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Colleen's thoughts on writing, directing and coaching, and her unique take on life itself!

Friday, July 31, 2009

How do you see the world?

A Visit To The Asylum

Once from a big, big building,
When I was small, small,
The queer folk in the windows
Would smile at me and call.
And in the hard wee gardens
Such pleasant men would hoe:
"Sir, may we touch the little girl's hair!"—
It was so red, you know.
They cut me coloured asters
With shears so sharp and neat,
They brought me grapes and plums and pears
And pretty cakes to eat.
And out of all the windows,
No matter where we went,
The merriest eyes would follow me
And make me compliment.
There were a thousand windows,
All latticed up and down.
And up to all the windows,
When we went back to town,
The queer folk put their faces,
As gentle as could be;
"Come again, little girl!" they called, and I
Called back, "You come see me!"

--Edna St. Vincent Millay

One of my favorite poets, "Vincent" (1982-1950) was the first woman to receive the Pulitzer prize (1923) for poetry.

I love the subjects she assembles here of understanding and experiencing the humanity within those considered discarded.

I love the simplicity of her language, the tenderness of her description and the sweetness of the little girl's words - both contrasting the rather harsh images conjured.

If you can, read it out loud, have someone read it to you, or record it -read it to yourself!

I have read this poem to many groups, each very different, but always receive the same appreciative, pensive response.

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Thursday, July 30, 2009

Feeling lost?

Lost

Stand still.
The trees ahead and bushes beside you
Are not lost.
Wherever you are is called
Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes.
Listen.
It answers,
I have made this place around you,
If you leave it you may come back again, saying
Here.
No two trees are the same to Raven.
No two branches are the same to Wren.
If what a tree or a bush does is lost on you,
You are surely lost.
Stand still.
The forest knows
Where you are.
You must let it find you.


--David Wagoner

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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

On to distribution!

I'm back in Bad Animals' Sound Studio today, putting the ultra finishing touches on the new cut of THE WHOLE TRUTH with sound editor Dave Howe, preparing it for two screenings we're holding for distributors and their representatives in theaters next Tuesday afternoon in Burbank and evening in Beverly Hills.

It appears at this point we'll have a good turnout. Quality distributors will be represented - and the most shocking news is how many studios are sending reps, when most studios have done away with their indie film departments or simply kissed them off.

Several of the film's stars will be on hand to chat after the film is screened. At least one surprise guest star will be there; she's not associated with the film, but she's gracing us with her presence for moral and critical support. I'll take photos.

After we finish our work in the sound studio today, "screeners" of the film will be made to show those who cannot come to the screening - or the bosses of those who are there, if they have an interest in picking up the film.

Screeners are always scary to me because they are often viewed on (smaller) TV screens and although they are made on DVD formats, they are made with a very degraded picture quality - ultra-low resolution - which is near hideous compared to the splendid look on the big screen - and the way the film will appear when its DVD is created.

Two reasons for this: the most important is that it can't be pirated, the second is that the word "screener" pops up here and there so whoever watches it will know that it's not intended for sale or normal entertainment, only to be screened by an official film festival viewer or distributor/rep.

Screeners won't be made available until the end of next week; we hope to seal the deal with a distributor within two days of the screening - before screeners will be available.

Veteran screeners know the low quality is part of the viewing package - others do not and wonder about it, which is why we're advised not to show screeners to anyone other than those for whom it's intended.

The new poster is also printed up for distributors to see as they enter the theaters at which we're screening the film so they can be prepared for what they're about to see.

As excited and proud as I am of this new cut, I'm keeping my expectations to a minimum. As much as I love and am in love with this film, I can only hope others will be, too - but it's like introducing your incredible fiancee to your friends.

You're madly in love with her - hoping, praying they love her at first sight - but in fact because she's so unique, they may need a moment or two to get to get to know her so they will love her as much as you do!

My assistant Aaron has a motto: "Ya never know."

So true.

Especially when it comes to comedy.

I'll give you the blow by blow of the distribution process after the screening next week - and explain why I asked our producer Larry Estes to invite some folks in the movie biz not ordinarily asked to attend these events. I'm really intrigued to see if/how it works out!

Wish us luck!

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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

What defines you?

What you wear?

How you treat others?

How you treat yourself?

Your job?

Your child(ren)?

Your hair?

Your make-up?

Your body?

Your reputation?

What happened in (junior) high school?

Playing sports?

Your family?

Your house/apartment?

Your car?

Your sense of duty - or honor - or justice - or something else that's noble?

Your hobby?

Your skill(s)?

Your relationship skills?

Your parent(s)?

Your opinions?

Your love of (fill in the blanks)?

Your friends?

Your pets?

Your accomplishments?

Being trustworthy? Reliable? Consistent?

Being untrustworthy? Unreliable? Inconsistent?

Your language?

Your speaking ability?

Your intellect?

Your education?

Your lack of education?

Your religion (or lack thereof)?

Your confidence?

Your lack of confidence?

Keeping your word?

Breaking your word?

Blaming others?

Taking responsibility?

Finding peace in stillness and silence?

Being haunted by silence and stillness?

Your smile?

Your video gaming technology?

Your video game scores?

Addiction? (food, sex, alcohol, drugs, oil, whatever)

Desire to help others?

An open mind?

A closed mind?

Bigotry?

Acceptance?

Being accountable?

Avoiding accountability?

Willing to make mistakes?

Willing to learn from your mistakes?

"Getting by"?

Making sure it's the best you can do?

An open heart?

An angry heart?

Generosity?

Kindness?

Abuse?

Selfishness?

Forgiving?

Unforgiving?

Tidy?

Messy?

Aspirations?

Being goal-free?

Excited about life?

Dreading the next day?

Lonely?

Happy?

Satisfied?

Frightened of life?

Cowardly?

Courageous?

Your art?

Nature?

Always learning?

Believing you are right about everything and everyone?

Wishing people the best?

Envious?

Enjoying all that life has to offer?

Unaware of everything life has to offer you?

Proud of yourself and your decisions?

Stuck, frustrated in a situation you want to change but believe you can't?

Appreciating what surrounds you?

Unaware of what surrounds you?

Music?

Your strength?

Your talent?

Your heroes?

Your awards/trophies?

What you've done?

Who you are?

Your neighborhood?

The color of your skin?

Gender?

Sexual orientation?

Compassion?

Passion?

Great taste?

Ability to bounce back from adversity?

Patriotism?

Chauvinism?

Your appearance?

Your looks?

Your collection of books, movies, CD's, music, games?

Belief in yourself - that you can do what you set out to do?

Feeling like a failure?

Just thought I'd ask.

I hope the way you define yourself makes you proud of who you are, what you do, the people who surround you, how you behave, and how you conduct your relationships.

Or at least that you want to feel proud - we're all works in progress.

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Monday, July 27, 2009

Outside my kitchen window














All photos copyrighted by Colleen Patrick 2009.

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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Living life backward

A friend recently told me that most folks my age are getting ready to exit a working environment and think about "taking it easy."

I believe she even mentioned a rocking chair.

I must be living my life backward because I've never been more enthused about my life, my work, relationships, learning, teaching, nature, art and seeking new ways of doing what I do and the way I do it.

The way I see it, I've put in a lot of years learning, have a massive amount of experience and have never been more excited about applying it, as well as being open to fulfill my real life's goal: to learn everything there is to know.

An unachievable goal, perhaps, but I still aim high and am always thrilled when I find something I don't know, discover new ways of approaching whatever it is life hands me, a surprise rendezvous or encounter.

I guess I consider myself a person who has more potential than someone who has already fulfilled her promise.

Energy isn't an issue for me, and believe me I am grateful for that - I can pursue and do whatever I wish without any physical limitations.

So what do I do?

In addition to pursuing my hobbies, I'm helping care for rescued horses, caring for friends and my wee family, writing-producing-directing a video project that's going to help many, many children throughout the world; writing-directing-producing a new feature film; getting my feature film THE WHOLE TRUTH in the hands of the right distributor, writing and rewriting future feature scripts and constantly learning new things.

I'm also currently focused on my photography and drawing techniques; music is always a passion; painting comes next.

And that's just my morning! ;-)

The word aging is not one I use - I just consider myself living.

Now at a new stage of my life.

But, thinking about it, aren't they all?

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Saturday, July 25, 2009

Kindness

".. kindness knows no shame"

--Stevie Wonder ("As")

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Friday, July 24, 2009

Health care ... or careless ... or care less ...

Seems to me that the way a nation/government shows how it cares about its people is by the way it takes care of them -- and their health.

There's military for security, police for protection/law enforcement, schools for its education, fire departments for protection and life saving...

So what about health care?

When it comes to health care for its people, the US Government does not give a single drop of shit.

Although, to be fair - some US citizens do enjoy excellent "socialized" health care. The government does care about them.

I'm talking about the folks we elect to office - and their families. They - and their families - receive federally provided excellent medical coverage. These are the same people who self-righteously vote against those same rights for the rest of us.

Supreme Court justices - and their families - also enjoy the same excellent "socialized" medical coverage, and they are in the position of ruling against that same right for the rest of us.

So much for the old constitutional chestnut, "US citizens are the employers of those who run their government."

I realize I must be clear about the term "socialized" medicine.

The reason the word socialism is in quotes is because it's not a matter of socialism vs capitalism. It's a matter of whether the US wants to provide decent health care for its citizenry or not. The "how" that happens is the big question in the US, not in other nations whose health care quality outdistance the US greatly.

France is a capitalist nation and it ranks #1 in its health care quality. Capitalist and socialist nations that provide quality health care for their people have not found their economic foundations shaken, stirred or even twisted.

I'd call it universal health care.

Tribal peoples dating back to the Big Bang know health care is a normal, accepted right of life. Health care among tribal peoples has always been a fact of human existence. No questions, no arguments, no negotiations.

Shaman, Medicine Men and Women, and other anointed health care givers who healed - or tried to - those in their community afflicted with physical or mental health issues, were considered special, gifted.

They freely dispensed their healing knowledge of herbs, spices, massage, acupressure, acupuncture, blood-letting and other - now generally questionable - practices intended to care for all health matters afflicting their neighbors.

Say - did you know there are conditions for which leeches actually work even today?

American doctors and nurses used to make house calls. (They still do in other nations as part of their government-provided health care provisions - did you know that?)

Until the money folks took over. When a doc or nurse practitioner visits a patient at home, they see the conditions in which their patients live which might contribute to their illness and can help heal their unhealthy lifestyles as well as the immediate sickness.

It was deemed much more "cost effective" to have everyone go to a central location - where patients can encounter many other germs, bacteria, ill people, the stress of being in a foreign environment, among people they don't know and among medical professionals forced into a position of not working for them as much as they are for bosses trying to save money.

Patients and medical professionals are forced to rely on insurance companies who work hard to avoid paying outright, rather than figure out how to pay, for care.

And they deny payment for lots of reasons: the treatment is unique, the treatment is experimental, the treatment might be *expensive,* the treatment is rare ... and of course (the best for last) - the patient is going to die anyway.

Um, we are all going to die anyway.

The question is the quality of life while we're here .

And why those in our government whom we have elected would prefer we go to bed worrying not just about our health care but our financial well being.

They'd rather we go to sleep worrying about whether we can afford to keep ourselves, our partners, relatives and children healthy; whether we have to go bankrupt paying for critical or chronic illness; how we can avoid medical expenses - cut corners - for ourselves and our kids.

They'd rather we lose sleep worrying about these things that are considered a basic human right in all other civilized (and even some not-so-civilized) nations; they'd rather we suffer financial and health care nightmares than dream of ways we can create a better life for ourselves, our families and our country.

See, worry creates stress, which creates health problems, which creates ....

But, that's how much the US Government cares about its people.

They will allow American people to wallow at the bottom of a list that evaluates health care quality among nations, but be thrilled that the US is #1 in spending our tax money on... what? What are its priorities?

I suggest you see Michael Moore's film, SICKO, which conservatives and liberals agree, tells it like it is about real health care issues in the US and other nations.

Among all the ridiculous arguments for and against a right of American health care, IMO, here is the real problem:

If Americans had a whit of self esteem? The moment they believe they deserve proper health care, that they - and their children - are worthy, are worth it? They'd insist on proper health care and would have it. Just that quickly.

The way people in the 37 countries who precede the US in health care quality do.

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Thursday, July 23, 2009

Sleep

A friend told me recently he'd been having trouble sleeping.

I asked why, he told me he was upset and unsettled about too many things in his life. His divorce, being single, not being exactly where he wants to be in life at his age, wondering-

I felt badly for him.

Then I thought about how much we discuss sleep. "Did you sleep well?" "Have a good night?" "You look well rested."

There are even songs written about sleep.

Most of my life I sort of shunned sleep because I didn't feel like I needed a lot to function. I felt I had too much to do. After all life is short. I preferred to be doing something. Something positive. Working, writing, creating, singing, drawing, painting, playing with the pets.

I didn't sleep well when I was a kid for a number of reasons - moving 17 times by the time I was 17, I don't believe I ever felt settled or like I was in familiar territory. The result can be a lot of anxiety.

And, I was always concerned I might miss something - something exciting.

Then ... I learned to love sleep.

I got one of those fantastic yummy memory spongy tops for my mattress. It is so soft, I snuggle into it and feel like I fit there. It holds me in the so so soft palm of its hand nightly.

Comforting, that's what it is.

It helps that my dream catcher hangs over the head of my bed. A dream catcher is an indigenous tribal hoop that catches bad dreams and nightmares, allowing allows the good dreams through.

Two of my three dogs sleep with me. The third has his own little bed next to mine because he is still in an intense training period and dogs are easier to train with an extra boundary. The kitty has her own little tent at the foot of the bed, although she also loves to snuggle up and purr in my face in the middle of the night for a short time, then she's out light the proverbial light.

Me, too.

All of which is mentioned because my bed mates all behave themselves impeccably. They know I need my sleep and for the most part, unless someone is sick, they cuddle up next to me and - OK, other than their snoring - sleep soundly until I get up, no matter how many hours I put into dream time.

I like the dark.

I wear a Tempur-Pedic eye mask (night mask) that keeps my world pitch black with the greatest coziness. I like that I can open my eyes without the mask touching my eyelashes or lids. There are plenty of places to get them at a discount.

I perform a brief spiritual ritual before turning my life over to the sleep shepherds, so it normally takes me about five minutes to fall asleep.

Unless I'm in the midst of solving a problem of major proportions, in which case I may slumber as many as two hours - and be fine the next day. When I have to get up in the middle of the night, I seem to remain in a half-asleep trance because when my head hits the pillow I resume my repose instantly.

I like to average 7-8 hours of sound sleep a night. Sometimes 9!

Animals need many, many hours of sleep a day or they will get sick. Cats can squeeze in some 18 hours and still feel they want a couple more.

Feeling rested is not just a goal for me, but generally a fact.

Getting exercise during the day also helps send me into dreamland, and I like to meditate.

When I'm directing a film, sleep can be hard to come by, so I take advantage of it when I can. If I need to sleep for sure, I take a small dosage of melatonin, a natural hormone secreted by the body in larger quantities when we're younger that helps us fall asleep.

I like falling asleep with a goal in mind that I'd like to have my dream state help carry me through; whether it's a problem to solve, a new way of thinking about or seeing something, a mental task to complete, or a way of building something I'm creating.

When I was in high school I actually dreamed up a debate case that I won every time I competed. My classmates did not want to hear that I woke up with a winning case.

I don't normally analyze my dreams - for the most part I don't tend to remember them. When I do remember them, it's usually a very clear message about something going on in my life and how I perhaps should experience what's happening - rather than the way I am perceiving them in the light of day.

My brother loves naps.

I consider the nap a new level in my relationship with sleep.

I'm told power naps are energizing and refreshing. My fear is that I'll nap too long - I've done that, only to be groggy the rest of the day. But there are ways to prevent that - like setting a timer.

I believe there's another universe we visit when we sleep - I'd like to be more aware of it. It must be a fascinating place.

We catch a bare glimpse of it when dreams are recalled. But what about the rest of the time we're sleeping? Dreams invade our consciousness for only seconds, just moments before we awake.

I think it would be exciting to hang out, to experience the rest of the time we're asleep in the galaxy of our sleeping minds.

I believe one important reason I tend to sleep well is because I'm not one to worry. And I'm not an angry person. I don't hate anything. I feel I'm being true to myself and those around me; I feel I live with as much integrity as possible and I don't feel guilty; I'm not dishonest with or mistreating anyone, nor do I have anything to hide that would haunt me in my most private and vulnerable moments.

I'm not sure why I was moved to write about sleep, especially my sleep thoughts and habits. Except that it actually is bedtime, and at this point the subject has bored me enough to slip into snoozeland.

Nite nite.

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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Weekend wonders

Sunday, I pulled into my driveway to see two men approaching me wearing ties, nice shirts, bibles and literature from a religious organization that rhymes with "Hemovah's Pitness."

I nodded, "Good day, gentlemen. I don't mean to scare you but I can talk you under the table. Without even trying. Really. Don't get me started."

They wished me a nice day and moved on. I gave them my blessing for a great life.

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During a massage and reflexology treatment Sunday morning, the power went out.

We've had unseasonably hot weather, I figure running massive air conditioning in Seattle created an overload.

We finished to candle light.

As I checked out, a number of cosmetologists, their clients and desk workers sat in a group, waiting, hoping for 'leccie to re-generate - lights and hair driers - soon.

I raised my fist to them. "Power to the people!"

Then flashed a V for victory as I pushed out the doorway.

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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

The glamorous world of shot-sheeting

"Shot-sheeting" is the process of listing every single shot I see in my head for my next feature film, THE LONELY GOATHERD.

It's excruciatingly tedious, but if I don't do it now - long before the film is shot, I won't be able to pass on how I see the film looking to key crew members, like the director of photography, editor, and any other collaborator who needs to see how I see the film unfolding.

Some scenes are easily shot-sheeted in minutes; others take meticulous, painstaking hours.

Here's what it's like:

The line in the script says simply, "Harry grabs the apple and takes a bite while he sits at his computer."

As the director, you have to ask yourself a lot of questions before you list the shots in this apparently very short, very simple scene.

What is the tone of the scene?

How can I capture it in the first frame?

What is the timing of the scene? Fast? Slow? Somewhere in between?

What sound do I need up front and in the bg (background)?

What follows this scene?

Why does he do this (like, what's his motivation)?

How emotional is he inside and outside and how can I show it with his actions?

How should his hands look (does he work in dirt or on a keyboard)?

His teeth?

His face?

His eyes?

His clothes?

His hair?

His room/environment?

How large a bite should Harry take?

How should he chew the apple (does he have a toothache)?

Knowing all this going in to the effort of shot-sheeting is essential for me.

Some directors wait until the last minute to shot sheet; some don't do it at all. Some prefer to create story boards - pictures of the scene drawn in a panel of frames like a comic strip. I tend not to story board because I feel it keeps the crew too wed to the pictures - which, by their very cartoon strip nature, are designed to be shot separately and edited with fast cuts.

I prefer the freedom shot-sheeting gives me at the shoot itself "on the day," because I can manipulate all the elements of the scene up to the last minute in my computer and then on the set.

I like to multi-layer action scenes, for example. That is, while one thing is going on close up, there are other things going on immediately behind the primary action which must be seen at just the right moment while it plays out. I shot such a scene in THE WHOLE TRUTH.

Typically, the scene would be shot in tiny segments and edited together with fast cuts; my scene has a number of things going on at once without all the cuts.

There is one scene in THE LONELY GOATHERD that I'm storyboarding because so much is going on, and the audience needs to see each moment of it. I need to shoot it one small segment at a time.

Back to shot sheeting the simple script line, "Harry grabs the apple and takes a bite while he sits at his computer."

I know Harry's upset about something at the top of the scene. How do I show that from frame 1?

Here's the shot sheet I develop - sometimes moving just like the character does when I write it down so I can be sure to catch nuances:

1. CU (close-up) gnarly apple that looks too yukky to eat. Harry's hand grabs the apple, whipping it out of frame.

2. ECU (extreme close up), Harry's face, as he whisks the apple to his mouth, viciously ripping a large bite out of the aged fruit.

3. MCU (medium close up), Harry's face, as he reax (re-acts) to the hideous taste of the apple and throws it, disgusted, in the trash - spitting out the apple bite along with it.

4. CU, hideous apple, landing in the trash can.

5. MCU, Harry, upset, folds his arms, legs sticking straight out under his desk as he sees THE PHOTO on his computer.

6. CU, photo of Cute Girl hugging Cute Guy on Harry's computer screen.

7. CU, Harry stares grimly at the photo - the computer light setting his face aglow.

8. ECU, Harry's angry eyes as they shift slowly into a sad eyes. Tears well, and one streams slowly down his cheek.
*end of scene*

When we actually shoot the scene, we may modify the shot sheet because of several elements that would influence the shoot on the day, but since the essentials are there, we know we'll get the "bread and butter" of the scene.

After this simple, primary version of this scene on my shot sheet, I'd review and redo it and finesse at least a couple more times to see if we can intensify it emotionally and visually.

This is only one way to set up shots. There are as many others as there are directors.

I just list what I consider the best way to set up the scene, then work from there. Finesse, finesse, finesse. I try different approaches. Different apples. What if the apple is so crunchy he can't get a bite. What if, what if, what if.

Collaborating with the actor is the next step. How does he see the film? How does he see Harry grabbing and eating the apple?

Actors aren't normally involved with the way the scene is directed shot for shot, but they must trust that you, the director, will find the best way possible to convey the emotional state of the character. The best way to do that for me is to discuss the character's behavior and emotions with the actor so I can visualize what we're both seeing.

For films, acting is all about re-acting. How can I best show him reacting to the turmoil, the angst, the upset that is going on in his life and mind?

I frequently do exactly what I see the character doing in my mind. If she walks across the room, that's what I do in order to make certain the visual portrayal is true to the character and, again, catch all the nuances.

Maybe include a cutaway of his fist curling up tight?

A "cutaway" is a shot of something that we take separately but include in the montage of the scene.

If Harry always talks about how the cuckoo clocks of the world are crazy-makers, we might toss in a shot of a cuckoo clock going off sporadically throughout the scene, ending it with a dozen cuckoo clocks going off at once, each clock filmed separately and stacked one atop the other so it looks - well, crazy!

As soon as I finish shot-sheeting, I review the script to make the changes I created during the shot-sheeting process. Problems I may have found during the shot-sheeting process. Finding little action lapses - where the action isn't quite fully connected is common.

We don't want to shoot too much (especially using 35mm film!), we don't want to shoot too little, but we still want to give ourselves enough good coverage for each scene so we have plenty to choose from in the editing suite.

So that's a shot sheet of just one simple sentence in a script.

Fancy doing this with 100 pages filled with 60 lines on each page? That's what I've been doing for the past several weeks every moment I have "free."

That's just one of the thousand tedious parts of the "glamorous" job of directing that so many people *think* they want to do - until they actually do it. Me, I love every tiny little task, every aspect of the job others might consider boring, too miniscule or detailed.

While working through the shot sheets with my crew collaborators (DP, production designer, sound, editor), I also get to cast and work with actors - my very favorite part of the job.

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Monday, July 20, 2009

THE WHOLE TRUTH - New Poster!









Just in case you wondered if it's a comedy ... Yes that is the in-real-life drop dead gorgeous, normally glamorous, gifted, serious actress Elisabeth Röhm as Angela Masters in THE WHOLE TRUTH.

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Sunday, July 19, 2009

LIFE AS ART - my first narrative film

This is the first completed narrative film I produced, wrote and directed.

At that time, my story telling background was primarily in news (newspaper, magazine, radio and TV) and documentary films.

It's about a guy - Todd Ellington - who devotes his life to his art - at the expense of everything else.

As we're mesmerized by watching him prepare to perform his art, we also see life go on without him; we watch life pass him by. Todd appears to be oblivious to this.

Despite his dedication and sacrifice to enhance his talent, perfect his skills and (especially) develop his facial features and expressions - those who watch him "perform" completely miss what he wants them to see most. What he is desperate for them to see!

In short, no matter how much he worked to have the audience experience what he prepared to show them? They miss it. They're looking everywhere else at everything else instead.

LIFE AS ART was an official selection of the Seattle International Film Festival and shown 'round the world, independently and in film festivals - it also enjoyed the honor of being screened with the Swedish comedy classic THE APPLE WAR at a local Seattle theater during its rare run.

Starring Kevin Wilde, the amazing score is composed and performed by Ben Hippen. I wrote the song, "Art is Forever."

Director of photography is Lon Magdich. It was shot on 16mm film.

The Rainy States film festival reviewer wrote: "Kenneth Branagh takes more than three hours to explain Hamlet's angst; director Colleen Patrick takes a mere 13 and a half minutes."

Because of its length, it's shown here in two segments. Credits are always part of my films - so there's something new for you to see until the very last frame.

LIFE AS ART - PART I



LIFE AS ART - PART II

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Friday, July 17, 2009

WALLS - my silent film in English and French

It's about the real and imagined walls we create between ourselves and others - preventing us from getting what we want.

Starring Kevin Wilde, the incredible score is by Evan Schiller.

Shot on 16mm film; director of photography is Lon Magdich. I produced, wrote and directed.

It's 8:31 minutes; the credits are always part of my films to the very last frame.


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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Mine is a home of freedom





























Several years ago I asked calligrapher Susan Sawyer to ink something I wrote - This Is A Home Of Freedom - so I could frame and hang it in my living room.

It's about 36"x24" - quite large.

It's copyrighted, and I've been asked several times to publish and sell it, but I'd rather just share it here with you.

I hope you enjoy it and find it worthy to read with your family.

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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Write what you know - or not .....

Perhaps the most often piece of advice given by writing teachers is to "write what you know."

Or "write about something with which you are familiar."

I know an extremely successful screenwriter, Michael Brandt (Wanted, 3:10 to Yuma, Courier, the Wanted sequel - Wanted: Weapons of Fate, many more and he's preparing to direct his first feature now!), who disagrees.

He says that his success comes from writing about what he doesn't know; subjects with which he is not familiar.

Even though I have incorporated things about which I know in my screenplays, I agree with him.

When we write about something we know, we can get bogged down with too much knowledge about the subject, and when we approach a subject from our knowledgeable point of view, we may not understand the reader's - completely in the dark - perspective.

There's a level of assumption about subjects we write for which we have a lot of - perhaps even too much - knowledge.

I definitely found this to be true in my work with THE WHOLE TRUTH - a film involving something about which I'm considered an "expert." I'd assume knowledge of the reader or audience because in my mind, certain things automatically made sense. But to an unassuming newcomer to the subject?

For my next film, THE LONELY GOATHERD, I knew *nothing* about the subjects I wrote. I had to do extensive research - books, videos, films and lots of hands on experience and education with live goats of all kinds and people who care for them.

All the other elements of the story were brand new to me as well. More massive research and character development for me. Plus that, most of the action takes place in Switzerland!

So how did I come up with the story? A story I've come to love - along with all its characters?

The Seven Steps.

The Seven Steps were developed by an actor several years ago - and are taught today by some writing teachers as a way to encourage students to fearlessly create stories.

I used them when I coached writers to help free creative juices and get my coachees to develop a number of potential projects on which to work. The most important use of these steps is to force the writer to complete a full story, from beginning to end.

Without a complete "story spine," most beginning writers (and even lots of pro's) run into walls in the second act.

After each step, just fill in the blank and move on to the next step. They're good for any genre of story, light or dark, comedy or drama, happy and unhappy endings.

Mind you, this is not designed to be an outline of the entire story, just a follow through line that keeps your story on track. It's like the Christmas tree without the needles and decorations.

Here they are:

1. Once upon a time ...

2. And every day ...

3. Until one day ...

4. And because of that ...

5. And because of that ...

6. Until finally ...

7. And ever since then ...

If you're interested in writing, I recommend you create as many stories as possible as quickly as possible using the seven steps. They aren't ideal for every writer, but they certainly do stimulate the imagination and lots of ideas!

Here's a silly sample of how to complete The Seven Steps:

1. Once upon a time ... (there were two high school teenagers who hated their French teacher)

2. And every day ... (they would plot ways to kill that teacher)

3. Until one day ... (they saw and seized their chance to send him into the next world - they drove him off the road, over a cliff!)

4. And because of that ... (while they had no French homework, they became increasingly nervous because the police came to school, asking everyone if they had seen the French teacher)

5. And because of that ... (they grew short tempered with one another, making sure each kept his story straight, that they remembered exactly "where they were" and "what they were doing" away from the scene of the crime)

6. Until finally ... (a persistent police officer who had visited the school several times asked the boys if they would accompany him. They found the teacher in a crashed car and needed an identification. Relieved, they willingly followed the police officer into the hospital - assuming they were going to the morgue. To their horror, they were taken to a hospital room - where the bandaged, oxygen-masked French teacher, both legs elevated in splints, weakly pointed to the boys as his assailants)

7. And ever since then ... (the boys have been in juvenile detention, sentenced to ten years of French lessons)

That's just off the top of my head. You can no doubt do better - please do! And don't fret over your choices, just go for it. It only took me a couple minutes to come up with the French students' dilemma.

Give your character(s) a happy ending! Or not...

Mostly, just enjoy the process - don't make it feel like it's laborious.

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Monday, July 13, 2009

Stana's Castle - the moat is up for Season II


Stana Katic is back for a second season with co-star Nathan Fillion in the snappy mystery series, Castle!

New episodes start Monday, September 21 at 10pm/9pm Central on your local ABC station.

The writers, IMO, have really found their legs on this series, and Stana's character, Detective Kate Beckett, has been given far more range and depth as the series developed last year than most series allow their lead actresses.

Undoubtedly that's because Stana can handle it all.

Likewise, fellow Canadian actor Nathan Fillion reaps the rewards of some dandy writing.

On the series' fan-run website I've linked, unlike the network site, the writers are given top billing over the actors.

If they continue to increase the quality they built upon last season, they'll deserve every bit of that notoriety. There's a growing depth woven among all the lead characters that engages us in a way that we want not just to see the weekly story, but the characters interact because there is, increasingly, more at stake for all of them.

Mystery book readers .. "Richard Castle" has a book coming out - HEAT WAVE - it's on sale now from the series' web site and amazon.com; it will be released September 29.

The character upon which writer Richard Castle bases his novel's female police detective, ala Kate Beckett, he names Heat. Thus, HEAT WAVE and other titles using the name Heat.

Congratulations, Stana! Well deserved and good luck in season II!

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Sunday, July 12, 2009

THE WHOLE TRUTH - Full Tilt!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

A stirring day of being shaken

I attended Stephen Lennstrom's wedding today.

Who is Stephen Lennstrom?

He is someone I coached in acting between the ages of 10 and 14. He was the kid in the limousine for Gray Poupon commercials. He was also in a couple indie features.

Only one of them gets listed in IMDb, EDEN, co-starring Sean Patrick Flanery.

Hey! Sean Patrick Flanery also stars in my screwball comedy THE WHOLE TRUTH! Talk about six degrees of separation!

Anyway, young Stephen had many, many personal challenges when he first came to me, so we went through a lot together as he grew into an impressive teenager.

He didn't just learn to act with me; he learned how to love reading, math, geography and getting good grades!

His mom, Connie, was on board for all the learning "side trips" we took in order to help him become a well-rounded, happy youngster. To "pay" for extra sessions, Stephen helped me with yard work and other chores around the house.

I ran into a wasp nest one day we were doing yard work. He rushed over to help whack them off me, but I ended up with several stings to my face and neck nonetheless. I called the local poison control center, and was told to put ice on the stings, take Benedryl and wait.

Wait?

"If you go into anaphylactic shock (deadly)," said the strangely non-empathetic, authoritative voice, "It should happen in about 10-15 minutes."

Rather than worry Stephen, I told him to go outside for about ten minutes, come back, and if he could see I was on my last legs, call 9-1-1.

After being outside only three minutes, he came back, calling, "Dead yet?"

"Um, no."

Such a thoughtful kid. Really.

So we sat there, waiting for fate to strike. My fate was to live with ice on my face and neck until those huge splotches finally shrank from being hideous high hot hills hiding my features to just being nasty strawberry-colored blimps for the next couple days.

I dressed casually when I coached. Deal is, all the great clothes and make-up in the world won't make you a better actor. The acting has to come from inside. One can use clothes, shoes, make-up and such to enhance the character, but when all is said and done? Like each of us, at the end of the day we're alone.

Without clothes other than nightwear; left with only our thoughts and feelings.

Part of my coaching attire was a baseball cap worn backward.

One day I got invited to a special event; I opened and read the invitation aloud to Stephen, growling about having to dress formally for the occasion.

"How do you dress up?" asked Stephen. "Turn your baseball cap rim to the front?"

That's the difference between us. He just thought that was funny; I actually took a full second to consider it. Before I chased him with a squirt gun.

Edited to add: I was reminded how this little chase ended. No, he did not have a squirt gun, but he *was* smart enough to grab the garden hose and turn on the water. Game over. ;-)

That's the cool part about being a coach. You don't have to give your coachee a squirt gun, too.

Anyway, those four years were filled with lots more adventures and growing pains, all of them memorable.

His favorite part of working? Craft service.

Craft service is all the snack food - generally a nice layout - near the set.

This kid had his priorities in place.

Here's Stephen in his famous Grey Poupon commercial:



I think I buried the lead in my story.

I don't believe kids belong in show business.

Well, except for a few youngsters I call "Freaks of Nature" who are clearly intended by some force of character to be there. Who love and thrive on the homework and all the other miserable stuff that goes with the life.

Stephen was one of those kids, but I always told him if he ever, for any reason, wanted to be "just a kid," he could feel free to tell me and I would never be disappointed. I would only be very happy that he told me what he wanted to do. That he knew what he wanted to do, because most young people do not.

That day came when he was 14.

True to my word, we celebrated a decision that had been thought out carefully and with genuine foresight. He wanted to be a kid, to devote more time to soccer and sports, and to his faith and religious studies.

When we had our last official session, Stephen had a keen grasp on relationship skills, moreso than people at just about any age. Learning about psychology and character development can do that for you if you're a willing and able student.

Stephen's mom and I kept in touch so I could follow his maturation - and so he would know I continued to care about him.

I saw him one evening a few years later at a high school play I attended to see another of my young actors (I actually only coached a few kids in case it sounds like I had a flock of them). Unbeknownst to me, he sidled in next to me; aware of someone pushing against me-

It was Stephen!

About a full foot taller with red hair that was so huge and long it looked like an autumn afternoon - on fire! He was growing it to donate to Locks of Love - an organization that makes wigs for children who have lost their hair from medical treatments.

That familiar "AAAAAHHHHH!!!!" scream one does with teenagers, followed by big hugs and we caught up. Doing really well in school, helping with school plays behind the scenes (sound) and continuing his spiritual and religious work.

So it should not have surprised me that at the tender age of 22, he is not only getting married, but prepared for this significant life change.

Ordinarily I'd say 30 is a more sensible age for marriage. If that. Not so Stephen and Amy.

Stephen and Amy are on the same page: they have not spent the past two years preparing to get married, they prepared to be married, and there is a phenomenal difference between the two.

In addition to his "straight" job, Stephen is in the process of becoming a minister. Working with adults and youngsters not by telling them what they should or should not do, but by example and by having empathy and passion for helping others and being the most thoughtful, caring individual he can possibly be. His role model is Jesus - has been for nearly ten years.

None of it's forced - that's just who Stephen is.

And aren't those who know him better for having him in our lives - at any age.

I could not stifle my tears at the ceremony - or the reception. Still can't.

Here are some pictures from the wedding of Stephen, Amy and his mom, Connie:





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Friday, July 10, 2009

The Key Trailer for THE WHOLE TRUTH!

The screwball story of a gifted acting coach who pays dearly for using her skills to help criminals become so symptathetic to juries they're aquitted!

Starring Elisabeth Röhm, Sean Patrick Flanery, Rick Overton, John Fugelsang, Kristina Lilley, Pisay Pao and Eric Roberts.

It's on its way to a screening for distributors soon - so far everyone invited is coming!

To be perfectly honest - distributorship representatives almost always attend screenings of a new film so they won't miss out or have a competitor pick up a film that might do well.


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Thursday, July 09, 2009

Sure, making a film is hard work - but!

Eric Roberts tells why THE WHOLE TRUTH was so much fun for him!



Kristina Lilley speaks to her millions of Spanish speaking fans - and translates for English speakers. THE WHOLE TRUTH is Kristina's first English speaking film role; as you can hear for yourself, she speaks both Spanish and English without an accent!



The last behind the scenes interview honors to be posted online for THE WHOLE TRUTH go to Rick Overton and John Fugelsang! There will be more on the bonus DVD - which hopefully won't be out for a long time (after the theatrical release!). Stay tuned for more news following the screening for distributors in LA soon!

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Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Elisabeth Röhm, Rick Overton and John Fugelsang

talk about their experience on THE WHOLE TRUTH - our screwball comedy that will enjoy a screening for film distributors in LA soon. I'm really looking forward to showing our movie to folks responsible for theatrical and other releases.

I'm thrilled to report that there has already been interest shown in our film by some; it's been a work in progress with editor Stephen Meyers until Monday, when I locked it. I could not be happier with it now.

Rick and John talk about their experience on set:




Elisabeth shares how she got involved with her first comedy:

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Monday, July 06, 2009

More EPK interviews from THE WHOLE TRUTH!

Executive producer Gary Allen Tucci talks about his passion for films - and unlike just about anyone in the industry, he goes to see films in theaters, sitting with audiences at least three times a week!



Jim Holmes talks about playing successful lawyer Brad Sanders:





Producer Larry Estes learned not to gamble on set!



I chat about working with Eric Roberts, Sean Patrick Flanery, Elisabeth Röhm and Kristina Lilley!

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Sunday, July 05, 2009

Jealousy, Mozart and Antonio Salieri

If you've seen Amadeus - the award-winning film or the play written by Peter Shaffer - you know it shows how Antonio Salieri , an Italian composer (1750-1825) became so consumed with jealousy of Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart he not only worked to destroy the composer's career, he went on to poison the genius musician, and in the process destroyed himself - literally driving himself crazy with a vicious, malicious resentment of Mozart, then remorse for killing such a magnificent gift-of-God talent.

F. Murray Abraham portrayed the troubled Salieri in the film.

Salieri suffered his final years in an insane asylum, eaten alive by his hatred of the gifted young composer and himself.



Tom Hulce portrayed Mozart in the film.





A portrait of the real Mozart.





After an unsuccessful suicide attempt, Salieri was forced to live with the demons he created and fomented from his resentment and desire to be born with the talent the "undeserving" Mozart possessed.

Salieri was no stranger to talented musicians - he taught such luminaries as Ludwig von Beethoven, Franz Schubert and Franz Lizt.

But Mozart was different - Salieri saw in Mozart the potential of being the greatest composer to ever live.

He resented Mozart even as a young prodigy - a phenom in today's vernacular.

Still, compositions created by Mozart as a youngster would not be as great as those he composed as a young adult.

Mozart died when he was 35, his body dumped in a mass paupers' grave.

The real story in "Amadeus," of course, is Salieri's. His devious, horrific, senseless rage against the willful young composer.

Here is Salieri's portrait; the eyes tell his story, don't they?

But, as he knew - without reason - after he was gone, no would show up to watch a story about a guy named ... "Salieri" (who?).

Just as he knew - without reason - that Mozart's body would somehow be rescued from a paupers' mass grave; that Mozart's name would somehow rise from the ashes and live on and be one of the world's most revered composers.

After seeing the film, I shook my head. "What a waste."

Because Salieri did not recognize his own great talent, he led a life of anger, hatred, bitterness and loss.

To me, Salieri's true gift - his real genius - was identifying magnificent talent. Talent others did not have the ability to perceive, recognize, appreciate or comprehend.

He saw a magnificence others did not. He recognized Mozart's phenomenal prodigiousness; his enduring brilliance. While many appreciated Mozart's talent, none found it to be the degree Salieri discerned.

Imagine how enjoyable Salieri's life would have been had he not only befriended Mozart, but did everything he could to enhance his work; to elevate Mozart's genius, his career, his life and his future. They could have had a "bromance!"

Jealousy is the desire to have something we can never possess. It's a forever unrequited craving that can never be realized. Never. It's a self-made tragedy that too often harms the target of that jealousy - especially the target of that unnecessary bitterness.

It's sad to witness that self-created devastation.

I saw Amadeus at a time I worked with people whose talent I discovered and fostered. I had never considered discovering and nurturing potential and talent as a true gift unto itself.

After seeing Amadeus, I realized that I revel in finding great talent and assisting those who are born with it - I don't get jealous. I only want to help them, nurturing their talent to it's greatest expression. It's exciting and so much fun to be around it - to bask in its glow!

I also work professionally in the realms I coach and mentor. I hope Shaw misspoke when he declared, "Those who can, do. Those who cannot, teach." I like to think I am capable of doing both, and believe that teaching is a specific and special skill unto itself.

As I'm sure others who also nurture/teach/mentor will agree: it's a very rewarding life.

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Friday, July 03, 2009

The view outside my bedroom

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Superstar in Spanish speaking nations Kristina Lilley

She plays Detective Winslow in THE WHOLE TRUTH - talks about working with me as an acting coach!




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