes, pounded in your ears.

The result can be the attention span of a gnat, the addiction to exciting and stimulating visual and/or audio experiences, the inability to create something because of an "entertain me or DIE" mentality, and more. Or should that be less.

We can only be pummeled so many times before we're stunted, stunned or injured in some way. Football players, boxers, UFC athletes, whoever puts themselves in the way of a bludgeoning - whether intellectually or physically - becomes brain damaged in some way without complete recovery between poundings.

Pound your forehead with your fist several times and you'll get a version of what your brain experiences - without realizing it if you're not aware. Aware? You start feeling it when it happens. Pow! Biff! Bam!

Even if you avoid video games, TRANSFORMERS, GI JOE and other films geared to stun you with hundreds of images, you can still be caught by good ol' TV - the "free," "safer" variety.

Commercials can be made in a way that impacts the viewer; more, as you watch one program and are interrupted by a louder message imploring you not to miss: the next program, the next episode, another show, a drug that will help you feel better, get better, get well, lose weight, eat hearty, eat junk food, eat fast food, eat fattening food, eat comfort food, avoid or deal with pain... and on it goes.

Kids' TV with cartoons and their commercials can be as bad or worse.

That's why folks who work in media generally refer to it as The Beast, because it's always demanding more and more and more impacting messages, programming and commercials.

They want to make an impact. They not only want to pound it into your mental being, they want you to remember it over all the thousands of other messages you're pounded with every single day.

Linear media is basically any message delivered that allows you to think about what it shows, says, sounds like, feels like, how it impacts you, how you can explore, learn and follow up on what you've experienced.

The impacting message is generally left as it is, making the impression that it does, requiring or inspiring no response or possibly leaving the receiver so blown away/blown out there is no motivation or energy left to follow up. The message is left to smoulder in the receiver's mind, heart and soul with whatever elements are forever embedded - like information or image shrapnel.

That means the possibility of information/image wounds, infection and bacteria building into something that was never based on reality or anything meaningful to start with.

Reality TV is fraught with meaningless images and false or misleading "information" (not to be confused with facts) that media write about and we discuss over the water cooler - hitting the broadcasters' target behavior response: getting people to watch so advertisers will pay for the programming.

Reading anything is a linear experience because even if you "misread" what is written, you have the chance to review (re-view) it - which is impossible with impacting media. Impacting messages are designed never to be revisited, but only to be built on with other impacting images and sounds.

A still photo is a linear experience because you can look at it and reflect on it as long as you wish; art - paintings, drawings, sculpture, dancing, theater, and non-uber impacting films are a linear experience as well.

Video art is generally intended to be impacting, though at its conclusion you may have time to reflect on what you've seen, what you believe the artist wanted to say.

Films planned to only blast you away without any meaningful content counts on your only response being, "Wow! That was really something!"

In real life, impacting messages (those that prevent you from reflecting or thinking about what is being said, but only leave you to become fixated on a heightened emotional response) happen when people try to shout down anyone attempting to talk about an issue.

Right wing opponents of President Obama's health care plan are typical of this. We discover many of them are not "just folks" as they say they are, but are bona fide Republican operatives who only want to make people crazy with emotion to shut down any discussion - preventing anyone from actually thinking about and discussing the facts. Death threats are the epitome of impacting messages designed to prevent any thoughtful discussion and preventing the truth about anything reaching the people who need it most.

Actually creating something - whether it's a photograph, a bird house, a story, a work of art, a drawing, a painting (even by numbers!), anything crafty, wood carving, origami, making a clay pot, sewing anything, making a quilt, cooking, a dance, learning a monologue, being in a play, learning a song, writing a song, play, screenplay, book, poetry, fixing a car - all linear experiences for the creator and the audience.

Doing these sorts of things all help create the balance we need to keep our minds from becoming a thoughtless desert filled with meaningless images and drivel if we expose ourselves to major amounts of crap pounded into our brains. The moment you don't want to think at all when you're watching a movie or a video game - the moment you actually say to yourself, "Entertain me or DIE!" you know you're in trouble.

Deal is, as long as we monitor how much impacting media to which we allow our kids - and ourselves - to be exposed, and make sure we are good role models in reflecting and evaluating what we read, view and listen to - it's all good!

Casting director Russell Boast ...

...has this to say after seeing THE WHOLE TRUTH at the Los Angeles screening:

"The cast of THE WHOLE TRUTH take tremendous risks and extend themselves further then I had ever imagined possible. Creating a safe environment in which Actors can fully experience themselves 'out of the box', takes a great deal of trust between them and their Director and clearly Colleen is a master at creating this safe environment and bond."

Russell Boast
Casting Director
Pagano/Manwiller, Inc.
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Thank you so much, Russell!

Massive Polar Bear habitat melts away

First, thanks to the National Resources Defense Council for these photos.

Over the weekend the Associated Press reported that tens of thousands of miles of ice melted yesterday (Sunday, August 9) away from the Arctic Ocean because of the extraordinarily warm summer temperatures.

The AP says scientists viewing the habitat disintegration from satellite photos, are deeply concerned by the extraordinarily large ice regions, habitat to numerous species, disappearing in such monumental quantities so quickly.

For the complete story and scientific data, read AP reporter Charles J. Hanley's report here.

Walking and smiling (at the same time)

So there I am, conversing with my assistant, Aaron, about people we pass, walking the sidewalks and streets of North Seattle.

The inspiration: running errands afoot rather than using the car. Healthy *and* green.

CP: There must be a lot of unhappy people in the world.

A: Why do you say that?

CP: Because of all the people we've passed, almost none of them smile. Or say howdy.

A: Why should they smile? Or speak to anyone?

CP: I don't know. Maybe because they're happy. Because they're grateful to be alive on such a beautiful day. Because they have the use of their legs, because they can see, because they're polite, because they enjoy-

A: Do you smile while you walk?

CP: All the time.

A: That's unusual. Most people don't smile when they walk. They just walk.

CP: Why don't they smile?

A: Why would they? Why should they?

CP: Because they're happy to be alive- because they're friendly?

A: Most people just want to get from one place to the next. They don't have any particular feeling about it.

CP: So. You're saying that smiling and walking is unusual?

A: 'fraid so.

CP: You're saying that *I'm* the odd one, not all those people frowning, grousing, looking at the pavement, ignoring everyone passing them.

A: Uh huh. Most people just don't smile when they walk.

CP: (silence)

A: Sorry.

CP: I'm still going to smile. (To passer by - smiling) Good morning!

(The passer by is left a little shaken by someone interrupting his turgid walk. Uncertain how to react, he practically trips wondering if he should respond, or if he should - how).

CP: Point taken. Still going to smile. Say hi.

A: Knock yourself out.

CP: I still can't believe it's considered odd to smile and say howdy to folks passing by. That I'm "odd." This is Seattle. We're supposed to be friendly. Not Canadian friendly*, mind you, but normal friendly, eh?

A: Um hum. You're the odd one.

(We continue walking - me shaking my head, him smiling - not at other people, at my apparent oddness)

CP: Fine. I'll just be odd. And friendly. And smile when I walk. I believe it would be a better world if everyone did.

A: Maybe that's because you're a writer. You live in an imaginary world. Or two. Or three.

(OK - it may have been my imagination, but I could swear Aaron scooted just a little farther away from me as we made our way up the street).

*Canadian friendly=offering you their parking spot as they head toward their car, about to leave; handing a street person begging on the corner a cigarette from behind the driver's wheel; helping you carry bags to your car, hotel or remote home if you're having trouble managing all of them; lying down over a mud puddle so you don't have to sully your shoes as you traverse over him or her ...

There's more, but you get the idea.

No wonder Mounties always get their man - all the Mountie has to do is walk into a Canadian bar, show a photo and ask, "Can anyone help me find this scumbag?" I bet a Mountie even adds, "Please."

And suddenly he or she has a posse. A posse that probably carries extra pieces of carrots and apples just in case a Mountie's horse needs a nibble.

I wouldn't be surprised if the posse gives the caught culprit a snack of carrots and apple on the way to the hoosegow.

Yep. I bet Canadians walk and smile simultaneously, even out in the woods.

And say "hi" to any human or creature they pass as they perambulate. Oh, yeah.

Love Giant Panda Bears?

The San Diego Zoo's Panda Cam was crushed with so many hits the site went down yesterday, but it's back up again today.

The fuss is about the Giant Panda cub born early August 5 - just three days ago.

You can see the tiny baby's birth for yourself by clicking the video window here.

The gender of the wee bear - about the size of a stick of butter - won't be known for awhile. The mostly pink, hairless little offspring will take about four weeks to start showing those distinctive black and white fur panda markings.

It's cub #5 for Giant Panda Bai Yun, who weighs in at more than 200 pounds. There's not much action at Panda Cam because she's mostly overseeing her minuscule charge, blocking our view to the baby. However, sometimes she moves enough for us to see the little guy.

Do NOT miss the photo gallery! Be sure to click the button to the left of the panda cam - it features a fantastic slide show of a panda youngster enjoying life.

The Giant Panda is one of the most critically endangered species of the planet, according to the World Wildlife Fund - that's their photograph in the corner.

The San Diego Zoo is world renown for its successful animal husbandry work with some endangered species - in the case of pandas, some who were born at the zoo were then sent to China to help the Giant Panda's native nation's breeding programs and research.

A new twist!

I'm still smiling after returning from our trip to Los Angeles.

I had a great chat with a good friend last night about life and art and whatnot; she suggested I launch into yet another project (I love working on several at once).

So after walking two of my dogs with my assistant Aaron today - I decided to write a new feature script, one that is more singular-character driven and dramatic than what I've been writing most recently.

I got two thumbs up - way up - for this decision from a trusted production associate; part of the excitement is that so many marvelous actors, crew and other artists want to work with me.

It's going to be lots of fun, very intense and a totally splendid experience for me and everyone who works on it.

I also arranged today to record my niece's Christmas presents - some poems for little girls and a special story I wrote for her, one that mentions her name over and over - for her to play over and over and over and ... It will have lots of sound effects, too!

Yikes!

I hope her mother still loves me after her 16 month-old turns 4, then 5 and still wants to listen to the CD with her name on it .... with all those sound effects...

All. The. Time.

;-)

OK, two days was a stretch..

All I can say until further notice is ... "negotiations."

What a wonderful group came to the screening of THE WHOLE TRUTH last night - it's an evening I'll never forget at the famous Aidikoff Screening Room in Beverly Hills. I recommend it without reservation.

Back to Seattle tomorrow (Thurs).

I learned, once again, so much on this trip.

Two very successful screenings...

It's late Tuesday, just got back from having a bite to eat after the evening screening.

I'm really pleased with the film's reception at both the afternoon and evening screenings; we'll hear how the distributors felt over the next few days - I have had an extremely long and demanding day, so - later!

In LA for distributors' screenings

It's now Monday night and several more distributors rsvp'd "yes" today to the 2pm theater screening of THE WHOLE TRUTH in Burbank tomorrow, which is nearly full now; still more rsvp'd "yes" to the 7:30pm theater screening in Beverly Hills - where studio reps, other distributors, Elisabeth Röhm and special guest stars will be on hand.

Producer Larry Estes put out the invitations, so they're responding to him.

Some distributors who are not coming to either screening have requested "screeners," the dvd-very low resolution format of the film - which won't be ready until at least a few days after the theater screenings. We may not send them because we're hoping to sign a deal within two days after the screenings.

We've also prepared THE WHOLE TRUTH posters for display outside the theaters so the distributors will see them before they see the film, which should give them a taste of the film's tone in case they've not seen the teaser or the trailer.

The most exciting part for me is not just spending time with our special guest stars - superb and well known talents all - and good distributors who know their stuff, but as soon as we have a solid distribution deal, we can get started with our next feature film, THE LONELY GOATHERD!

Thanks to all the folks who have sent their best wishes, high fives and good luck; at this point we are hoping the film sells itself!

In case there is no distribution deal signed among the folks attending? We have other resources and contacts to help us; hopefully we won't have to turn to them!

Shot sheeting - Part Deux

Following up on my initial missive on breaking down every single shot I see in my head and writing each down in a list format that I call "shot sheeting" is also called "shot listing."

I just finished the completed finessed version of my script for my next planned feature, THE LONELY GOATHERD and the shot sheets for it almost simultaneously.

For the first pass, I just want to get the "bread and butter" shots on the list, so now's the time to polish and compress what I've written so the filming process can be streamlined and my ideas clearly conveyed to the cinematographer (also called the "DP" - Director of Photography), editor, production designer and everyone else who will read them in the creative collaboration.

Chances are any or all of these professionals will come up with ideas that enhance my vision so profoundly - that I replace pages over which I languished and labored with the new notes provided by these brilliant collaborators.

The DP and I may decide to re-do the shot sheets together based on the vision and all the other work we've done - watching other films for references, discussing emotions, tones, style and effects.

These same conversations take place with other collaborators, individually and together. We need to speak each others' language, understand one another and the way we like to work.

There's more - after I work with the actors, I take into consideration the notes they've made, worked out the blocking (where actors move in the scene) and if they have notes that will enhance their performance, the portrayal of their character, the scene and the film itself - I will listen and if they work to elevate the visual, verbal performance, I'll incorporate them.

It's important to be open to everyone's thoughts, but remain clear about what does and does not work to maintain the film's vision. I say yes to everything that enhances, improves and elevates; I say no to anything that doesn't build on what's already there.

I stay true to the vision of the film, without ever feeling like I have to say yes to soothe someone's ego; I'm not afraid to say no - but I don't want to lose a chance to punctuate a performance with a smart word, movement, shot, prop, whatever has been thoughtfully proposed.

I explain my decision - why I think the idea works - or not. People usually light up and listen closely when I give specifics of how a new thought is "brilliant" and fits right in; their eyes glaze over after I say, "Good thought. But in this case it won't work-- (because the antagonist needs to see it coming and- yadda yadda)"

After "won't work," they tend to have better things to do; few discussions ensue.

But they always come back and back with ideas because when someone gives me an idea that works? It really is brilliant and they can justly feel their thumb print is in the production.

I love working with people who know more than me - so I can learn new and different whatever it takes to make a better film. I'm pleased to say that others in a position to know more have told me they've learned from me as well because I tend not to work the way they've encountered previously.

I always tell the people with whom I work - I'm more interested in making a good film than being "right." The vision is the only thing to work for -- not ego or doing things the way they've always been done.

I know there are directors who are very dictatorial and rude, but the reason I'm so completely, totally and critically anal about pre-production and preparation is so I can relax, and remain open to seeing and inviting all the creative opportunities to enhance the vision during the actual production of the film - whether they come from me or someone else on the production.

The idea is that while I'm making this film a dozen times in my head before I meet with my collaborators, after I meet with them and share my vision/ideas, I expect them to come in with ideas of their own and begin the process I genuinely love - collaborating.

One thing about collaborating - the buck always stops here. For example, if the set designer comes up with an idea of putting egg shells on the floor so they crunch with every step and I don't carefully consider whether that genuinely enhances the vision/production, and come up with a very reasoned answer - and the egg shell idea BLOWS? I can't come back and "blame" the set designer.

It's still my decision.

Thus, the more transparent and grounded the vision, the better the decisions AND, honestly, the better the ideas that are passed my way from all the collaborators working on the film.

Fountains

I have two quietly gurgling fountains in my home.

I gave them names - I tend to be anthropomorphic that way. I call each of them The Fountain of Soothe.

"Flow" seemed a bit on the nose.

There's not only a sense of tranquility with the sound of fountains gently pouring water day and night, but it reminds me that life well lived moves continually. There is no sense of feeling stuck.

My own private waterfalls.

For the Chinese, water represents Qi, which is our inner energy, our soul power as it were; and fountains constantly remind us that water is the element necessary for all life on earth.

In Feng Shui, fountains create positive Qi - which helps create a healthy living environment.
























My small, portable fountain has small stones over which the water pours, which represents the power of nature over all the elements of our planet, reminding us that we are one of those stones - nature does rule us no matter how much we try to contain it. That should remind us to be humble. My larger, plug-in fountain features a fairy/angel (you choose) overseeing the world as water continually cleanses the orb as the small pool around the globe flows.

They both need to be refilled daily - the larger one with a full cup of water - to keep the water pure and clean, and to keep the fountain engines running smoothly.

Without water to churn, they can burn out.

It keeps me involved with that whole cleansing and tranquil cycle - it's a way to keep me involved.


Interestingly, not everyone who comes into my house notices the fountains. And sometimes when they do, they ask, "Have you always.... had ...?" To which I nod my head. Yep.

It's also nice to gaze longingly at my fountains on very hot days, wishing I were an inch tall and could jump in to cool off. Even the thought, however, puts just a bit more of a refreshing breeze in my psyche.

Before you ask - I've forgotten where I bought these, but I got them online.

There are fountains galore available online.

Be a careful shopper - get one that is the perfect size and motif for your personality and living circumstance or office. Some are a little pricey, others are shockingly inexpensive but are still sturdy.

Make sure it's a good fit because as many years as I've had mine, I know I'll have them the rest of my life.

Oh, one more note -- I think they also make me thirsty, so I drink plenty of water. ;-)

How do you see the world?

A Visit To The Asylum

Once from a big, big building,
When I was small, small,
The queer folk in the windows
Would smile at me and call.
And in the hard wee gardens
Such pleasant men would hoe:
"Sir, may we touch the little girl's hair!"—
It was so red, you know.
They cut me coloured asters
With shears so sharp and neat,
They brought me grapes and plums and pears
And pretty cakes to eat.
And out of all the windows,
No matter where we went,
The merriest eyes would follow me
And make me compliment.
There were a thousand windows,
All latticed up and down.
And up to all the windows,
When we went back to town,
The queer folk put their faces,
As gentle as could be;
"Come again, little girl!" they called, and I
Called back, "You come see me!"

--Edna St. Vincent Millay

One of my favorite poets, "Vincent" (1982-1950) was the first woman to receive the Pulitzer prize (1923) for poetry.

I love the subjects she assembles here of understanding and experiencing the humanity within those considered discarded.

I love the simplicity of her language, the tenderness of her description and the sweetness of the little girl's words - both contrasting the rather harsh images conjured.

If you can, read it out loud, have someone read it to you, or record it -read it to yourself!

I have read this poem to many groups, each very different, but always receive the same appreciative, pensive response.

Feeling lost?

Lost

Stand still.
The trees ahead and bushes beside you
Are not lost.
Wherever you are is called
Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes.
Listen.
It answers,
I have made this place around you,
If you leave it you may come back again, saying
Here.
No two trees are the same to Raven.
No two branches are the same to Wren.
If what a tree or a bush does is lost on you,
You are surely lost.
Stand still.
The forest knows
Where you are.
You must let it find you.


--David Wagoner

On to distribution!

I'm back in Bad Animals' Sound Studio today, putting the ultra finishing touches on the new cut of THE WHOLE TRUTH with sound editor Dave Howe, preparing it for two screenings we're holding for distributors and their representatives in theaters next Tuesday afternoon in Burbank and evening in Beverly Hills.

It appears at this point we'll have a good turnout. Quality distributors will be represented - and the most shocking news is how many studios are sending reps, when most studios have done away with their indie film departments or simply kissed them off.

Several of the film's stars will be on hand to chat after the film is screened. At least one surprise guest star will be there; she's not associated with the film, but she's gracing us with her presence for moral and critical support. I'll take photos.

After we finish our work in the sound studio today, "screeners" of the film will be made to show those who cannot come to the screening - or the bosses of those who are there, if they have an interest in picking up the film.

Screeners are always scary to me because they are often viewed on (smaller) TV screens and although they are made on DVD formats, they are made with a very degraded picture quality - ultra-low resolution - which is near hideous compared to the splendid look on the big screen - and the way the film will appear when its DVD is created.

Two reasons for this: the most important is that it can't be pirated, the second is that the word "screener" pops up here and there so whoever watches it will know that it's not intended for sale or normal entertainment, only to be screened by an official film festival viewer or distributor/rep.

Screeners won't be made available until the end of next week; we hope to seal the deal with a distributor within two days of the screening - before screeners will be available.

Veteran screeners know the low quality is part of the viewing package - others do not and wonder about it, which is why we're advised not to show screeners to anyone other than those for whom it's intended.

The new poster is also printed up for distributors to see as they enter the theaters at which we're screening the film so they can be prepared for what they're about to see.

As excited and proud as I am of this new cut, I'm keeping my expectations to a minimum. As much as I love and am in love with this film, I can only hope others will be, too - but it's like introducing your incredible fiancee to your friends.

You're madly in love with her - hoping, praying they love her at first sight - but in fact because she's so unique, they may need a moment or two to get to get to know her so they will love her as much as you do!

My assistant Aaron has a motto: "Ya never know."

So true.

Especially when it comes to comedy.

I'll give you the blow by blow of the distribution process after the screening next week - and explain why I asked our producer Larry Estes to invite some folks in the movie biz not ordinarily asked to attend these events. I'm really intrigued to see if/how it works out!

Wish us luck!

What defines you?

What you wear?

How you treat others?

How you treat yourself?

Your job?

Your child(ren)?

Your hair?

Your make-up?

Your body?

Your reputation?

What happened in (junior) high school?

Playing sports?

Your family?

Your house/apartment?

Your car?

Your sense of duty - or honor - or justice - or something else that's noble?

Your hobby?

Your skill(s)?

Your relationship skills?

Your parent(s)?

Your opinions?

Your love of (fill in the blanks)?

Your friends?

Your pets?

Your accomplishments?

Being trustworthy? Reliable? Consistent?

Being untrustworthy? Unreliable? Inconsistent?

Your language?

Your speaking ability?

Your intellect?

Your education?

Your lack of education?

Your religion (or lack thereof)?

Your confidence?

Your lack of confidence?

Keeping your word?

Breaking your word?

Blaming others?

Taking responsibility?

Finding peace in stillness and silence?

Being haunted by silence and stillness?

Your smile?

Your video gaming technology?

Your video game scores?

Addiction? (food, sex, alcohol, drugs, oil, whatever)

Desire to help others?

An open mind?

A closed mind?

Bigotry?

Acceptance?

Being accountable?

Avoiding accountability?

Willing to make mistakes?

Willing to learn from your mistakes?

"Getting by"?

Making sure it's the best you can do?

An open heart?

An angry heart?

Generosity?

Kindness?

Abuse?

Selfishness?

Forgiving?

Unforgiving?

Tidy?

Messy?

Aspirations?

Being goal-free?

Excited about life?

Dreading the next day?

Lonely?

Happy?

Satisfied?

Frightened of life?

Cowardly?

Courageous?

Your art?

Nature?

Always learning?

Believing you are right about everything and everyone?

Wishing people the best?

Envious?

Enjoying all that life has to offer?

Unaware of everything life has to offer you?

Proud of yourself and your decisions?

Stuck, frustrated in a situation you want to change but believe you can't?

Appreciating what surrounds you?

Unaware of what surrounds you?

Music?

Your strength?

Your talent?

Your heroes?

Your awards/trophies?

What you've done?

Who you are?

Your neighborhood?

The color of your skin?

Gender?

Sexual orientation?

Compassion?

Passion?

Great taste?

Ability to bounce back from adversity?

Patriotism?

Chauvinism?

Your appearance?

Your looks?

Your collection of books, movies, CD's, music, games?

Belief in yourself - that you can do what you set out to do?

Feeling like a failure?

Just thought I'd ask.

I hope the way you define yourself makes you proud of who you are, what you do, the people who surround you, how you behave, and how you conduct your relationships.

Or at least that you want to feel proud - we're all works in progress.

Outside my kitchen window

All photos copyrighted by Colleen Patrick 2009.

Living life backward

A friend recently told me that most folks my age are getting ready to exit a working environment and think about "taking it easy."

I believe she even mentioned a rocking chair.

I must be living my life backward because I've never been more enthused about my life, my work, relationships, learning, teaching, nature, art and seeking new ways of doing what I do and the way I do it.

The way I see it, I've put in a lot of years learning, have a massive amount of experience and have never been more excited about applying it, as well as being open to fulfill my real life's goal: to learn everything there is to know.

An unachievable goal, perhaps, but I still aim high and am always thrilled when I find something I don't know, discover new ways of approaching whatever it is life hands me, a surprise rendezvous or encounter.

I guess I consider myself a person who has more potential than someone who has already fulfilled her promise.

Energy isn't an issue for me, and believe me I am grateful for that - I can pursue and do whatever I wish without any physical limitations.

So what do I do?

In addition to pursuing my hobbies, I'm helping care for rescued horses, caring for friends and my wee family, writing-producing-directing a video project that's going to help many, many children throughout the world; writing-directing-producing a new feature film; getting my feature film THE WHOLE TRUTH in the hands of the right distributor, writing and rewriting future feature scripts and constantly learning new things.

I'm also currently focused on my photography and drawing techniques; music is always a passion; painting comes next.

And that's just my morning! ;-)

The word aging is not one I use - I just consider myself living.

Now at a new stage of my life.

But, thinking about it, aren't they all?

Kindness

".. kindness knows no shame"

--Stevie Wonder ("As")

Health care ... or careless ... or care less ...

Seems to me that the way a nation/government shows how it cares about its people is by the way it takes care of them -- and their health.

There's military for security, police for protection/law enforcement, schools for its education, fire departments for protection and life saving...

So what about health care?

When it comes to health care for its people, the US Government does not give a single drop of shit.

Although, to be fair - some US citizens do enjoy excellent "socialized" health care. The government does care about them.

I'm talking about the folks we elect to office - and their families. They - and their families - receive federally provided excellent medical coverage. These are the same people who self-righteously vote against those same rights for the rest of us.

Supreme Court justices - and their families - also enjoy the same excellent "socialized" medical coverage, and they are in the position of ruling against that same right for the rest of us.

So much for the old constitutional chestnut, "US citizens are the employers of those who run their government."

I realize I must be clear about the term "socialized" medicine.

The reason the word socialism is in quotes is because it's not a matter of socialism vs capitalism. It's a matter of whether the US wants to provide decent health care for its citizenry or not. The "how" that happens is the big question in the US, not in other nations whose health care quality outdistance the US greatly.

France is a capitalist nation and it ranks #1 in its health care quality. Capitalist and socialist nations that provide quality health care for their people have not found their economic foundations shaken, stirred or even twisted.

I'd call it universal health care.

Tribal peoples dating back to the Big Bang know health care is a normal, accepted right of life. Health care among tribal peoples has always been a fact of human existence. No questions, no arguments, no negotiations.

Shaman, Medicine Men and Women, and other anointed health care givers who healed - or tried to - those in their community afflicted with physical or mental health issues, were considered special, gifted.

They freely dispensed their healing knowledge of herbs, spices, massage, acupressure, acupuncture, blood-letting and other - now generally questionable - practices intended to care for all health matters afflicting their neighbors.

Say - did you know there are conditions for which leeches actually work even today?

American doctors and nurses used to make house calls. (They still do in other nations as part of their government-provided health care provisions - did you know that?)

Until the money folks took over. When a doc or nurse practitioner visits a patient at home, they see the conditions in which their patients live which might contribute to their illness and can help heal their unhealthy lifestyles as well as the immediate sickness.

It was deemed much more "cost effective" to have everyone go to a central location - where patients can encounter many other germs, bacteria, ill people, the stress of being in a foreign environment, among people they don't know and among medical professionals forced into a position of not working for them as much as they are for bosses trying to save money.

Patients and medical professionals are forced to rely on insurance companies who work hard to avoid paying outright, rather than figure out how to pay, for care.

And they deny payment for lots of reasons: the treatment is unique, the treatment is experimental, the treatment might be *expensive,* the treatment is rare ... and of course (the best for last) - the patient is going to die anyway.

Um, we are all going to die anyway.

The question is the quality of life while we're here .

And why those in our government whom we have elected would prefer we go to bed worrying not just about our health care but our financial well being.

They'd rather we go to sleep worrying about whether we can afford to keep ourselves, our partners, relatives and children healthy; whether we have to go bankrupt paying for critical or chronic illness; how we can avoid medical expenses - cut corners - for ourselves and our kids.

They'd rather we lose sleep worrying about these things that are considered a basic human right in all other civilized (and even some not-so-civilized) nations; they'd rather we suffer financial and health care nightmares than dream of ways we can create a better life for ourselves, our families and our country.

See, worry creates stress, which creates health problems, which creates ....

But, that's how much the US Government cares about its people.

They will allow American people to wallow at the bottom of a list that evaluates health care quality among nations, but be thrilled that the US is #1 in spending our tax money on... what? What are its priorities?

I suggest you see Michael Moore's film, SICKO, which conservatives and liberals agree, tells it like it is about real health care issues in the US and other nations.

Among all the ridiculous arguments for and against a right of American health care, IMO, here is the real problem:

If Americans had a whit of self esteem? The moment they believe they deserve proper health care, that they - and their children - are worthy, are worth it? They'd insist on proper health care and would have it. Just that quickly.

The way people in the 37 countries who precede the US in health care quality do.